My Fat Ass Self a Park Jimin ff/smut 18+

Chapter 17

Mostly a filler chapter to wrap up the vacation and transition into her appointment with Yoongi.

I woke up the next morning to Jimin placing kisses on my temple, and the top of my head while running his fingers through my hair 
"Baby?"
"Hmm" I hummed in response 
"We slept out here all night" 
"I know, you fell asleep and I followed suit" 
"It felt nice" 
"Mhmmm" I rubbed my face in his chest 
"Today is our last day" 
"Don't remind me" I closed my eyes and nuzzled into him, he chuckled 
"Still sleepy?" He asked 
"Mhmm" 
"You need to take your meds though" 
"I will" 
He continued to play with my hair while we laid there in the chair in the morning sun, listening to the waves. 
"Sarah! Look!" I jumped at him yelling in my ear, I turned my head to see what he was talking about. On the horizon were five dolphins jumping in the waves, we had to squint to see them, but they were there. And they were beautiful. 
"Wow!"
"I've never seen dolphins so close to the house before" 
"I've never seen dolphins before other than in pictures" 
"God this is perfect" he wrapped his arms around me letting out a content sigh 
"Yeah it is" I buried my head in his chest "can we come back here?"
"Whenever you want, I own this place so we can come and go as we please" 
"Thank god" I giggled
"We have to get up soon babes, I need to pee and if I know you you'll need your coffee soon"
"You know me so well" we laughed as I got off of him and pecked his lips before he walked into the house. I sat in the chair rubbing my eyes and yawning trying to look for the dolphins again, but I guess they swam away at this point. I pouted, I wanted to see them again 
"What's wrong?" Jimin asked as he came out with our coffee cups and my medicines 
"ah, nothing. I was just looking for the dolphins again but I think they left" I looked up at him still pouty as I reached for my coffee 
"You're so cute when you pout" he smiled wide and took his seat next to me
"You're cute all the time" I whispered and sipped my coffee 
"I heard that. I told you I'd make you just as mushy as I am on this trip" 
"I'm not mushy!" 
"Yeah, okay" he rolled his eyes and continued sipping his coffee, I gave him a dirty look and sipped my coffee 
"I saw that" he chuckled
"Gawddddd you're so annoying! I can't get away with anything!" I whined and pouted again 
"And this girl thinks she has it in her to dominate me?" He scoffed "bitch please" he laughed making me laugh 
"I hate you" 
"I love you too" 
We smiled and finished our coffee before heading into the house. 
"So what should we do with our last day?" He asked me as he put his mug in the sink 
"I have no idea, we slept in our clothes so I kinda want to get a shower, get some comfy clothes on, and eat breakfast" 
"That sounds good, we can figure out what else to do after" 
"Awesome, wanna shower with me?" 
"Do I ever say no to that?"
"Not yet" I laughed 
We went to the bedroom and got our comfy clothes out before we went to the bathroom to shower, we stripped out of our clothes and turned the water on, once it got warm enough we got in and stood in the water holding each other for a while. 
"I don't want to move this feels so damn good" 
"I know, but we really should" 
"I knooooow" I groaned making him chuckle "we never had sex on the beach last night, we should do that tonight" he said as he wiggled his eyebrows up and down making me smile
"Only if you want to" I released him and started washing myself 
"Why wouldn't I? If I wasn't so tired it would've happened last night" he chuckled as he started washing himself 
"Now it's the rest of the day we need to figure out" I sighed 
"Want to eat a bunch of greasy food and enjoy the scenery from our beach chairs?" 
"God I love it when you talk dirty" I joked, having a day at the house with junk food isn't a bad idea. This whole vacation we've managed to keep ourselves busy, I think a lazy day would do us some good. After our shower we made breakfast and then Jimin went to the store to get some snacks, I stayed at the house to clean since we have to leave early in the morning, I made sure everything was the way we found it except for the stuff we'd be using until we leave, I even closed up the windows and let the curtains back down just leaving all of the sliding doors open so we just have to take care of that before we go. 
"Wow babe, the place looks great" he said as he kissed my cheek putting the grocery bags down on the counter 
"The whole time we've been here I haven't once gone upstairs, what the hell is up there?" 
"Rooms for the guys, and two more bathrooms. Their rooms should be clean though, I had a cleaning company come out the day before we got here" 
"Oooh, makes sense" 
"I got all of our favorites, and I called the pizzeria for cheesesteaks and a pizza. I figured we could eat the cheesesteaks around lunch? And save the pizza for dinner?" 
"There you go talking dirty again, damn baby..are you trying to seduce me right now?" I winked at him, he pulled out my favorite bag of chips from a grocery bag
"Depends..is it working?" He smirked as he shook the chips, we both started laughing our asses off 
"Why are we like this?"
"I have no idea, but I just embrace it" 
We smiled and finished putting everything away before sitting down in the beach chairs again enjoying the sun, Jimin brought out his bluetooth speaker and put music on for us, the food came and he put it in the house for when we get hungry. I was reading a book on my phone while Jimin was typing away on his laptop 
"Babe?" He asked 
"Hmm?"
"I have to come back to the states next month for two weeks" 
"Okay" 
"Gonna be okay without me for two weeks?"
"I think I can manage, I'll miss you though" I looked up from my book and smiled at him as his cheeks turned pink 
"I'll miss you too" 
I went back to reading my book, we ate our cheesesteaks outside, and then decided to swim for a little bit before we ate dinner. It was a very lazy day. But definitely needed. We packed up all of our stuff except our outfits we would be wearing on the plane and our pajamas. 
"Want to go sit outside again?"
"Sure" I smiled up at him as he came walking into the kitchen, I poured us each a giant glass of wine before making my way out to the chairs
"Here babe" I handed him his glass, I went to walk over to my chair and he stopped me by holding my wrist 
"Come sit with me again" he pouted making me smile
"Sure" 
I turned around and sat in between his legs as we sipped our wine watching the sun set, I laid my head down on his chest and listened to his heartbeat closing my eyes and just enjoying the moment. Everything felt nice. I hope I'm not crushing him though, and I wonder if his legs are spread too far apart so I can sit here. 
"You sure you're comfortable like this?" I asked letting my anxiety get the best of me
"Absolutely" he kissed the top of my head
He's lying. He just doesn't want to hurt my feelings. God why am I thinking like this? Just fucking relax, your boyfriend is cuddling with you, just breathe Sarah, if you were crushing him he would tell you. Oh god, what if my head is too heavy on his chest? Can he hear me breathing heavy? Did I not take my meds? No..I did. Jimin brought them all to me this morning..why am I overreacting? 
"Hey babe, how many pills did you bring me this morning?"
"All six, why?"
"Just checking" I smiled and sipped my wine 
I hate when my anxiety acts up for no reason 
"You okay babe?"
"Yeah, I'm fine. My anxiety is just high.. I think it probably just has to do with the fact that we leave tomorrow so my brain is all over the place with everything" 
"Anything I can do to help?"
God he's so fucking sweet. 
"Nope, I'll be okay" I smiled at him "thank you though" I poked out my lips signaling I wanted a kiss and he smiled leaning down to peck my lips. 
"Can I tell you something?"
"Of course baby"
"You're like my first real relationship.. I've dated guys, and girls..here and there..but it wasn't like this. I didn't feel like this. Is that weird?"
"Not at all" he smiled and sipped his wine
"You know this scares the shit out of me right? And you know I'm going to fuck it up at some point right?"
"It scares the shit out of me too, and I worry that I'll fuck it up at some point too, but I think we'll be okay" 
"Do you think it's too soon for us to feel this way?"
"Do feelings have time limits? Can we control our feelings that well to decide when it's an 'appropriate' time to feel them?" 
"No.. I guess not" I shook my head lightly and stared up at the night sky staring at the stars 
"Well then I think it's totally fine" he kissed my temple 
"I'm sorry I tried to push you away and ignored you for four days, you didn't deserve that" 
"I understand your situation though, and even though I was worried about you.. I never took it personally" 
"Thank you"
"You don't have to thank me" he chuckled 
"I brought the mood down, I'm sorry" 
"You need to stop apologizing so much woman, you didn't bring the mood down" 
I giggled "I'll try" 
He smiled down at me "good" 
"Can we put some music on?"
"Sure, your phone or mine?"
"Mine please" I handed him my phone and he hooked it up to the bluetooth speaker and shuffled my playlist, The Used all that I've got came on and I relaxed a little until Jimin started laughing
"What's so funny?"
"Your taste in music. It's so all over the place, and you're probably the only person I know that can listen to this music with your eyes closed and relaxing" 
"Mehh.. I listen to a little bit of everything. You'll get used to it" I smiled 
"I know I will, I don't care what we listen to as long as you're with me" 
"You cheeseball"
"Your cheeseball though" 
I lightly smacked his chest as we laughed, I put my wine glass down on the table and turned around to straddle him, I had my face in his neck and my arms in between our chests pulled into my body, he wrapped his arms around me and held on to me tightly. He started tracing circles and different shapes into my back with his fingers 
"That feels good, can you scratch my back for me?" I closed my eyes and nuzzled further into him, he put his hands under my shirt making me jolt at how cold his hands felt on my skin as he started lightly scratching at my back I let out a small moan at the sensation feeling relaxed and turning into a melted puddle in his lap, I kissed his neck and felt the goosebumps raise automatically making me giggle, he applied more pressure with his fingernails 
"Don't do that, go back to doing it lighter"  
"Why?"
"You know why" 
"Nope, tell me" he said as he went a little harder, I moaned a little
"Sir, are you trying to start something"
"I have no idea what you're talking about" 
I bit his neck making him hiss out a breath 
"You sure about that?"
He smacked my ass really hard making me jump in his lap
"I'm positive" he whispered in my ear before he bit my ear lobe 
"Oh you're not fair" 
"What do you mean baby?" He asked trying to sound innocent, I pulled my arms down to the hem of his shirt and stuck my hands under his shirt lightly scratching his abs up to his nipples letting my fingernails graze lightly over them making them erect immediately 
"Mmmm now who's not being fair?" He asked in a low voice sending chills down my spine, I felt him start to get hard between my legs making me smile 
"What do you mean sir? I haven't done anything" I kissed his jawline, and down his neck before biting him again, I moved my hips forward and back causing a little bit of friction between us, he placed his hands on my thighs pushing me down a little harder as I rocked my hips again making him moan, I smiled watching him close his eyes, bite his lip, and lean his head back leaving his neck open to me. I started kissing and biting all over his neck as I rocked back and forth, I was enjoying his little moans and the whispered curses falling from his lips
"Okay, I need to be inside of you now" he demanded and I smiled before reaching down and pulling his shirt off of him, he pulled my shirt off and unclipped my bra before taking it off and throwing it into the sand somewhere, he took one of my nipples into his mouth and bit down on it harshly making me moan 
"Fuck Jimin" I hissed 
"Stand up baby and take your pants off" he demanded and I complied, he pulled his sweatpants and underwear down bucking his hips up to slide them off of his ass, he motioned with his finger for me to come back and patted his lap
"Come on baby" he demanded as I stared at his erection trying to fathom the fact that we were actually going to do it outside in a beach chair
"Is it really okay to do it out here?" I asked as I walked back over to him
"Of course" 
"Is that chair strong enough for us to fuck on it?" 
"Yes, now come ride my cock" he smirked and pulled my hand making me laugh, I turned around so I was facing away from him and straddled his legs, he smacked my ass as I lowered myself down on him, I placed my hands on his calves using them as support as I let him stretch me out, I had my legs bent and bounced on my knees
"Ah fuck, you feel so good" he breathed out as he grabbed my hair, I threw my head back and picked up my pace bouncing up and down on his cock sliding my hands up to steady myself on his thighs, the reverse cowgirl position is one of my new favorites, it allows him to hit literally every spot, and now that I'm not scared to ride him I see us doing this a lot in the future, I couldn't stop moaning with every bounce I made, he started bucking his hips up and down entering me faster while I felt myself clench around him 
"That's it baby, cum all over my dick" he demanded, he released my hair and put his hands under my thighs lifting me while he took control going up and down "fuck your pussy feels so good" 
"Mmm Jimin I'm gonna cum, fuck" my head fell forward and I put my hands back on his calves letting him slam in and out of me while I just tried to support myself from falling over. I finally came all over his dick while I let out a loud moan, goosebumps took over my body as I felt like a puddle of jello 
"Good girl, fuck you're so wet" he moaned "ride me baby" he moved his hands from under my thighs and let me take control of the pace again, I put my hands on either arm of the chair and bounced up and down faster and faster while I moaned and praised him, I stopped and put my feet in the sand completely spread open but able to go faster as I supported my self on my feet, I brought one of my hands forward and started circling my clit as I bounced faster letting him slide in and out of me as he hit my gspot over and over 
"Fuck I'm gonna cum again" 
"Fuck you ride this dick so good baby, don't stop" he scratched his nails down my back as hard as he could making me arch my back and try to go faster, my second orgasm snapped and I squirted all over him, that's the first time I've ever squirted during sex and I couldn't help the loud noise that left my mouth 
"Oh fuck baby, fuck that felt so good" 
"Oh god Jimin, please cum for me" 
"you want me to cum baby? Huh? You want me to fill up your cunt?"
"Yes, fuck, yes" I screamed out 
"Oh fuck" 
I came down on him one last time and he held me there as he filled me up 
"Fuck, God damn it" he moaned out as he hit his high, he took his hands off of me and laid back in the chair panting, I was leaned forward with my hands between his legs using the chair for support as I tried to catch my breath, my pussy was still clenching around him trying to milk his cock, he placed his hands on my back sliding them up and down not caring that I was a sweaty mess 
"God, baby that was so good" 
"Mmm" I moaned in response as I stood up letting him slide out of me
"Come here baby" 
"Hold on"
I walked into the house and grabbed a throw blanket from the bedroom, I brought it outside and covered us with it as I curled up next to him in the chair, both of us naked and sweaty but finally breathing normal. He kissed my forehead and ran his fingers through my hair as I nuzzled my face into his neck 
"I love how you ride me baby, you're such a good girl" he cooed as he kissed my forehead giving me butterflies
"Now that I know I won't crush you, I'll do it more often." I giggled 
"See? I told you" he smiled and pecked my lips
"What I really want though..is for you to tie me up and fuck me senseless" 
"Well damn" he laughed "like bondage tied up, or tied to the bed tied up?"
"Bonadage. Also, I think getting a paddle is a good idea.." 
"Oh god.. fuck baby" he shifted in his seat "are you being serious right now?"
"Hell yes" 
"God I can't wait to go home and order a bunch of shit online"
"Order whatever else you want, I told you before, I'm open to trying just about everything, I'm surprised it's taken you this long to order stuff honestly" 
"I wanted to make sure that you were positive before we started going deeper into our explorations"
"I wouldn't have offered if I didn't want it.. we even have a safe word..a weird safe word..but we have it" we both chuckled 
"I can't wait" he kissed my forehead 
"Question..how do you feel about threesomes?"
"Well.." he shifted uncomfortably "I'm not for it honestly.. the thought of either of us touching someone else really makes me nauseous even if it were to be together" 
"I agree"
"Really? But..you like women too?"
"I know. And I'll always find women attractive, but the idea makes me feel weird. I've had one before and I didn't enjoy it" 
"Same here" he chuckled "I guess that's why she found someone else to take my place in the tower" 
"Oh shit! That's horrible" I shook my head 
"I'm glad it happened. If it hadn't I wouldn't have found you and I would've been stuck in a shitty situation pretending to be happy and ignoring my own needs for someone else's" 
"I hope you never do that with me. I just want you to be genuinely happy and tell me if you're not or if I can fix something I'm doing that bothers you" 
"I will baby and trust me, I'm totally happy" he smiled and kissed me
"Good" I smiled "we should go to bed though, we need sleep because our flight leaves hella early" 
"Agreed" 
The next morning was dreadful, I did not want to wake up early as fuck just to sit on a plane again, it was awful. I squeezed Jimin's hand through the whole thing all over again, when we got to the airport Namjoon was waiting to pick us up, we talked about the vacation and how Rupert was doing, Namjoon told me that when he went to visit Tae, Rupert was as happy as ever, I knew he would be but it was still nice to hear. I wouldn't be getting Rupert back until after my appointment with Yoongi, Jimin and I decided to take advantage of the fact that I had my house to myself since Jungkook and Jin were both at his place. Joon-ho cleaned up after himself before he left so it was nice walking into a clean home with a new window. 
"Wow, you can't even tell the window was even broken" he said as he walked over to the window leaving his suitcase in the middle of my living room 
"Joon is good at what he does, and maybe you could like..not break anymore windows?" I asked with a smile 
"No promises" he laughed 
We spent the day doing laundry and watching movies while we cuddled up on the couch, I made us a simple dinner and as we sat down to eat my phone rang from an unknown number
"Hello?"
"Hey Sarah, its Yoongi"
"Oh, hey. I didn't recognize the number. Did you get a new phone?"
"No this is my office"
"Oooh makes sense"
"Sorry to call, I know you guys are probably busy but I wanted to make sure we were still on for your appointment at ten tomorrow morning" 
"Yes sir, I'll be there"
Jimin looked up at me raising an eyebrow, I only ever call him sir so I guess I confused him 
"Great, see you then" 
We ended the call
"Who was that?" He asked as he took a bite of his food
"Yoongi, making sure I was still coming tomorrow" 
"Oh, you're still going right?"
"Yeah.. I probably should" I looked down at my plate suddenly not feeling very hungry. I'm terrified to talk to someone about my issues, it's even harder because there's a lot about my illness and my past that I haven't told Jimin and Yoongi is one of his best friends. "I have a lot to tell you I guess.. but can it wait until after I talk to Yoongi?"
"Of course, I'm not going to rush you to tell me everything" 
"I know..but like.. he's your best friend, isn't it weird that he's going to know all of this stuff about me that you don't yet? Or isn't he going to judge me or look at me differently?" 
"He's been doing this for a long time, he doesn't judge, you know this about him already. Plus he's your psychiatrist, it's not like you're hitting him up for sleepovers and talking about everything behind my back ya know? It's different" 
"I know..but still"
"It'll be fine. Eat your dinner and then we can cuddle" he smiled 
"Okay, I'm just really nervous" 
"I know baby, but I promise you that everything will be okay, you're worrying too much" 
"I know I am. That's the fucked up part. Logically I know I have nothing to worry about, but I can't help it" 
"I know" he gave me a sympathetic smile 
"I'm really not hungry, can we just go cuddle if you're done?"
"No, you have to eat at least something" he sat back in his chair and folded his arms as if to say 'don't fight me' but if I eat I think I'll throw up, I'm really fucking scared to go tomorrow and open up to Yoongi about everything. I didn't think too much on it while we were on vacation but now it's all I can focus on
"Jimin.. I'm going to throw up if I eat" 
"Don't make me force feed you" 
"Babe, I really appreciate that you want to take care of me, but I don't think you understand. I physically can't bring myself to eat right now" I almost wanted to cry. His face softened as he let my words sink in 
"not even if I went and got you some cheese or something?" His last stitch effort to try and get me to eat something. He's too sweet. 
"Not even cheese, honest."
"Okay" he stood up and took my plate from in front of me, he wrapped it and put it in the fridge for later and put his stuff in the sink
"Come on, let's go lay down" 
He's probably mad at me, I wouldn't let him help me, I should've just forced myself to eat. Fuck. He's going to get tired of dealing with my bullshit all the time. Everyone else does anyway. I was perfectly fine and now I'm shutting down again. I followed him into the bedroom still swimming in my thoughts, we laid down in the bed together while he found a movie to put on. I can't imagine him not being here one day but I guess I have to just accept it. He can't deal with this forever, he deserves better, he'll realize that soon enough. Fuck. Sarah, why are you like this? You ruin everything all of the time because you're so fucking stupid. You should've lied about all of this and hid it from him and then he wouldn't leave you. Or maybe you should've stood your ground and continued to decline his advances 
"Where'd you go babe?"
"Hmm?"
"You seem awfully distant..is everything okay?"
"Yeah, just thinking"
"Care to share?"
"No" 
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah.. I'm okay" 
He cuddled up to me and held on to me while I nuzzled myself into his chest. I might as well enjoy it while I can. I know he won't stick around..especially after he finds out all of the fucked up shit that goes on in my head all the time. 
"Jimin, I love you"
"I love you too, but are you sure you're okay?"
"Yeah, I'm alright" 
I closed my eyes and tried to let my negative thoughts disappear so I could get some sleep. Eventually I drifted off, listening to the movie and Jimin's heartbeat. When I woke up in the morning before my alarm Jimin wasn't in the bed with me, it didn't feel warm either. He must've been gone for a while, but why? He was going to drop me off at Yoongi's office for my appointment.. I checked my phone but I didn't have any texts or calls, I walked through out my house but he really wasn't here. I opened the front door and his car was gone. Fuck. He left me. He's probably never coming back, why didn't he tell me? I don't blame him, I wouldn't tell me either. I started to cry, I slammed the front door and got back in my bed pulling my knees to my chest and sobbed. I knew he would leave me eventually but if I knew he would leave me today I would've cherished him last night a little more instead of being in my head so much. Well, I would've tried harder to fight it off. Can I even still go see Yoongi? Would that be weird? I'm going to cancel. If he dipped out on me, talking to one of his best friends probably isn't the best idea. I'm never going to see him again. I'll never kiss him again. I'll never feel his arms wrapped around me again. I'll call him.. if he doesn't answer then so be it. I picked up my phone and hit his contact, it rang a few times
"Hey baby, you're up early"
"Yeah, I woke up before my alarm..where are you?" 
"At the moment I'm in line at the cafe to grab us coffee and breakfast, but before that I had to run to the office because Jungkook fucked up the contract I left him, I had to print out a new copy but he doesn't know the password to my computer and I'm sure as hell not giving it to him" he chuckled, my heart stopped pounding out of my chest. Why do I think like this? Why did I fly over the handle so bad? The man is allowed to have a life Sarah, he doesn't always have to tell you where he's going or why. 
"I don't blame you" I laughed "I'll see you when you get back love, I'm gonna jump in a quick shower before we have to leave" 
"Okay baby, I love you I'll see you soon"
"I love you too" I smiled as we ended the call. What if..he wasn't telling the truth though? What if he was with someone else? Stop. Just fucking stop. I shook my head at myself trying to stop myself from slipping into that fucking hole. I know he's not cheating. He would never. It would hurt his feelings if I told him I was worried about that and I don't want to hurt his feelings. Just put your crazy back in your pocket Sarah and chill the fuck out. I got a shower and tried to focus as the boiling hot water hit my skin, I hardly get to take hot showers since most of them happen with Jimin and he doesn't like it that hot. Once the room was filled with steam and my body was clean I got out and went to the bedroom only to find Jimin there sitting on my bed and talking on the phone 
"I know dad, I already fixed it. Yeah….I know...yeah everything's great actually, she just got out of the shower and I'm dropping her off at a doctors appointment… no dad….I know. okay okay I love you bye" he hung up on his father, I was dressed at this point 
"They haven't even met you yet and my father asks if I'm giving him a grandchild because you have a doctors appointment" he rolled his eyes making me laugh
"One day we will though" he said as he smiled as big as he could. He says things like that and I'm torn between throwing up and running away, or hugging him like a spider monkey and never letting go. There's no in between. I so desperately want to believe him..but I also know that hope and expectations are shit. It's better not to have them, it hurts less. 
"Yeah, that would be nice" I smiled at him as I brushed my hair 
"You don't sound as sure as I do" he said sounding kind of down
"Sorry, I'm just nervous for my appointment" I was half lying, half telling the truth. I can't expect him to be with me forever, and I am nervous about my appointment. 
"It'll be okay babes" he walked over and kissed the top of my head "come eat breakfast with me and relax. You didn't eat dinner last night so you can't skip breakfast" 
"Okay" I nodded and stood up following him to the kitchen where we sat down and ate. Afterwards the ride to Yoongi's office was silent aside from Jimin occasionally telling me to relax, and that everything was going to be fine. We kissed before I stepped out of the car and walked up to the building, I had to take an elevator up to get to his office, I approached his secretary and gave her my name, with in a few minutes the door to my right opened up 
"Sarah... Anderson?" Yoongi said as he looked at me, he raised an eyebrow at my last name..it was expected since he knows me as Sarah Davison. I stood up and inhaled a deep breath before I walked into his office and he shut the door behind me, I exhaled the breath I was holding and sat down. 
Here goes nothing.

The next chapter will have a lot of trigger warnings.
I want her appointments with Yoongi to be as realistic and relatable as possible. I'll be pulling from a lot of my own real personal experiences and sprinkling it in with fiction.
I will not disclose what is real, and what is not real.
There's a major stigma around self harm, mental illness, sexual abuse etc. I want people to know that they can open up, they can get help, they're not alone. You're not the only person who has to deal with these things even if you feel that way. I mean this from the bottom of my heart if you ever feel you need someone to talk to, reach out to me. Everyone needs someone they can vent to, I know this from personal experience and always keep myself available to be a shoulder to cry on.            ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡💜♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡