Save Me | Markhyuck ✔️

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚛𝚝𝚢 𝙵𝚘𝚞𝚛

17/11/2019

Hey again,

I don't understand why he keeps ignoring me. Hyuck that is. He's treating me as though I've done something wrong but won't tell me what. Hopefully, he is just ill. He told me he had a headache this morning. I hope he feels better soon, I don't like him like this.

I miss the soft-centred, bubbly boy I fell in love with. I know it's only been a day, but still.

The thoughts are becoming unbearable. They keep slipping in when I'm sat doing my school work or watching TV.

Hyuck seemed fine this morning but things have gone awall since then. I don't understand him sometimes. I get that he has depression, anxiety and is self-conscious, but I've never met someone so diverse in my life. He can be a cute giggly kid one minute and the next he is shutting himself out from everyone and refusing to speak.

I don't think I can cope this time around. I might have to try songwriting again, especially if Hyuck won't talk to me.

I hate this. Everything about life at the moment is so dull.

I wonder what happened to Hyuck's face. I just wish he would speak to me.

Jeno asked I liked him today. I lied. I would tell him, but I don't want Hyuck to find out. I don't know if I have the confidence to tell him, but I also don't want to pressure him. We seem to be getting closer though.

My head feels like it's spinning. Like I can't focus on one thing at a time. It just jumps all over the pace. It's so annoying, especially when writing anything.

I still can't place why Hyuck won't talk to me. I don't understand what I did wrong. He disappeared halfway through the day without telling anyone which is worrying me the most. I should ask Jaemin to talk to him for me again.

Jeno asked if we could hang out this weekend and I agreed. I'm hoping it will take my mind off things. Besides, it's been a while since we hung out just the two of us.

Hyuck has bruises and cuts all over his face. I think maybe Ten might have something to do with Hyuck being so quiet. Maybe that's where Hyuck had disappeared off to at lunch.

Jaemin and all are cool. Jisung and Chenle are so cute. They swear they are just friends but I still think they look cute together. I also think Jeno has got a thing for Jaemin, but then again he's the same with Renjun. Maybe they just have a different type of friendship to mine and Jeno's.

I might tell Hyuck soon. How I feel towards him. I could never tell him that we are more similar than he knows. It's scary though. I don't want to ruin what we have. We are so close and it's been such a short amount of time. I don't want to take things too fast. I just want him by my side. All the time. I want to be selfish. But only for him. I'll let you know how it goes.

Goodnight now,

𝑴𝒂𝒓𝒌 𝑳𝒆𝒆

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Double update!!

Okay, I know that was a bit short but I need to explain myself.

I decided to do the diary entries so I could convey their emotions a little better. This time around I also decided to add a bit more character into them.

Hyuck's diary is a little more focused and constant whereas Marks is more all over the place if you hadn't noticed.

Personally, I think these forms of writing fit their characters well in this story.

But I want to know what you guys think??

I also want to thank everyone for getting us to 3k reads. I really hope you are all enjoying my story💕

I was wondering if there is anything in particular that you want to see from this story as I'm thinking that it's going to be a long one?

💕Thanks for reading💕

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