Mahal Kita Pero (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 44

"Stop crying, Enzo. Please?" Yuji tried his best to console me. Ang bigat sa puso na hindi maintindihan ni Matthew ang nangyayari and I can't even explain dahil ayaw ko siyang mas masaktan pa.

"I don't deserve him, Yuji. I don't deserve his love." I can't stop feeling bad. If I can only go to his house right now and meet him, I'd gladly to. Kahit hindi ko na maipaliwanag nang maayos, gusto ko lang maramdaman niyang nandito pa rin ako.

"Minahal ka niya kasi deserve mong mahalin. You deserve all the love in this world, Enzo. And I am your evidence that you love him so much. Unfortunately, it wasn't the same love that he wants to receive from you." He tried his best to comfort me. Actually, kahit hindi na siya magsalita, knowing that I have him right now makes everything better. "Wanna have some lomi? I've heard na nakakatanggal daw ng sadness 'yon."

I hugged him tight. I'm just thankful for having this guy beside me right now.

"Go, love. Take a shower and I'll take you somewhere."

"Saan?"

"Basta. You'll find peace in there."

I followed what he said and took a shower even though I do not know where are we going. Siguro, ganoon na nga yata talaga kalaki ang tiwala ko sa kanya to take me to places kahit walang kasiguraduhan pa.

After taking a shower, I saw that he is no longer inside the room so I immediately dressed up and went out.

"Bakit tayo magkokotse?" I asked when I saw him standing beside his car.

"No questions, love. Trust me."

Kahit na hindi ko alam kung saan pupunta, sumakay ako sa sasakyan niya. We were both quiet during the ride and honestly, I prefer it that way because I want to calm myself out. I still can't get over with what Matt and I have talked about a while ago and it still hurts me knowing how bad he was hurt.

The car stopped when we arrived at the church.

"Why here?" I asked.

"When you cannot understand what is happening, He will answer. When there is chaos, He will give peace. And when in doubt, just trust Him. He will never let us down." I smiled right after he said that.

Sabay kaming bumaba ng sasakyan at sabay ring pumasok sa simbahan. We chose to sit at the front of the church.

"Para mas maramdaman mong nandito lang kami." He whispered after we sat down.

I looked in front of me and saw the crucified Jesus Christ enduring the pain of the cross.

Lord, I'm putting all this heaviness on You. I know naman po that You are always in control but this time, I'm asking po for a steadier heart not just for me but also for Matthew as well. We both need Your guidance, Lord. We both need Your presence in our lives right now and sana po, magkaayos pa rin kami because I don't want us to part ways dahil lang dito. Lord, strengthen our friendship the way You molded it and give us the courage to bring back the friendship that we always knew. Lord, above all, thank You for giving me this time to be with Yuji. Heal him, Lord, for he deserves to live longer. Make us stronger to face the challenges ahead of us. I know na marami po Kayong priorities ngayon, Lord, pero makikisingit po ako. Sana po mapagbigyan Niyo po ako.

"Lord, this person beside me is the perfect person for me. I hope na sana kami na po talaga. O kung hindi man po, kung deadline ko na po talaga, sana mahanap niya 'yung taong perfect din sa kanya." Yuji prayed out loud.

"Lord, sana po si Yuji na. Alam ko pong hindi Niyo hahayaang deadline niya na kasi po may sinusulat pa po Kayong perfect love story para sa aming dalawa." I edited his prayer and held his hands. "Kung hindi ikaw, Yuji, hindi na lang."