DETECTIVES - Jay Halstead (2)

41- Lines

Amelia

A month later

Jay and I spent the last month working alongside the district attorney investigator as well as Voight to find a way around the Commander's order. We talked and met with both of them on multiple occasions, trying to figure out what we could and couldn't do so I could get back to work. It was a work in progress, but I was pretty sure we were getting somewhere.

The only thing that moved during all this time was Voight getting Detective Wilson suspended. It was nowhere near fair for everything he did to me, but it was enough for now. The Commander that gave me the ultimatum was also getting his case reviewed in order to maybe get suspended as well. That was enough for me right now.

Plus, Voight had convinced the big bosses to allow me to work at the 21st District as a consultant for the Intelligence unit. I wasn't a detective anymore, but at least I could work. So that is exactly where I was right now - reading through the case they were currently working on. I was able to fill out all the paperwork they were behind with and now that I was up to date with everything - I could help them out. I was working alongside the tech guy when a sudden wave of nausea came over me. I got up as quickly as I could without alarming Tim and rushed to the bathroom.

I locked myself in a toilet stall and threw up. Once I was done, I sat up against the stall and breathed in and out. It had been happening a few times over the past month but I didn't think much of it because of how stressed I was over the wedding and work. But now that everything was going well, I couldn't exactly say it was stress that made me feel so bad.  Worry washed over me as I contemplated all the possibilities of what could be making me sick. The only one that stuck was pregnancy. But I couldn't believe it, I technically wasn't late for my period. Plus, what was the chances of me getting pregnant twice in the same year when I had been told it would be practically impossible for me to ever get pregnant.

I stood up slowly, trying not to make myself dizzy so I wouldn't throw up again. I rinsed my mouth with tap water and made sure I looked the same as when I left so Tim wouldn't ask any questions. I made my way back to his office and told him I'd be going home for the rest of the day. Thankfully, he didn't ask any question and simply nodded. I smiled at him and nervously made my way over to Trudy so I could clock out early.

"Hi Trudy, I'm going home early." I announced, forcing a smile in hopes that she would buy it.

"Why? Everything okay?" She asked, making sure as she handed me the proper paperwork. I thought about what my answer should be for a few seconds, probably looking even more suspicious.

"Yeah, yeah. Everything's alright, it's just a slow day." I lied through my teeth, biting my lip as I signed the paperwork. I could tell she didn't believe me, but she didn't say anything either - like she already knew.

"Mmh," She grabbed the papers from me and let me go. I hurried out of the building before anyone from Intelligence could see me and went my way directly to my car. I drove towards the closest drugstore and went in without losing any time. I couldn't chicken out of this, I had to know if I was pregnant because it was the only thing that made sense. Or I was really sick and I was genuinely hoping it wasn't the case.

I hurried past the judging glances that were generously sent my way from an old group of lady standing close to the register and paid for the tests. I thanked the lady behind the register and with shaking hands, grabbed the tests and left the store. The way back to the apartment felt like hours when it really was only a few minutes. My hands wouldn't stop shaking, complicating every single movement I tried to make. I sat down on the couch, holding the boxes in my hands. I breathed in and out deeply for a few minutes to try to calm myself down before doing anything else.

Was this a good thing? The first pregnancy started and ended tragically, would this one be better? Would I be able to carry this baby to term? Would Jay and I be good parents? Then my mind carried me back to Jay. I knew he would make an excellent dad, but I hoped this didn't mean he'd have to put his career on hold. Jay is a successful and amazing at what he does and I didn't want to be the one to jeopardize that.

I realized I was worrying for nothing, considering I wasn't even sure if I really was pregnant because the tests were still in my trembling hands - just waiting to be ripped opened and put to use. So I stood up very slowly and took small steps to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror as I held up the tests, praying to the Gods above for a result I didn't even know I wanted. Wether it was positive or negative, I only prayed it would be the one I subconsciously wanted.

I did everything the box told me to and waited around for the 2 minutes it was supposed to take. In two little minutes, I was going to know if my life - and Jay's - would change forever. I was going to know if in eight months or so I would hold a tiny little baby that would be Jay's and mine. It was at that moment, when I thought about what our baby would look like, that I realized that I wanted this. This would be my miracle. I thought I was screwed forever, that I was doomed for the rest of my life to be unhappy and miserable. Then I met Jay and now I had the chance to maybe carry his baby. And I decided that nothing could make me happier, that I would do everything and anything to protect our baby.

So I turned the stick around, screwing my eyes shut, lips tight as I glanced at both sticks that rested in between my fingers. I breathed in and out, nice and slow, before opening my eyes back up.

You're pregnant.
Two blue lines.
It's positive.

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Are y'all happy now lmao

I wrote this in like half an hour so im sorry if its bad i just really wanted to be able to update today

Ps : i just realized that there isn't a lot of jay in this fanfic lmao I'll add more amelia/jay scenes in the next few chapters i promise

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