DETECTIVES - Jay Halstead (2)

46- Ultrasound

Amelia

Two days earlier

"Are you serious, Jay?" I spoke, a bit too loudly.

"I-I'm sorry." He stuttered, throwing his hands up in the air.

"Sorry doesn't cut it at this point, Jay."

The wind blew against my face as I walked towards the hospital, entering as soon as the automatic doors opened. I stepped inside, my boots clicking against the ground. I smiled at the people who looked at me, stopping in front of the nurse's station. 

"Hi, I have an appointment for an ultrasound, Amelia Davis." I forced a smile, pushing my hands against the desk as she searched through the computer. 

"Ah, yes. Just over there in room 5, miss. Is someone else coming with you?" She trailed off and I knew what she was asking. I looked down at my hands as I played with them, figuring out what to say.

"Uh, no. No one." I smiled, trying my hardest to act like I wasn't bothered by it. I thanked her and made my way to the room, opening the door and leaving it open behind me. I waited a few seconds only before a doctor walked in. I was sitting on the bed to wait for someone to come in so when I heard footsteps I turned to them instantly.

"Will! Hi, how are you?" I beamed, getting up to hug him.

"Hey, I'm good. What about you?" He answered, smiling at me as we pulled away.

"I'm good, I mean, first ultrasound is exciting." I forced a smile, once again, trying to lie through my gritted teeth. Will showed a tight smile and I knew he read right through me.

"What happened? You know Noah said his uncle Jay missed work the other day because he came home late the other night and then slept in." Will asked, frowning at me - he definitely knew there was something up with his brother and I couldn't lie to him about that.

"I fucked up, I know I did Amelia-" Jay started but I cut him off, walking over to the kitchen. We each stood on one side of the island, staring at each other.

"That's an understatement." I scoffed, "Are you seriously that uncapable of even trying to help me trust you? Over and over again you just give me reasons to doubt you, Jay. I can't keep going like this." I rubbed my face with my hands, sighing heavily as I felt my jaw tighten- trying to hold in the sobs.  

"It's just-" I sighed, "A case is bringing bad memories, I think. I can't say shit though because they'll think I'm acting as his wife- well soon-to-be." I looked at my feet, unable to look him in the eyes.

"Army thing?" He wondered and I nodded, he was about to answer but someone called him on his pager, "Let me know if you need me to kick his butt or for anything else, okay? Nat and I are here for you and the little one." He smiled, squeezing my hand before hugging me goodbye. I thanked him as he left the room. 

"What's that supposed to mean?" Jay asked, leaning his hands against the kitchen island as he pushed himself down then back up again. He was biting his lips nervously.

"I think we should postpone the wedding, Jay."

"There we go, Detective. A healthy and strong heartbeat, all the details are on this paper and we are expecting your baby to pop out by July 26th next year." The doctor smiled at me, her tone so light and sweet that it made me smile instantly. She handed me the papers and I thanked her as she left the room. I cleaned myself up before putting my clothes back on and leaving the hospital, sending a quick text to Will to tell him how it went. 

I got into my car and drove straight to Ruzek and Kim's apartment, where Kim and her sweet little Emma were waiting for me after my appointment. I parked my car and grabbed my stuff before walking up to the building. Kim buzzed me in, letting me walk up to the second floor and then to their door. 

"Hi ladies," I spoke as I opened the door and walked in, joining them in the living room. "Hi sweet Emma." I beamed grabbing her from Kim's arms as I sat in the rocking chair.

"Hello to you too." Kim joked, taking to opportunity to get comfortable on the couch again - without a baby in her arms this time. I smiled at her, "How was the ultrasound?"

"Went well, expecting for the 26th of July next year." I told her, rubbing my slightly harder belly -even though I wasn't even showing yet. It had only been 10 weeks after all. 

"Jay didn't go, uh?" She responded, her lips in a thin line as she frowned.

"No, he didn't. But he's undercover, I mean-" Kim cut me off.

"Stop, stop Amelia. You know the meeting's not until tomorrow, he could have taken tonight off to be with you." She said and I couldn't say she was wrong. I had taken the appointment late in the afternoon so he could still come even if he had to meet the Vegas tonight. "You know Adam found him sleeping in the breakroom this morning? Said it looked like he was having a nightmare or something." She informed me and I shook my head, sighing. I did not know that because I hadn't talked to him in two whole days. 

"W-what? No, no, we're not postponing it." Jay refused, shaking his head as he made gestures with his hands.

"You know what, Jay? We'll talk about this later. Now's not the time." I told him, avoiding eye contact and instead stared at the ring resting on my finger.

"No, no, no, let's talk about this now." Jay pushed, his tone and his movements a bit harsher. 

"Jay, listen you're high and drunk, I shouldn't have said this. We'll talk about it tomorrow after you've gotten some rest." I told him as calmly as I could, not trying to pick a fight with him at the wrong moment.

"But you still said it. What do you want then? I fucked up once and you say you want to cancel the wedding!" He exclaimed, slamming his hands on the island, startling me.

"I said postpone, not cancel." I corrected, trying to slow down my breathing from how startled I was. "Plus, this is not the first time you fucked up, Jay. I've put my trust in you from the beginning of our relationship - ever since I first saw you when you were undercover, and you didn't betray me then and I know that. But every single fucking time an unexpected woman comes into your life, you take a step back and find a way to fuck everything up!" I exclaimed, trying very hard not to raise my voice too much because I didn't want to make him even more mad. "First with Erin, then with this fucking woman." 

"Nothing happened with Erin, Amelia." He spoke back through his gritted teeth, his fists clenched against the island.

"No, but you didn't try until the last minute to tell me that." I accused him, knowing I was right. "I know you're hurt right now and that a lot of stuff is happening in your mind but you've got to consult, Jay. This is just not working anymore." I told him, meaning the way he went spiraling back into his bad habits every time something bad happened. 

"Maybe that's the thing, it's not working anymore." Jay slurred, clearly still drunk and high, "I'm leaving." He grabbed his stuff and was practically out the door before I could get a word in. I stood there for a while, confused. I instantly called Hailey, asking her to come over to keep me company as I tried to contact Jay and find where he went. That night, Hailey stayed with me whilst Ruzek and Atwater searched for Jay, finding him at a nearby bar.

So there I was ; pregnant and engaged, yet alone - except for Hailey- in my apartment.

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