NJ boys imagines

nothing like us

nothing can ever replace you,
nothing can make me feel like you do.

I walk into the cafe that me and alejandro used to go to. The workers all looked at me with sympathy. Of course, they knew that we weren't together, once they saw me walk in with no alejandro for the last 2 weeks; they got the idea.

"Hey, y/n." Lucas said. "Hey, I'll have my regular." I say. "Sure, how are you doing?" He said. "I'm fine, getting over it one by one." I smile. "Okay, well here's your coffee, and remember call me if you need anything." He said. He squeezes my hand and I smile at him, "thank you." I say.

I knew Lucas had a crush on me, should I move on and go out with him? No, I can't move on from someone like alejandro. No one or anything can replace him and what we had.

i know we won't find a love that's so true
there's nothing like us
there's nothing like you for me.

I walk to the park that we use to go too. God, why am I doing this to myself? I have to move on, but I can't. "Y/n?" I look up and see kairi? "Uh hey kai." I say. "Can I sit?" He asked. I nod my head and he sits next to me. "How have you been?" He asks. "I'm fine, but if I'm being honest, I've been so lost lately. It's like I have nothing to take care of or make happy. Shit, I can't even make myself happy with anything I do." I say. Kairi looks at me, "Alejandro has been the same. He can't do anything without saying his everything hurts." He said.

I laugh a little, "yeah, that sounds like alejandro." I smile. "But me and alejandro are in the past now. Maybe we weren't supposed to be with each other and it's going to take time to own up to it." I said. "Tell me that the breakup was worth it? We were so perfect for each other." I heard a voice say. I look and see alejandro standing there. Kairi looked at us and went back to mattia from a far. How did I not see that big ass dinosaur?

"Alejandro." I say. I couldn't make words to express anything. "So, tell me that you meant what you said. Look at me in the eyes and tell me that the break up was worth it." He said. "Alejandro, I can't do that. I'm seeing someone." I lie. "Really?" He asked. "Yeah." I mumble. "Than give me the ring I gave you. You shouldn't be wearing what I bought if your seeing someone else." He said. I paused for a minute, this was all I had to remember him. I try to keep in the tears and took it off. I put it in his hands, "If your seeing someone else, why are you crying?" He said.

"If your seeing someone else, why are you still wearing the ring I got you when it was our 2 year anniversary?" He asked. "Tell me!" He yelled. I forgot we were in a park, but no one was ever here. "I don't know." I say. "You don't know? You know damn well." He said. "I wear just for jewelry ale. I'm seeing someone else, I don't love you anymore." I felt my own heart break. "Look at me in the eyes and tell me that." He said. "Why are you doing this alejandro?" I ask. "Because I need the truth. I can't move on unless I know you don't feel the same way." He said as tears fell out of his eyes.

I looked inside of his and I couldn't do it. I can't say I don't love him when I do. "I can't do it, I can't. I can't say I don't love you when I do. I'm not seeing someone, I just wanted you to leave so I can move on, but I can't. I can't love on someone the same way I loved you. I can't be with someone without thinking of you. No one can make me feel the way you made me feel. I tried but I can't." I started to break down. Everything was coming out and I couldn't stop it.

Alejandro pulled me into a hug and kiss my head, "I can't either. I tried, but I can't. I can't feel anything with anyone unless they're you. I can't find someone like you. I can't find something like us, someone who loved me the same way you did." Alejandro said as his voice cracked. We both crying in each other arms, I missed this. I barred my head in the crook of his neck, I felt so much better to let it all out.

"I missed you." He said. "I missed you so much more." I say. He pulls away, but keeps his body close to mine. He leans in and I felt myself leaning in too, our lips connected in the middle and everything felt so right. It's been so long since I felt his lips on mine and it felt amazing to feel his soft lips on mine. Our lips move together for a while until we hear throats being cleared. We pull away and we see mattia and kairi standing there. "Y/n!!" Mattia yelled and tackled me into a hug. "Hey, tia." I laugh. "Oh my gosh, I missed you! I missed arguing with you." He said. "I missed arguing with you too." I laugh. "So, you two back?" Kairi asked. Mattia let me go and alejandro pulled me to his side. "I don't know, what do you say? Would you like to go on our second first date?" He asked. "I would like that." I smile.

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made: 06/16/2020
word count: 984