DETECTIVES - Jay Halstead (2)

49- Chances

(Just realized that this book started out with 800-500 reads and now it's in the 2oos lmao WHERE DID I GO WRONG EXCEPT FOR ME MAKING IT MUCH LONGER THAN IT SHOULDVE BEEN)

Amelia - January 8th

I pulled my leggings up to my belly button so I'd be more comfortable with my growing stomach as I sat down in the uncomfortable doctor's office chairs. I tapped my fingers on the cold metal arm of the chair, creating some kind of - very bad - but somewhat comforting beat. I glanced at the clock on the wall in front of me, watching the minutes tick by as I waited - by myself.

I was 5 months pregnant and had decided to stick to desk duty until the baby came. I didn't want to risk losing our baby - who I was minute from learning if it was going to biologically be a she or a he. I had texted Hailey to remind her of my appointment so she wouldn't worry about me not coming in this morning - like she usually would be when I stayed home because of the sucky second trimester symptoms I had. They were much worse than the ones I had on the first trimester, making it much harder on me because this one I was going through alone.

"Mrs. Halstead?" The doctor called me and I glanced up at her, my heart dropping at what she called me. Months ago, Jay and I had registered as Mr and Mrs Halstead for doctors appointments and I didn't have the heart to change it - even after five whole months.

I got up slowly, careful of my growing belly, as I headed towards her - glancing one last time at the clock. I pursed my lips following the doctor into a room where he told me to get comfortable for the ultrasound - even though he knew it was impossible to get anywhere near comfortable on this chair thing.

"Will Mr Halstead be joining us today, Miss?" She politely asked me, putting on some gloves. The doctor didn't look at me and I was glad because tears were welling up in my eyes and if she looked at me with even an ounce of pity I would either punch her or burst into tears. I knew she remembered Jay being absent the last time and I didn't need another remember that I was once again all alone.

"No, I don't think so." I shook my head, looking at the ceiling as she turned to me with the cold gel.

"Should we get started then?" She asked softly and I only nodded, waiting for her to apply the cold gel on my belly. A knock on the door stopped her from doing anything, she smiled politely at me before covering me with the bed cover and heading to the door. She only opened it halfway through, not allowing me to see who was on the other side of the door and vis versa. She and the other person spoke in hushed tones for a few seconds before she turned around to look at me.

"Mr Halstead is here, should I let him in?" My eyes widened and my heart beat sped up at the doctor's question. It definitely took me by surprise. I genuinely thought Jay had forgotten about the appointment and that he wasn't coming. I really thought I was going to be alone. I nodded quickly, tears now going down my cheeks as she opened the door wider to reveal a nervous looking Jay - whose eyes immediately scanned the room looking for me. As soon as his eyes set on me, he rushed to my side and didn't waste a second before grabbing my hand and apologizing.

"I'm so sorry I didn't get here sooner, Will's apartment is farther away from here than I thought it was." He apologized sincerely, scanning my face slowly before he frowned, "Don't cry. Please don't cry. I'm here, I'm here with you, okay?" Jay reassured me, wiping my cheeks with his fingers gently before taking my hand in his again. I nodded, lips pursed as I breathed in and out deeply. The doctor smiled at us before asking if she should proceed.

"Yeah, we're ready." I spoke, glancing up at Jay - and let me tell you that it had been a while since I had last seen Jay so happy and bright. It made my heart flutter, he seemed much better than he was five months ago.

As he stood by my side, my hand in his as his other hand ran through my hair in hopes of calming me down - which worked - I allowed myself to think about the last five months. Which also helped me ignore the cold gel the doctor was applying on my belly.

I only ever saw Jay at work and we would barely talk, only the occasional hi, how are you? kind of conversation. But Hailey and Ruzek made it their mission to update me on Jay. Apparently, he was attending therapy and he never missed it. I knew that he was planning on buying or building his own house - he wasn't sure which one he would do yet. He was happier and was doing much better, which made me happy. Will had seen him hanging around different women when they went to Molly's, but he said Jay never left with any of them - even though it was none of my business, I wasn't sure how I felt about it.

We weren't together anymore, we technically could date other people. But I honestly didn't want to. I held onto the hope that Jay would pull a grand gesture to fight for me and get me back in his arms, but from the looks of it that wasn't his plan just yet. Maybe he wanted to be a single dad and that's okay - but I sure as hell didn't want to be a single mom, because I wanted Jay by my side every step of the way. I guess I brought it on myself though- I broke up with him so he could get better and I couldn't expect him to just come back to me afterwards - even if I really wanted him to.

I was brought back to reality by the doctor discussing our baby's health with Jay - only then realizing I had missed everything except the baby's sex. I was nervous, my hands were getting clammy and my breathing picked up a little. It was exciting and nerve recking at the same time. Jay softly glanced down at me, smiling.

"You ready?" He asked and I took a deep breath, nodding before we both looked back at the doctor.

"Very well," She examined the screen for a few seconds before smiling at us. "Congratulations Mrs and Mr Halstead, you'll be welcoming a healthy baby boy by July 16th this year."

I gasped, tears once again falling from my eyes as Jay kissed my forehead, a smile plastered on his lips. I looked up at him as we smiled and chuckled - happily. The doctor let us have this moment to ourselves as she went to print out some papers for us. Jay helped me clean my belly from the gel and helped me sit up so he could hug me properly. His arms wrapped themselves around my neck as mine wrapped around his waist - my head shoved against his chest. I could his heartbeat getting faster and louder and I pulled away slightly to look at him. He did the same, getting lost in his eyes was something I had missed so much. My smile faded as I saw him licking his lips, instantly hypnotizing me. My eyes couldn't leave his soft lips that I missed so much. I couldn't even tell if he was doing the same, I just leaned up and pulled him down slowly. He didn't resist when I pressed my lips against his for a few seconds - unconsciously waiting for him to push me away.

When he didn't, I moved my lips against his - both of us letting a sigh of relief. The kiss was soft and gentle, letting us remember what it was like to be with each other. His hands cupped my cheeks as I felt his lips pull up in a smile. I smiled as well, detaching my lips from his just in time for the doctor to burst through the door, handing us everything we needed.

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Fucking suck at endings lmao (of a chapter)
YES, I went for a poorly written dramatic chapter - FIGHT ME

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