Be my Pretty Man (#1 of Guilberra Series)✔

Chapter 39

I made my way to the school while still devestated at what happened. I just wish I can turn back time to take back what I said. I should'nt push him away...

"Diaaa!! I missed youu! how's your Vacation?!" Ate Luna asked. I just smiled at her slightly. "Ah..okay lang naman...medyo may hindi pagkaintindihan but it's all fine.." I lied. Mahirap na kasing isali pa sila sa problema ko. Knowing that it would be a bad idea to drag them into this.

I shooked my head and waved at ate Luna on which she waved back. Tahimik na pumasok ako sa aking classroom. Sa totoo lang, wala talaga akong ganang pumasok ngayon. Hindi pa kasi maalis sa aking isipan yung mga nangyari nung Christmas.

While writing, I noticed that the school newspaper is out. I grabbed one and read about it. Buti naman at naisipan na nilang ipublish ang newspaper, kung hindi ay mas matatagalan pa ako sa club.

Since natapos naman ang newspaper ay hindi ko na kailangan sumali sa mga club meetings. Mas mabuti na 'to para hindi ko makita si Charles.

"Dia..you look worn out today, nay problema ba?" Tanong ni Rachel sa akin. Oh Rachel, kung alam mo pang kung gaano kahirap ang buhay ko. I just patted her a few times and then nodded. "Of course I am..Chel" Ani ko at lumabas sa classroom. God I want to be alone so badly right now. Tinanaw ko lang ang buong school at napangiti. The smell of the atmosphere made my heart calm. But then seeing him again took it all back. I see him, with Vanessa. Even though my mind says no, my feet would'nt follow.

I just stood there. Staring at them. Nang natanto niya na may tumitingin sa kanya ay napalingon rin siya. His Happy expression changed. It's like, it's very distant, like my brother. His once grinning face was long gone. Where no signs of wanting me by his side showing.

"Char-" Naputol lang ang aking salita ng sumabat siya. "Pwede ba Diana, just leave me alone. Diba ayaw mo naman ako sa buhay mo?" Just hearing it from him made my heart break. Parang dahan-dahan na binabasag ang aking puso.

"P-Pero-" I protested. He just glared at me out of anger. "PERO? ANONG PERO DIANA?! DO YOU WANT ME TO SHOUT TO THE WHOLE WORLD THAT I DON'T LIKE YOU? BECAUSE I DON'T!! I REALLY DON'T! SO STOP IMAGINING THAT I LIKE YOU!" Sigaw niya sa akin. I flinched when he shouted. It made me face the whole people. "You're so desperate..kaya tigil tigilan mo na yang ilusyon mo!" He shouted once more and pushed me. I just sat on the ground, still shocked at what he did. My tears were threatening to fall. Is this it? ito na ba yung napala ko?

Pero tama nga siya. I'm so desperate of finding love, and I should stop imagining things, kasi malabong maging kami. I stand and faced the whole crowd forming around me. I excused myself and ran to the restroom.

"I'm so desperate, so immature, such an idiot.." I whispered to myself. Hindi na, masakit na eh. I never thought that the guy I least expect to despise me will hate me the most. I continuosly wipe my tears but to no avail wala parin. It wont stop flowing. I just sit for a while. Sobbing to myself.

And here I am, embarrased, hated, alone. Wala naman talaga akong kwentang tao. Ito na siguro yung karma ko. Yung karma ko sa ginawa ko sa mga tao noon. I made them suffer. So, tama lang na mag suffer ako ng ganito.

I made my way outside the restroom just to see a group of girls gossiping about me.

"Omg that was so embarassing.."

"Ayan kase, desperada"

"Tsk kala mo naman may ikaganda.."

"Shh huwag nga kayong maingay maririnig niya tayo.."

All their whispers affected me. But what affects me the most is Charles. It was so not him when he lashed out to me, is he really faking it? may pag-asa pa ba? My thoughts were interrupted when someone pushed me. "Hey watch where you're going freak!" One guys said. Napa-iling lang ako at hindi sila pinansin. I stopped walking when the other guy sticks out his foot, attempting to trip me.