Drowning- A Conor Maynard Love Story

Chapter 6- Gaurdian Angel

Chapter 6- Guardian Angel

“Be the change that you wish to see in the world.”~ Mahatma Gandhi

I sit there crying to myself feeling sorry for myself. I wake up every day hoping that everything will change, but every day I wake up with the same disappointment. He doesn't like me or even love my mom so why is he here? To ruin us, to ruin our family, to abuse us. To abuse me... Sexually.

Every day is the same. I've thought about running but I can never get myself to leave my little sister. She's the only reason I'm still here in the shithole. I've tried to run away with her but got caught and that meant more punishment.

"Anna where are you?!" I hear Hannah calling me so I quickly wipe my tears so she doesn’t know that I was crying... But deep down I know she knows.

It’s time to meet the only person who I can possible ever love. My baby sister and only sibling Hannah Edwards. She's six years of age. When she was about one that's when dad left. Mom became a drunk so Han relied on me all the time. I know if I leave what will happen to her, exactly what happened to me. That bastard knows not to touch her or else I will kill him. I'm my sister's Guardian Angel.

"In here Han!" I call. I realise that my voice is kind of croaky.

"I'M COMING!"

My sister comes barging into my room. My miniature room.

My room consists of a large single bed and a double-door wardrobe. I also have a work desk that has an old fashioned computer and desk lamp on. My carpet is white, my favourite colour is purple so I have a purple rug in the middle of my room and my wall colour is a light grey.

My sister comes and joins me in the tiny amount of space between my bed and wardrobe.

"Hello!" She gives me a kiss on my hand like she always does I put the kissed part of my hand on my chest. This is our way of showing our love.

"Hello! Why are you so happy?"

"An my teacher gave me a certificate in numeracy. LOOK!"

She shows me her certificate and I hug her tight.

"Well done."

"I'm going to be as smart as you Anna"

"Well obviously you will be smarter because I'm not that smart." I pull a funny face and she bursts out laughing and seeing her laugh makes me laugh.

"IF I HAVE TO GET UP TO SHUT YOU BOTH UP YOU WILL REGRET IT!"

Hannah jumps at his booming voice and I hold her tight to stop her crying, but it is no help.

"Ssshhh Han don't worry! He won’t do anything, he can’t. Because you have me and I have you. Okay? We have each other and me and you, well, we will always protect each other. Forever. Please Han don't cry."

I try and fight back my tears just for my sister...

"I'm so scared Anna. He always hurts you and I can’t stop him. He's too big for me. I hate him Anna. I hate him."

"Don't be. He may be too big for us but remember there is someone out there that can stop all this. One person who's is bigger than me, you, us. Bigger than him. And that's God. Rob will get his punishment! He will Hannah. I promise."

I could feel my tears ready to fall over the edge. They were betraying me once again.

"Promise Anna?"

"I promise"

She hugs me even tighter and it kills me to see her crying to I tickle her and she bursts out into a laughing fit.

"FUCKING HELL!"

Before I can even stop laughing he is in my room. He was giving me that heated glare that automatically has my skin burning in fear. I want to hold his glare but I look away knowing that I will just make things worse for myself.

"Hannah get out!" he says without looking away from me.

"No! I don't want to."

"I said GO!" He roars.

She looks at me and I nod. As she walks past him he finally looks away at me and at her. "Get out and go to your room and if you made any noise I will fucking break you, you little-"

"NO! STOP IT! DON'T YOU DARE SPEAK TO HER LIKE THAT!" I scream before I can even stop myself.

He turns to look at me. "Hannah. Go. NOW!"

Hannah gave me one last look before she took off running to her room sobbing.

As soon as her bedroom door slams I feel his glare on me again. I flinch from the coldness and harshness of his voice.

"YOU WANNA FUCKING SHOUT AT ME AGAIN? YOU WANNA FUCKING TALK TO ME LIKE THAT AGAIN? WHY THE FUCK CAN’T YOU JUST LISTEN TO ME AND SHUT THE FUCK UP WHEN I'M TRYING TO SLEEP?!"

As he walks towards me he slowly undoes his pants. "This is all on you..."

And right there, in that little space between my bed and wardrobe my step-dad raped me.

That night I let all my tears out...