To Give In

I slowly opened my eyes. I looked up and glanced at the windows before the bed where I am currently lying. Mabilis kong iniwas ang tingin sa matinding liwanag ng nanggagaling 'don.

My eyes slowly roamed around the room.

My breathing hitched when my eyes caught the comforter almost lying on the floor, as the brassiere and other undergarments. Dahan-dahan akong bumangon para makaupo.

My heart started to pound. I clenched my jaw.

I looked at the woman beside me. The thickness of her eyelashes, her pointed narrowed nose, her cherry pink lips, I stared at her beauty. Ang maliit at makinis nyang mukha ay natatakpan ng kakaunting hibla ng kaniyang buhok.

I lifted my hand slowly and I removed some hair strands out of her face. Her cheeks are pinkish, para bang lagi itong nakukurot kaya namumula. Bumaba ang aking tingin. I almost shiver ng matanaw ko ang kaniyang katawan na walang saplot.

My heart is throbbing painfully. I am undeniably nervous of whatever is happening right now, especially of what have i done.

Hindi pinalampas ng aking mga tingin ang bawat parte ng kanyang katawan. My eyes marveled to her whole body shamelessly. The sight of redness of her nipples, until the lower part of her slim body told me that I admired, familiarized all of her parts overnight. I kissed every part of her as if willing to be her slave for a lifetime.

I stiffened more.

Para bang unti unti ng natutuyo at nagiging simento ang aking katawan.

Sinapo ko ang aking mukha ng bumuhos ang mga alaala kung paano ko pinagsamantalahan ang babaeng ito kagabi.

I cursed at myself repeatedly.

Fvck!

Dammit!

I even wanted to punched my own face. I have never thought I can do this to her!

Everything seems like a dream.

Almost ideal to happen.

Am I really awake already?

She is like my sister for my f ucking sake! How could I do this to her?! I've been with her whole life!

Dahan-dahan akong umalis sa kama not wanted to wake her up. Marahan kong kinuha ng comforter at tinabunan ang kaniyang katawan. Pinulot ko ang aking mga damit at isinuot ang mga iyon still staring at her. Para bang ano mang oras ay magigising sya. Inilibot ko aking mga mata sa paligid.

I walked beside the door. Nandon lahat ng kaniyang mga damit. Pinulot ko ang mga ito. Itinupi at marahang nilapag sa kama sa kaniyang tabi. I looked at her face, her lips parted and I can see her crystal clear teeth, mahimbing padin ang pagkakatulog.

I opened the door quietly and I can feel the cold breeze of the wind from the sea. It welcomed me.

I walked out of the room and closed the door quietly.

One night and I ruined everything...