Mahal Kita Pero (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 37

"Sa totoo lang, between the two of us, ikaw ang mas malaki ang pinagbago." He started.

"Bakit ako?" I asked curiously paano napunta sa akin ang topic.

"Nagsisimula pa lang ako, sumisingit ka na. Paano ako makakapagpaliwanag niyan." He jokingly said to light up the mood.

"Sige. Hindi ako magsasalita o sisingit. Basta sabihin mo kung bakit because I am dead curious."

"Pero ayon, napakalaki na ng pinagbago mo. You were that sensitive kiddo na napakabilis umiyak sa school way back in preschool." We both laughed as we remember the younger version of Enzo. "And I am really happy after finding out how that sensitive kiddo grew up to be you. Nakakatuwa kasi wala ka nang pake sa sinasabi ng iba tungkol sa 'yo. You finally learned to ignore negativities in your life. No wonder, iwas na iwas ka rin sa akin." His voice went back to being sad real quick. "But I can't blame you after you said those things about me. Sobrang nakakatakot nga siguro ako na puro negativities na lang ang nakikita."

"Yuji"

"No, Enzo. It's okay. I should've expected na magiging ganoon ang outcome but still, no regrets. I did those things before on purpose."

"Hindi ko pa rin maisip kung bakit mo ginawa 'yon and it really seems like sobrang mahalagang rason siya para sa 'yo kaya ayos lang na maging masama ang tingin ng mga tao sa 'yo."

"Ayos lang talaga. Masaya akong ginawa ko 'yon." He answered. "When we were younger, I learned how to put up a fight because I want to be that person who defends you from everything and everyone." I was surprised when he said that. I looked again into his face to see if he wss joking but there is no trace of it right now. "We were three years old back then nang sinuntok ko 'yong kalaro natin because he told me na babarilin ka nya." He laughed after saying that. "Alam kong napakababaw pero I never wanted you to get hurt and that time, all I know is that I have the chance to stop that from happening. When we were five, pinunit ko 'yong damit ng kalaro natin because he keeps on insisting na sa kanya na lang daw 'yong strawberry flavor na ice cream but I know how bad you wanted it. When we were seven, it became my first instinct to defend you from everyone na masama ang tingin sa 'yo kasi alam ko nang baka i-bully ka nila. When we were ten, nakipag-away ako dahil inasar nila akong bakla for always choosing to defend you. I was okay with it. Ako na lang sana ang asarin nila but when they started to say things about you, I lost it." I don't know what to feel right now. I feel so guilty and sad at the same time for thinking negatively about him when it's all about me in the first place. But right now, all I can see is a smiling guy telling me how dumb I am for feeling mad at him for the reason that I knew nothing about. "When we were twelve, while I was playing DOTA, someone said na kagaya mo ang matatalo and again, I lost it. I never wanted them to say those things about you. Hurt me. Punch me. I will never take revenge. But when it's about you, I can't let them go away with it. And I hate that they used your name as if it is a bad thing to be you." My tears suddenly dropped because of that. "When we were fourteen, I almost killed someone. They pranked me and I was okay until I heard that you are going to be the next one they'll pull their prank on. I cannot let them do that. Chances are you'll get hurt and I cannot let that happen. I will not let that happen."