My Fat Ass Self a Park Jimin ff/smut 18+

Chapter 40

I'd say we slept for maybe an hour and then when I got up to use the bathroom Jimin woke up so he waited for me to come back. I got back in the bed and laid down while he got himself comfortable 
"Your belly isn't as soft and squishy anymore, it's getting harder because of the baby" Jimin said as he laid his head on my stomach using me as a pillow while he traced my stretch marks with his index finger lightly, occasionally giving me goosebumps. 
"I know.. and I'm probably going to get more stretch marks"
"Probably" he smiled and kissed my stomach a few times making me smile. I just had to keep reminding myself that he loved my body, as flabby, and round, and saggy as it was..he loved every bit of it. It never made sense to me..it probably never will..but I benefit from it so I have to stop questioning it. I ran my fingers through his hair as he laid there 
"I love you"
"I love you too" I smiled "we should be sleeping though considering you have a flight to catch in a few hours" 
"I know..but I just don't want to miss any time with you before I leave" 
"This isn't the first time baby.. I'll be okay" 
"I know" he kissed my belly again, and I felt butterflies from the bean shifting around 
"But now that you're pregnant I get even more sad about leaving" 
"You're not missing anything except the morning sickness, the random crying, the fact that I can't light my favorite candle because the smell makes me gag now, me being constipated and crying because my belly hurts, my anxiety from googling things..the list goes on and on" we laughed and he tightened his arms around me
"I know..and even though that stuff makes you miserable, I love every second of it"
"The fuck? Why?" I asked while I scrunched up my face and stopped running my fingers through his hair letting my hand just sit there 
"because I can take care of you..you don't go through those things alone, I know you're safe, you know you're loved, and we know our baby is growing and safe in here" he rubbed my round stomach, the heat from his hand ghosted over my skin leaving goosebumps where it trailed 
"I can understand that I guess.." I shrugged and continued running my fingers through his hair "you think a hell of a lot more positively about those experiences than I do" I giggled making him chuckle 
"I know" 
"Probably because you're not the one that couldn't poop for three days..try doing that while you feel like everything is going to fall out of your vagina..not a fun experience babe" 
He laughed so hard at my words his head bouncing on my stomach making it jiggle which caused me to laugh while my skin looked like it was doing the wave 
"God you're so weird" 
"You say weird, I say blunt and honest" I shrugged 
"That too" he giggled 
We laid there talking until our eyes couldn't fight sleep anymore. I woke up a few hours later to his alarm going off, I was startled awake only to be met with Jimin's sleeping face on my stomach, his big pouty lips slightly parted letting drool seep out on to my skin it made me laugh which caused his head to bounce which made me laugh harder 
"Wake up sleepy head, you have a plane to catch" 
"No" he mumbled and rubbed his face on my stomach getting comfortable again
"Come on mister..get up" I patted his head 
"Do I have to?" He whined and squeezed me
"Yes, unfortunately" 
"Okayyyyy" he huffed and blew a raspberry on my stomach making me laugh and push his face away 
"Stoooooop, get up" I pushed him away from me making him laugh 
"I'm up, I'm up" he pulled himself off of the bed, we were both still naked and I blushed at his body as he stood there smirking at me "you still blush" he giggled and shook his head 
"I can't help it...you still look photoshopped" I chuckled and climbed off the bed
"You're so cute" he cooed as we both made our way to the bathroom for a quick shower, afterwards he helped me get dressed and I put my sling on and we ate a quick breakfast before we loaded up the car with his stuff and headed to the airport. I kissed his face all over ignoring the pain in my stitches and kissed his lips a few times making us laugh 
"I love you, be safe, and I'll see you when you come home. Don't forget to call, text, and facetime" 
"I know baby, I will" he smiled and kissed me again, he leaned down and kissed my belly "I love you too, both of you be safe and I'll see you when I come home" he stood up and held me tightly and kissed my forehead before my lips "I love you" 
"I love you too" I smiled and pecked his lips again, he turned around to go and I smacked his ass "love you!" I laughed and waved as he laughed making his way through the crowd. I got into the car and felt my nerves try to take over, this is my first time driving since the incident and I shouldn't even be driving considering I have one functioning arm, I called Joonie
"Hey babe" 
"Hey love...can you do me a favor? I was gonna come pick up Liz..but I.."
"Understood, I'll drop her off at the house" 
"I'm at the airport actually..with Jimin's car" 
"I'll drop her at the airport then and she can drive to your appointment"
"Thank you my love" 
"Of course babe" 
We ended the call and I sat in the car listening to my music until they arrived. I got out and wrapped my arm around Joonie holding on tightly while he kissed the top of my head 
"Its okay to be scared and ask for help"
"I know..thank you for coming" 
"Of course, I love you" he smiled and kissed the top of my head again
"I love you too, how was it with Liz?"
"It was fun, we watched movies and got wine drunk" he laughed 
"You okay?" Liz asked as she got out of Joon-ho's car
"Yeah, I'm alright, I just can't drive yet" 
"That's understandable" she nodded and smiled at me, I pulled away from Joon and kissed his cheek 
"I love you, thanks again and I'll let you know when we get home" 
"I love you too, be safe! Liz, I'll see you later" he hugged her before getting back in his car, Liz turned to me and smirked 
"So..you trust me to drive the Lambo?" She wiggled her eyebrows making me laugh
"I don't really have another choice do I?"
"nope!" She giggled and grabbed the keys from me before jumping in the car behind the steering wheel, I got in on the passenger side and got my seatbelt on just in time for her to peel out of the parking lot going faster than needed. My heart fell into my stomach as I grabbed my seat praying that I would make it in one piece. She eventually slowed down while she laughed at the feeling of speeding in the expensive car
"This is so much fun!" She yelled over the music 
"This is fucking horrifying!!!" I yelled back but I smiled at the look of happiness on her face. God I missed my sister so much. Her being here just feels so unreal to me.  
"Turn left!" I yelled and she cut a sharp left turn
"Oh my god Liz jesus christ!" 
She parked "we're here!" She smiled and turned the car off after putting it in park
"I'm gonna puke" I reached my good arm over and swung open the door before releasing everything in my system onto the curb
"That's so gross" she giggled 
"Good god.. let's go" I got out of the car and she followed me to Yoongi's office. Once we got inside the receptionist smiled at me and I introduced her to Liz before Liz sat down in a chair while I walked into Yoongi's office and sat across from him. 
"Hey my favorite patient" he smiled as he put his phone down
"My favorite doctor" I smiled back 
"So, how are things?"
"Not too bad.. I'm just tired and my mood swings aren't frequent but they are horrifying when they happen. I have to keep myself grounded or I'm afraid I'll do something reckless" 
"Like what?"
"Tearing apart the house and repainting it, redecorating, shaving all of my hair off, crying into a bag of chips, throwing things into the pool that make me feel rage just by looking at them"
"What could possibly make you that angry?"
"Well..yesterday it was a plastic chair just sitting there...minding it's own business..and I wanted to yeet it out of existence just to feel better"
"Maybe the new meds aren't as effective as they should be.. I can up the dose but neither one of us wants you to be a zombie.." 
"Facts..so what do I do?" 
"Try focusing on something and keep yourself occupied?"
"Like what? Because focusing on the wedding makes me dizzy.. I feel like I'm going to fuck it all up and disappoint Jimin and then he'll leave me because I'm too fucking stupid to plan my own fucking wedding. If I can't pick out what color I want the tablecloths to be how the fuck am I gonna raise a kid? And that's another thing… one second I'm so excited to be a mom..and then next I'm absolutely terrified I'm going to ruin it. What do I do if it starts crying and the loud noises set off my BPD and I snap? You can't snap on a baby...they're just trying to communicate in the only way they know how.. oh god and Liz..jesus fucking christ. I love her. She's my sister.. but since the accident her and Jimin have become helicopter parents and I can't fucking breathe around her anymore. I want to smash her face in and then hug her.. does that make sense?"
"It does to you.. I guess that's all that matters. Well..that and the fact that you won't actually smash her face in" he chuckled but I kept a straight face
"Sure.. I won't" 
"Sarah.."
"I'm kidding… I think.." 
"Jesus Christ" he put his hand on his forehead "there's still so much unknown about BPD that I feel like I can't help you enough, I worry about you, I know you're safe and you're okay..but there has to be something that can help you further.. I even read up on the latest research..the suicide rates in BPD are so ungodly high.. I had no idea. And since you're my only patient with BPD it's like we're figuring this out together and it scares me because I don't want to let you down" 
"Yoongi..you could never let me down. You do so much to help me and we're going to have ups and downs during this process but I'm happy it's you and not someone else. At least you know me inside and outside of this office so I'm not just some random patient. You care enough about me to genuinely try to help me. I appreciate it more than you know" 
He smiled and nodded at my words before picking up a book and reading out some more information about BPD and tried talking to me about the different subjects that it brought up. By the end of the meeting he upped my dose on my medicine and told me not to hesitate to call him for anything. 
I walked out into the waiting room and Liz was asleep in her chair so I woke her up and asked her to drive home a little slower..
She didn't..
"Do you know why I'm pulling you over?"
"Sir..she doesn't speak Korean, she only speaks English.."
"She was going over the speed limit" 
"I know sir, this is my fiance's car, here's her license, my license, and his insurance and registration" 
"I'll go run these through the system" 
"I fucked up didn't I?"
"Only A LOT I fucking asked you to slow down..god and this is Jimin's car.. I am so fucked" I smacked my forehead a couple times 
"I'm sorry.. I'll pay the fine" 
"BITCH YOU'RE A FOREIGNER YOU'LL BE LUCKY IF THEY DON'T LOCK YOUR ASS UP FOR BEING SO RECKLESS" 
"STOP YELLING I SAID I WAS SORRY!"
"I genuinely feel like the older sister in this situation" 
"Here you go ladies, you're free to go" 
"No ticket? You're not going to lock her up?"
"This car is registered to Park Jimin..I'm not going to be the one responsible for ticketing him or his fiance I would be stupid" then he looked at Liz "slow down. Speeding bad" he nodded and walked off 
"That was rude" she scoffed
"He might not have known how to say the full sentence in English you asshole..you're lucky he let us go with a warning. Now no more fucking speeding!" 
"Sure thing mom" she rolled her eyes and got us home going the speed limit the whole way.

Once we walked into the house we decided to go through some of the wedding magazines while I made lunch.. I wanted to go out so bad but with how my stomach felt after we got pulled over I just wanted to go home. 
"Soooo...what colors do you wanna do?"
"Well whatever I decide on I have to make Jimin think it's pea soup green until he comes home. I'm going to send him pictures of pea soup green table covers, decorations, different swatches..and I have to ask Kookie to wear a pea soup green tux so I can send him a picture of that too" 
"Umm..why?" 
"He told me not to stress over colors, that he would be fine with making the whole thing pea soup green so I'm gonna test that out" I laughed 
"You're so stupid" she said as she was laughing 
"I know" I shrugged "I think it's funny though and he will too" 
"Judging by how much you guys clown around he'll definitely think it's funny" she giggled "have you decided on what kind of dress you want?" 
"Ehh.. not really. I need something comfortable though so no ball gowns or princess style dresses.. I'm thinking almost like a white sundress type thing? I could dance and play games in it while being comfortable" 
"Makes sense" she nodded "I wish you would wear a big poofy princess dress but it's not my day" 
"Exactly" I nodded my head
"So what do we have besides location and date?"
"That's it" I laughed "Jimin and I talked about all of this in a field and thought we had everything situated but then we went and changed it so now I have to figure out the definite plans" 
"a field?"
"Long story.. I'm gonna call the guys real quick and see if they have any insight"

After a long and chaotic conference call with everyone we had everything set. 
● Jin was in charge of hiring a caterer.
● Jungkook was taking me to look for their groomsmen outfits.
● Joon-ho and Liz were taking me dress shopping.
● Yoongi was in charge of getting a DJ.
● Tae was going to get his decorator to come out to the house and set everything up in the garden and get whatever decorations Tae thought would work, I trusted him to decorate it more than trusting myself. He also said he would send pictures to Jimin of pea soup green decorations and ask his opinion. 
● Namjoon and Hoseok were in charge of the flowers. 
We had a plan set in stone. 
This will work. 
It will be amazing. 
It's going to be the best day of my life and to be totally honest I didn't give a fuck if the whole thing went up in flames as long as at the end of the day Jimin and I were together. Liz and I spent the rest of our day filling out the invitations for our guests that weren't included in our immediate friend group, Jimin had his assistant send letters to the press letting them know that this was a private event, and that we would submit one or two photos afterward to certain tabloids of his choosing. I had reached out to my dad to see if any family should be invited but the family on my mothers side never came around and with the exception of a few second cousins there weren't really any on his side, so from my family it was literally just Liz and my dad. I was totally okay with that. I also decided to invite Kris, I told him he could bring Liss too if he wanted so of course they accepted, Jimin asked if he could invite the old lady from the diner and I told him that he was stupid to ask me that, and that he obviously could invite her. It's his day too and she's watched him grow up, why would I say no? I told him to invite anyone he wanted so he put her on his list.
The more we figured things out the more excited I became. We also agreed that Rupert would be our flower boy, he obviously can't throw flowers so we were going to have him walk down the aisle in a suit carrying a bouquet of flowers and then sit between us for the ceremony, I was so excited to have my puppers included in my wedding.
I can't wait  ♡