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The return to Kunlun Mountain was both painful and exhilarating.  I had fought my toughest battle ever and I don't think I will ever come close to what I have just experienced in the chaos and then a trial that is still very fresh in my mind.  In fact, that place comes nowhere near to what the mind conjures when one thinks of the void, a scattered soul or even the nothingness.   There is nothing about it being of nothing!  Because the sights and sounds are still ringing in my ears along with my mothers words which is making my heart flutter just thinking about it.

I know, that in time I will be dissecting my experience and what it is that I think the chaos is along with how she was able to not only reach me, but to also gather my own soul pieces in order to offer me a trial so I could return.  There is much I do not understand and I am not sure if I ever will, but I know a time will come, when I will allow myself the freedom to investigate, but right now, my thoughts are straying to that little girl who is now seventy thousand years older.  Or so Di Jun has informed me.

Apparently, he was already aware of my return not long before I went to trial, because movement in the Sea of Innocence had drawn his attention to my sarcophagus.  Bright lights were seen hovering about my body, and after removing the lid before inspecting my body, he then had me quickly taken to Kunlun Mountain under strict secrecy.

Only now, it was no secret that I had returned, because not only is Zhe Yan here to assist with my recovering, but the bell of Kunlun has yet to cease its tolling which will no doubt continue for several days to come.  And that is one more miracle that I am still getting my head around.

The bell of kunlun has remain silent for centuries save the odd times I rang it during practice sessions and even then, it was only for a short time because it literally can be heard throughout the world.  Yet here it is tolling in my return as if this is an everyday occurrence.  It isn't of course.  The bell along with this entire mountain is bonded to my soul.  When I died, this mountain would have drawn back its divine energy and remained dormant forever had I not returned, but to hear that bell ringing as if the Heavens itself released the ropes, only highlights the very privileged position I have in this world.

One that my mother had tried to convey.  I had no right taking my life as I did.  Yes Liweis sword stopped my heart from beating, but it my decision to allow it and of course the Heavens would have been exceptionally angry at me for it.  It is why it took me so long to piece my soul back together again.  I had to pay the physical, spiritual and mental agony for that choice, but as mother had said.  My perseverance saw me offered a reprieve and one I now want to focus on.

In fact I find it unbelievable that we were actually given the chance at love in a mortal lifetime and one that holds so many symbolisms for us both, that it will take years to dissect them all.   Though one thing does immediately stand out when I finally begin going over that trial which cannot in any way be compared to this lifetime and that is what exactly did I do to earn back my final few soul pieces.  I honestly cannot answer other than I forced her to let the discipleship go by creating a way through it.

"Mo Yuan.  Visitors have begin to arrive.  Are you ready to meet with them?"  Zhe Yan suddenly cuts into my thoughts and bringing me back to my bed chamber where I woke up.

Around me are my disciples who have all returned to welcome me back.  All but one, who I know will need a little time to adjust to her return, her ascension and my betrayal.  Though I am confident she will dissect her trial for its lessons, let it go and then return to me, so even though I am disappointed that she isn't here, I do understand.

So rising, I allow my disciples to help me to my feet.  I really don't need their help, because surprisingly, I feel the best I have ever felt.  My soul pieces are all in place and I have a strong suspicion that my mother infused them with extra cultivation along with my body which would explain the bright lights seen at the Sea of Innocence.  I feel as if I have gained a life times worth of cultivation.