My Fat Ass Self a Park Jimin ff/smut 18+

Chapter 24

After we cuddled for the day we decided to call and order dinner, neither one of us was ready to go out into the world after everything that transpired the last few days we were both too mentally exhausted to deal with people. We did make sure we reached out to our friends to let them know we were okay and I apologized for scaring everyone. Once dinner came we were just sitting on the bed eating and watching the remake of IT, neither one of us spoke much, the exhaustion from everything was just too much. I was relieved just as much as I was exhausted, I'm sure he felt the same. 
"I think you're the only girl I've ever met that watches scary movies for fun" 
"I get that a lot" I chuckled "I just don't find them scary" 
"I do" he laughed 
"Sorry babe, we can change it if it's too much" 
"Nope, I don't mind. As long as you're here to cuddle me after I think I'll be fine" he winked at me making me laugh and we went back to watching the movie. The night continued on like that..light conversations and horror flicks. The next morning I woke up before Jimin and I decided to take a shower, I lifted his arm slightly and stayed as quiet as possible as I got clean clothes and made my way to the shower. Once I was done I got dressed, left the hotel room, and walked down to a cafe that was a few buildings down. I grabbed us fresh pastries, coffee, and stopped to get some flowers for Jimin. I want him to smile, I want to move past this. Last night felt heavy, I want to believe it was just the mental exhaustion we were both dealing with but at the same time my anxiety was spinning this insane theory that he was still lying or keeping something from me. I just want to be normal. I want to trust him. I want him to know that I trust him. I want to live happily ever after with him. But how long can he really deal with me always doubting him or second guessing his actions and words? How long can he deal with my anxiety? How long can he deal with my depressive moments where I zone out, don't talk, don't leave my house etc. I can't live with it some days, how can I expect it from him? I shook my head and plastered a smile on my face before walking into the hotel room, I heard the shower running so I decided to set up the breakfast and flowers for him on the little coffee table in the room, and get him some fresh clothes out of my suitcase and sat down on the couch waiting for him to get done and I decided to scroll through social media until I heard the water shut off. He came out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist. He looked depressed until he saw me sitting there. His body language instantly changed and he smiled wide at me
"Good morning baby, what is this?" He asked as he sat next to me
"I got us breakfast, coffee, and flowers for you" 
"They're beautiful, thank you" he wrapped his arms around me and kissed my temple 
"I put some clean clothes on the bed for you" 
"Thank you, let me get dressed and then I'll join you for breakfast" he pecked my cheek and stood up walking over to the bed to get dressed, I turned my head not to look at him. Even just knowing he was naked two feet away from me was enough to make me feel hot. He came over to the little sofa and sat next to me
"You're so cute" he said as he took a sip of his coffee 
"That's random" I laughed 
"It's been almost a year and you still get red in the face any time I'm naked" he chuckled "I hope it stays like that forever, it means you're super attracted to me" 
"Cheese ball" I laughed 
"Your cheese ball" 
"Thank God for that" I smiled and pecked his cheek that was currently stuffed with pastry making him look like a hamster when he smiled, I laughed as I pinched his stuffed cheek "you're so cute" I cooed I shoved some pastry in my mouth stuffing my cheeks and smiled at him mimicking what he looked like, he laughed his ass off covering his face and hunching over 
"We need to take a picture of this, you should see yourself" he said as he laughed harder 
"You should see yourself!" I quipped back flinging pastry out of my mouth making us laugh even harder 
"Don't spit pastry at me!" He yelled through his laughter 
"Shut up and stuff your cheeks!" I said as I laughed even harder, he picked some up and shoved as much as he could into his mouth and I shoved more into my cheeks, he pulled out his phone and we took a selfie with wide smiles and stuffed cheeks. He showed me the picture and I lost it I was laughing too hard while trying to chew and swallow without choking 
"I'm posting this!" He shouted through his laughing fit and posted it on facebook captioned "the hamster couple 🐹" we stared at it laughing for a little longer before we simmered down and ate our breakfast for real. 
"I've never gotten flowers before" he said randomly through the silence 
"I've never gotten flowers for anyone before" I shrugged "I just wanted to do something cute for you to show you I love you without some grandiose gesture" 
"I love them, and I love you. I never knew getting flowers from someone would make my heart feel warm, I can totally understand why girls love getting them so much. Except you" he chuckled making me laugh 
"In my defense you know I'm not normal, however I will make sure I buy you flowers more often but not too much to where it's not a surprise, and they'll never be the same color or type" 
"Thank you baby" he stared at me admiringly before leaning in and pecking my lips. His lips tasted so sweet, coffee flavored kisses were my new favorite. I've drank coffee for years, practically 24/7 and yet..now I can't sip my favorite drink without thinking about my favorite person with my favorite kisses. Everything always leads back to Jimin. It's like I didn't exist before him. I wonder if he ever feels the same about me. We continued drinking our coffee snuggled up on the couch 
"You want to hear something funny? And you'll probably call me a cheese ball for it" 
"Sure" 
"I can't drink coffee without thinking about you, I know it's something so small and so regular, something that's part of my daily life, but with the way you drink coffee it just always reminds me of you. I don't think I'll ever be able to drink it and not think about you" he smiled as he sipped his coffee again. My heart stopped beating. I was literally just thinking the same thing about him. I feel so… I don't know the word for it. Relieved? Validated? He thinks the same way about me that I do for him. 
"I was literally just thinking the same thing actually" I giggled "I was wondering if you ever felt the same thing about me. Like if there was anything that makes you think of me randomly because even though I've drank coffee for years, since we've been together I can't drink it without thinking about you" I got red in the face confessing this to him, which only made him smile wider 
"I love you Sarah" 
"I love you too Jimin" 
We leaned into each other and shared a soft coffee flavored kiss. My favorite. 
We decided to enjoy one more day in the hotel just the two of us. 
"I took three weeks off of work so we could do some fun stuff before I go back to the office" 
"I took two off" 
"That works, you've got what..a week and a few days left?"
"Yep" I nodded 
"Well we should plan some stuff to do together" 
"Whatever you wanna do works for me" I smiled at him before I got off the couch and laid down on the bed, he walked over and laid down next to me 
"I don't really have any ideas, I just want to spend time with you" 
"That's how I feel" I chuckled and nuzzled my face into the pillow 
"Aquarium trip maybe?" 
I popped my head up and stared at him with my eyes wide 
"Yes, fuck yes. They have sea turtles" 
He laughed at my reaction burying his head into the pillow 
"How did I know that's how you would react?"
"Because you know I love turtles" I laid my head back down on the pillow smiling at him
"Amusement park?" 
"No" I frowned 
"Why not? You're not afraid of heights" 
"No, but I'm afraid my fat ass is gonna break the ride, they have a weight limit" 
"And I'm sure you don't even come close to reaching it, you're not six hundred pounds Sarah, and even if you were I'd still love you" 
"I know I'm not.. but.. I used to be five hundred pounds..and even though I've lost a lot of weight I still have it in my mind that I'm this huge person. I haven't been to an amusement park in years. I tried getting on a ride when I was at my heaviest and the bar wouldn't close and I was so embarrassed I haven't tried since"