"Ew, why are you wearing that? You look like a tortured sausage"
"Are those real?" As she poked my back rolls
"Why would anyone want to fuck her when she looks like that?"
"What's up Shrek"
"Hey fatass can you hurry it up?"
"Opps didn't see you t...
So, I've had two people DM me asking why I had Sarah get into a car accident.
In 2010 I was in a BAD car accident. My aunt was the driver, I was the passenger, and we had my 3 little cousins with us in the back. There were 5 of us in a 4 seater car. We got hit from the back, spun around, tboned, and spun across three lanes of traffic, our car hit the median and balanced on its nose before falling on its roof and sliding across three more lanes of traffic. We landed upside down in the grass on the other side of the highway. I saw the car that tboned us and tried to warn my aunt but then after impact I hit my head on the windshield so hard I blacked out.
When I came to, I was upside down, my aunt was trying to kick out the window and people were trying to get us out. I passed out again, I came to as they were cutting my seat belt, I passed out again and woke up to them screaming because I had to climb across the roof of the car. There were two things I learned that day.
1) Before passing out the second time I said in my head to take me and let them live. I was ready to die if it meant that my family would live.
2) I didn't want to die anymore. I was ALWAYS okay with just dying in whatever horrific way it happened. I hated myself so much that the thought of me being awake was enough to make me hurt myself and cry and beg for someone or something to put me out of my misery. But the fact that it almost happened was a huge eye opener for me. I didn't want to die. I would take all of the pain and sadness that I felt on a regular basis if it meant that I lived because I had people to live for.
I have said since the beginning that Sarah is mostly me. I've poured a lot of myself into her. Her character has shown so much growth thus far, and just like I did..I felt like I needed to put her through this so that she could have the same awakening I did. It's okay to not be okay. It's okay to not feel happy all of the time. Hell, it's even okay to want to die. But there's nothing that I've personally come across that feels as liberating as realizing you don't want to die anymore.
We all walked away from that accident. My aunt broke her spine kicking out the window to save me and her children. I had to get glass removed from my face, scalp, arms, hands, face, etc. The kids with the exception of night terrors and bruises were totally unharmed. No one could believe it. The cop said the only reason I survived was because my airbag didn't deploy. If it had, I wouldn't be here right now. If I had hit my face/head any harder on the windshield, I wouldn't be here.
So yes. It was important for Sarah to get in to get into an accident.
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That crushed part of windshield? That's where my face was.
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This is the view I had opened my eyes to, but upside down.
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It was a life changing day for all five of us and I hope no one ever has to go through this. Ever.
But it was the day I decided I wanted to live. 11/14/10
Sorry if this posted twice, I wrote it last night after I had a few drinks in my system, I just want people to grasp her character development from something like this happening.
