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Discourse on Decadence [Jamilton]

here's a fic I've longed to write but I've waited for so long— or the "I'm glad you survived us now let's fuck" kinda poem. yes, I've reverted to poems. i need help. (and sleep) i have no inspiration at all lmaooo. fear not, this is the last individual poem you'll ever see from me.

as with all my poems, this sucks. I don't like it.

summer came like sugar honey iced tea, so sweet,
maybe sometimes, we got things wrong,
but it's alright,
we've really never been the best at this,
wouldn't you agree?

who would've known
that was the last time I'd see you in four years?
life could've thrown me off the deep end,
and I don't think you could
give me a reason to not throw me off the deep end
pardon my fake tits and makeup,
I don't think this was part of the agreement at all.

an autumnal equinox, were you there with me?
we're the driftwood in the sea,
but while I desperately cling to you,
you drift further away like a daydream.

it's a mind-numbingly cold winter.
we no longer see each other.
what happened to your promise of a spark?
are you drunk enough? have you excused me
for another warm body?
is this what has become of us?

I make promises, I can even do golden rings,
but I'll give you everything no matter what,
but you've already forfeited that, haven't you?
I need someone who won't break me again,
are you really going to question me here?

从来没想过，原来自己那么丑。
在给我一 点时间， 好让我回到家吧。
我们会像上次一样在街中央再次见面，
你准备好了吗? 你会再选择我吗？
在生命的海洋中，我们是内在的命运。
拜托，你可以可怜我吗？
在给我门多一个机会吧。
即使我知道我只会再次受伤我仍然爱你。
我不是听话的狗吗?

带我回到那个夏天的微风
因为我希望你再次真正爱我
即使只是一小会儿。

我想知道你的心从哪里来。
三年之痛，七年之痒，十年之约。

- 爱，亚历山大。

roughly translated(because chinese can never be translated to english straightforwardly) :

i never really thought how i could be that ugly
just give me some more time, let me go home
we'll meet in the center of the street once again,
like last time.
are you ready? will you choose me again?
in the sea of life, we're the destiny within
please, won't you pity me?
give us another chance.
even if i know I'll only get hurt i still love you
aren't i such an obedient dog?
bring me back to that summer breeze
because even if it's the last time,
at least you truly loved me for that short while.

I wonder where your heart came from.
three years of pain,
seven year itch,
ten years promise.

- love, alexander(his name is roughly translated as that in chinese)

if you're interested go check out the seven year itch. it's a sorta phenomenon. anyways bye i have one more fic to go and then it's devotion wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

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