In which their lives go on.
BOOK 1 : UNDERCOVER
BOOK 2 : DETECTIVES
TITLE USED TO BE : LAST FIRST KISS.
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Finished - December 2020
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Amelia
"What the hell is this, Amelia?" He held it in front of me and my face paled. I didn't know what to say at all. "Amelia?"
"Jay, it's not what you think." I mumbled, so stressed out that it was the only thing I could think of.
"Oh, so that's not a pregnancy test?" He asked, his voice tight as he looked at me and then back at the test continuously. "A positive one at that."
"Well, yes it is," I nervously answered, not knowing if I should just throw Kim under the bus or make up a lie. Thing is, I had just told Jay I didn't want secrets so that would make me a total hypocrite.
"Oh, my god." He breathed out, letting himself fall down on his butt as he leaned his back against the wall. Jay's jaw tightened before he let down another sigh, finally looking at me in the eyes. "It's fine. I'm gonna be there. We're going to do this together, if that's what you want."
I looked at him, confused out of me mind before realizing what he meant, "No, no, no, Jay, no-"
He cut me off, not even listening to me. "I know it's practically impossible for you to get pregnant, Amelia. And I know you've always wanted children so I don't want to be the reason you have to give it up." He approached me, grabbing my hands and gently rubbing his thumbs on the back of my hands. His words brought tears to my eyes. I should've told him sooner that it was Kim's.
"Jay, I - thank you for saying all this but," He was just about to cut me off but I shushed him, "Jay the test isn't mine. I'm keeping it for someone, as disgusting as this might look."
He put it back down in my purse, handing me my toothbrush instead. Jay got up and just walked away from me. He went over to the kitchen as I sat there, thinking over what had just happened. Jay - the guy who didn't want children - just told me he'd have mine, even after I had just told him we should stay broken up for now. I wasn't sure what the right thing to say to him was now.
I brushed my teeth and packed up all of my stuff to head back to Hailey's apartment. As I walked pass the kitchen, I saw Jay leaning against the kitchen island. He had a cup of coffee between his hands as it rested on the counter. He held his head down, looking deep in thought. I put my purse down by the door and headed over to Jay. I stood besides him, leaning my hip on the island as I put my hand on his shoulder in reassurance.
"Penny for your thoughts?" I said in low voice, looking at the side of his face. His jaw tightened as he squeezed his eyes shut for a second before opening them again.
"I just- I'm sorry." He blurted out, resting his hands on the counter as he pushed himself off of it. "I love you so much. I don't even know what to tell you, I just - I want you. I want all of you and I know now is not our time, but I will do everything I can to make you the happiest woman on earth. I don't care if we're together or not, you are my number one priority from now on, just like you should have been from the start. I don't even deserve a second chance from you, but I'm gonna be selfish and take it anyway because I want you in my life." He admitted, making my heart melt.
"I'm glad you're selfish about that because I don't know what I would do if you weren't in my life at all anymore." I told him, cupping his cheeks in between my hands.
"When I say I want you, Amelia, I mean it." He spoke, his hands resting on my hips as he pulled me closer. "I love you and I'll wait for you to be ready to take me back."
Tears filled up my eyes at his words and I couldn't contain myself anymore. I pulled his face towards mine and slammed our lips together. I stood on my tiptoes to make it easier on him as he leaned down to kiss me back. All of our emotions poured into this kiss and I decided that I never wanted to let go. Last night and this morning had been a rollercoaster of emotions, but right now I didn't want to get off of it.
His hands roamed around my body, rediscovering it like it was the first time. His touch made me shudder in pleasure as I pulled on his hair so I could hear the most beautiful sound I had ever heard coming out of the back of his throat. He helped me jump on the counter so I could sit on it as he stood between my legs - still kissing me. His hands rubbed my thighs gently. He pulled me as close to him as he could without making me fall from the counter. I rested my hands on his shoulders, feeling his muscles tense up as I touched him.
He bit my lower lip gently, making me moan at the feeling. Jay took the opportunity to slip his tongue in my mouth and I accepted it, deepening the kiss. We both moaned into the kiss which made us smile and chuckle against each other's lips before we pulled away.
"I love you," I mumbled against his lips.
"I love you." He responded, leaning his forehead against mine. "So we wait it out, see where this brings us?"
"Yes, and if something like last night happens again, then it happens again." I shrugged like it was nothing, the corner of my mouth quirking up.
"Oh yeah? So you are open to the idea of it." He smirked at me, squeezing my thighs.
"Only for you, Jay Halstead. Only for you."
________________ This is a freaking mess. I feel like this is too soon but I missed them together and I hate writing them apart lmao.
REEDITED: I'm thinking about rewriting the last few chapters so you might see me updating the same chapters over again!
