My Fat Ass Self a Park Jimin ff/smut 18+

Chapter 65

"Babe!!! Have you seen my grey suit jacket?" 
"In the closet! Right hand side next to the red one!" I rolled my eyes as I yelled back up the steps and continued cooking 
"Thank you!"
I giggled as I turned around to pack his lunch on the counter top 
"Babe! What about the socks!"
"Oh for fucks sake! Jimin!" 
"I'm sorry! Just help me!"
"In the bottom left drawer of your fucking dresser! Did you even look?!"
"....yes" 
I rolled my eyes as I zipped up his lunch box
"Breakfast is getting cold! And you're gonna wake up Jaxson!"
"I'm coming!" He ran down the stairs and started breathing heavy 
"Inhaler to the left" I said with my back towards him, I heard him shake it and take two puffs 
"What would you do without me?" I asked as I finished making breakfast 
"Live a lonely and miserable life, spending my days looking for things that are right in front of my face" he chuckled as he wrapped his arms around my waist from behind and kissed my temple 
"Breakfast is done, coffee is right there the way you like it, and I packed you a lunch for your first day back" 
"Thank you baby" he pecked my cheek over and over again making me giggle and smack his hands away. We sat down and ate breakfast together before he went to work, after he kissed me and gave Rupert some lovins he gave Mocha a celery stick and headed out the door. 
I had about a half hour of solitude before Jaxson screamed 
"Dada!"
I smiled and walked up the stairs picking him up out of his crib 
"Daddy is at work buddy, it's me and you" 
He rubbed his sleepy eyes as I held him on my hip and carried him down the stairs, I sat him on the sofa and played the trolls movie, I gave him his sippy cup of milk and wrapped him up in his favorite blanket. He fell back asleep before the movie was over. I smiled as I watched him sleep, his plump lips pouty as ever with his cheek squished up against the arm of the couch. I still couldn't get over how much he looked like Jimin. 
I decided to clean around the house to occupy my time, I cleaned with my headphones in and dancing around in silence so Jax would sleep a little longer. 

"Thanks again Joonbug" I hugged him as Jax ran around his house 
"Of course, good luck at your appointment" 
"Thanks babes" I pecked his cheek and we pulled apart 
"Bye Jax! I love you!" 
"Lub boo!" He smiled and took off towards Joon-ho's kitchen making me giggle as I walked back out to my car and headed towards Yoongi's office. 
I hadn't had an appointment with Yoongi in what felt like forever. But I knew I definitely needed one. I parked my car and went up to his office 
"Hey Sarah, how's the baby?" the receptionist asked 
"He's great!" I beamed "his first birthday is next month and I think Jimin and I went overboard with supplies and everything else" I chuckled making her laugh 
"My husband and I did the same thing with our first, by the second and third one it's just a homemade cake and cheap decorations" she laughed making me laugh right along with her
"You're all checked in! Dr Min will be out soon, he's wrapping up with another patient" 
"Thank you" I smiled and took a seat. 

"Thanks doc, I'll see ya next week" 
"Of course, enjoy the rest of your day" Yoongi smiled as the taller gentleman took his leave 
"Oh look my favorite patient who doesn't come to the office anymore" 
"Oh look my favorite doctor who doesn't come over for dinner anymore" we laughed as I got up and followed him into his office. 
"So, how are things?"
"They're okay I guess. My only concern lately is the routine..like.. I know we just took off and went to Hawaii for a vacation, but now that he's back to work, I'll be home all day with the baby. Which is great, don't get me wrong. And I guess I should just be thankful that I have a husband that can support us for the rest of our lives without me ever having to work..but.. I hate routine. I dont know why, its comfortable, and relaxing..but.. I get to a point where I feel the need to do some reckless shit" 
"Like cut all of your hair off, dye your hair obnoxious colors, seek a different sexual partner, drink, do drugs, go on a random ass road trip in the middle of the night, steal something.."
"With the exception of seeking a different sexual partner because I could never hurt Jimin that way..yes." I nodded my head and stared down at the floor "how did you know all of that? I don't think we ever really touched base on that part of the BPD" 
"I have another patient now with BPD and he described it as 'feeling a constant mid life crises' like a random adrenaline rush that causes an itch you can't seem to scratch" 
"That's exactly it!" I yelled as I whipped my head up to stare at him "I've never been able to put it into fucking words! People would be like 'why ruin your life when it's coming together?' 'You've been doing so good lately dont ruin it' and literally it's like a fucking fight not to do something stupid" I rolled my eyes "I wish I wasn't like this. I love Mocha, she's such a sweet little bun bun..but let's face it..she was a total impulse buy. Something reckless and not very well thought out but I got such a high off of it" 
He nodded at my words "impulsively spending money is a huge problem with BPD from what I've gathered"
"You have no idea" I shook my head "I don't usually bring Jimin's card with me when I leave the house because I can't trust the fact that I won't over spend. And I know he has enough money for me to 'overspend' every damn day if I want to, but I know that I shouldn't and it'll probably be on the dumbest shit" 
"That's definitely a smart decision on your part though, and it does show growth and knowing what's the BPD and what's Sarah, if that makes sense" 
"No, it totally does. And thank you..I didn't think anyone else noticed any of the small accomplishments I celebrate in my head..I know Jimin does with some things.." 
"He's very proud of you. Don't doubt that okay?" 
"Okay"