*Sehun's POV*
Its already christmas day. I'm here at my parent's house together with my brother. Hyungs dropped me off here last night since I can't drive myself home. I wonder what she's doing right now. Is she alright? Is the pregnancy giving her hard time? Fuck. All the time that I'm awake, she's all that I ever think about. God, I missed her so bad. I am currently sitting in our living room when my mom suddenly came and sat beside me. I felt her hands on my knee, kneading it. So I looked at her and gave her a small smile.
"Hi, mom" I muttered
"Can I hug my youngest?" She said opening up her arms. I stopped for few seconds before dropping my weight onto her, I know I'm a grown up man but hell, I fucking need my mom right now. I rested my head on her left shoulder while she kept on caressing my back.
"Do you want to talk about it?" She says sweetly. I missed my mom too. Its really hard to be away from home because of work.
"Mom.." I managed to say even if I already feel the lump inside my throat. She didn't say a thing
"Mom.. I missed her. And I can't do anything to ease the pain I am feeling right now. I know this is not the first time that I fell in love. But this time is different. Mom I do love her so much. I feel so useless..sometimes. There were times that I just wished that I'm not an idol. So I could freely do whatever I want.. without someone manipulating me.." I ranted out
"Ssshhh.. Its okay son. I may not know what exactly do you feel but I know how hurt you are right now. And as your mother, it hurts me more seeing you like this. But things have to happen, you know? Maybe its not yet the time for the both of you to be together.. and you being not an idol.. do you think you're going to know and meet her if you weren't? Everything is meant to happen my son. You just have to be strong. Learn from every steps of it. I may have not met the girl yet, but I know how special she is because I can see how much you love her. And I could never be more proud. My son, I know she loves you because despite of the consequences she still chose to be with you even if its just a short period of time. Eventually, everything will fall rightfully into their places and you are going to do the right thing." I pulled out from her hug and looked at her
"Mom.." I blinked and took a deep breathe. She doesn't know everything yet. But I guess I should tell now
"Mom. I'm sorry.." I said
"Sorry for what?" She's now looking at me confused
"Mom. I don't have any idea where she is right now. I tried my best to find her. Even Chanyeol and Baekhyun hyung helped me to find her so they hired a private investigator to look for her but they got nothing. Mom, I'm so helpless. Mom.. she.. mom, she's pregnant." The I looked down. My mom froze and didn't say a thing
"Oh my god. Son are you sure?!" She held my shoulders and I lifted my face to look at her. My eyes are now wet from crying
"Y-yes mom. I am sure. She was rushed to the hospital the last time I saw her. I heard the doctor said that she is." Then my mom pulled me in a hug
"My son.. oh my son.. what is happening with your life. I'm so sorry if I can't do anything. I'm sorry if mom isn't with you all this time you are suffering..." my mom is crying a bit loud now and I heard heavy footsteps getting near
"What happened? Why is you mom crying like that?!" Its my dad
"I-I'm fine.. its just that. I'm just shocked. I feel so horrible not being there for our youngest son when he needed me." My dad hugs my mom and stares at me as if he wants me to say something
"D-dad.." I tried to speak but there aren't any words coming out
"My son.. our son is going to be a dad.." my mom spoke and dad widen his eyes. I can't tell if he's mad or happy or excited
"You're going to be a dad?!" Dad lets go of mom and holds me on my shoulder. I blinked fast not knowing what to say
"Oh my son. I can't believe you're going to be a dad now. How is she? Is she safe? And the baby?" My dad says with his soft voice
"She. I-I honestly don't know dad. The CEO blockmailed me so I won't go near her. They told me to cut my connections with he-" he cuts me off
"They what?! And you listened to them?!" Now he's mad
"Dad it isn't like that. The day that the issue came up, I still don't have any idea that she's pregnant. That's why I followed what the CEO told me to do. To stay away from her. And now, now that I know that she's having my baby. I can't find her. We tried to find her but we failed." I wanted to cry but I guess my body is too tired to do so. I then felt that dad grabbed me to hug. Its been a while since dad last hugged me like this.
"Son. You must pray for everything. He is the only who can help you right now." He says while hugging. I know dad. I know. I just hope that she looks after Angel and our baby.
Night came and we all had our dinner. Mom prepared a lot of food for us because this is the only time thet we were able to be complete. My brother and I had a talk before he went to bed. I am the last one to go to my room. I grabbed my phone from the side table and it suddenly notified me that I have a message. Its Chanyeol hyung.
"Open your instagram. Angel uploaded something." My heart stopped beating for a while." My hands are slightly shaking while I tap the icon of instagram. Shit. I waited until the app shows her account. I'm not following her, I can't. The photo is taken from inside the plane. Plane. Shit. Where is she going?! Is she going back to Philippines?! Fuck. Should I follow her? But where am I going to find her? I called Chanyeol hyung.
"Sehunaah." He says
"Hyung. Can you help me trace where Angel is going?"
"I just actually did. But someone might be protecting her. Still no info's gotten. I'm sorry bro." He says with a disappointed voice
"Oh. Okay then. Thanks hyung." I ended the call
Someone might be protecting her. It keeps on repeating on my head. Right. The Goo's. They might be the ones who's hiding her from me. I'm going to their house after tomorrow. I kept planning what to do until I fell asleep.
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*Angel's POV*
I woke up upon hearing my alarm. I know that its christmas today but I no longer care because I have so much to dwell with and I don't have the energy to celebrate it either specially that I'm alone. I wonder what he's up to right now? Did he went home to his family? Is he doing alright? Days have passed and I still hear nothing from him. Maybe he finally realized that I'm no good for him. I sighed and stood up from my bed. I have to go to the store today to buy some stuffs that I need. I brushed my teeth and showered. Made coffee and toasted some bread for my breakfast. I suddenly touched my lower abdomen. I smiled a bitterly. What if I was able to save my baby? Is he going to do something? Right. He doesn't even know that I did have pregnancy and surgery. I brushed the thought off and went my way out of my unit. I checked my phone and saw something on twitter.
"SM Entertainment finally gave their statement regarding with the EXO's maknae Oh Sehun's alleged issue with a non showbiz girl. They said that, EXO's Sehun are just friends with the Assistant Psychologist of the clinic where they were spotted and that the fans have nothing to worry about because the maknae is still single and not open for any relationship."
I sighed. They finally released a statement. Good for Sehun. I put my phone back in the pocket of my coat and called a taxi.
It has been a busy day for me. Redecorating my room with some plants. Bought some stocks for cooking and everything that I need. There's nothing much to change with my unit, the Spencer seems like they prepared everything in here. The interior of my apartment is very far from my apartment back in Seoul which is really a good thing for me because its also a distraction. I won't miss Seoul that much because the vibes and ambience here is foreign. I grabbed my booksand sat on the chair of my study table. I only wish that there are no more dramas for me here in US. I don't think I'll be able to handle it alone. A part of me is excited for what will happen to me here in US and a part me is also nervous so I just decided to read some books as my refresher for my masteral class after holidays. Two years is long enough for me to move on. Two years before I can go back to Seoul. I can do this.
