Hooked On Your Love (Editing In Process)

Chapter 28

Hannah'S Point of View

"Oh god, I'm so fucking stupid,"

I said pounding my head against the back of the door. Right now it felt like my whole world shattered. It felt like I had been stabbed in the back. why did all the things that made me happy at least for a little have to hurt me so bad? Literally just as I was beginning to heal something happens. I was on the verge of a panic attack. The only thing that usually helps me is cutting. I got up and starting running to the kitchen. Apparently, Jules had rearranged the kitchen while I was gone so the knives were nowhere to be found

"Shit, where are they,?"

I said feeling annoyed and angry. I looked around the cabinets and didnt find it. The drawers and didnt find it. I even looked in the refrigerator.

"FUCK"

I said throwing a vase. Now I was having a panic attack. Everything was just all coming back to me. The bullying, abandonment, cheating, all of it. It felt like someone was just throwing it all in my face and I couldn't escape. I slumped down on the ground next to the refrigerator and when I looked under it I saw a knife,

"FINALLY"

just as I was about to make the first cut the knife was snatched from me.

"WHAT THE HELL?″

I said sitting up and turning around. When I turned around it was Jules. She looked scared and I could tell she just came home.

"Jules give me the knife "

"No "

"Jules just give me the knife "

"No"

"Give me the knife "

"No"

"GIVE ME THE FUCKING KNIFE"

I said standing up and trying to grab the knife from her.

"NO I won't LET YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF, JUST SLOWLY KILLING YOURSELF I won't LET YOU"

"WHY DO YOU CARE ANYWAY?. WHY DO YOU CARE, WHY DID YOU STICK UP FOR ME? DID YOU FEEL SORRY FOR ME? OH, WAIT DID YOU SET ME UP WITH AL JUST SO HE COULD CHEAT ON ME J...."

"HANNAH, DONT YOU DARE YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU. I STUCK UP FOR YOU BECAUSE I CARED. I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO CARED. THE ONLY ONE THAT STUCK AROUND SO DONT START THAT SHIT. NOW WITH AL, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOUR TALKING ABOUT. BUT I KNOW THAT WHATEVER HAPPENED YOU WILL NOT SIT HERE AND KILL YOURSELF OVER IT."

By now I was crying even more. Jules wasn't much of a crier, mainly because she wasn't as sensitive as me. I collapsed on the ground. I just laid on the ground finding no reason to argue with my best friend. After a few minutes, she lay down next to me. We were just staring at the wall. Not saying anything. This actually calmed me down. It was like a breathing lesson. Once I got my breathing back to normal I said,

"Jules I'm sorry, I didnt mean any of it, and that's not an excuse I am very sorry"

"It's fine girl, as many times you've had this same experience before I know you're sorry. But this time it was different, what happened ?"

I took a deep breath

"He cheated."

"Explain"

"I walked in the meeting he was in with that Bitch Selena, trying to surprise him, she was on his lap like they had just got done fucking"

"I'll kill em. What did you do? please tell me you whooped her ass?"

"Yeah I might have to pay a fine or get sued"

"Don't worry, your forgetting you have a lawyer for a best friend so ill take care of that don't trip."

"I honestly don't what I would do without you. Why do you stick around? Why didnt you just go back to your friends that day?"

"That's a question that ill never be able to answer properly. I just felt the need to. I felt like I had to you know. And I don't regret any of it, even right now. But I have a question"

"What ?"

′'What are you going to do?"

"I don't know. Im never leaving this house though" 

"Oh sweetie, come here," she said pulling me up for a hug.

"It's gonna get better I promise you that. But no matter what happens. Go take a nap, you need the rest, ill make dinner okay?"

"Okay? but what about my clothes and stuff, everything is at home or I mean his house?"

"Don't worry about it ill get it tomorrow or some other day, you can just use my stuff like all times, okay?

"kay, goodnight Jules," I said getting up and walking to the stairs

"No, you still have to eat, so its goodnight for now"

"Okay fine, goodnight for now

Al'S Point of View

"DAMMIT.,"

I said slamming my fist on the counter. I was drunk, tired, and heartbroken all at the same time. These past weeks have been horrible. On top of that, I hadn't gotten any work done. After Hannah came that day, Selena didnt show up and she canceled the investment because Hannah had beat the shit out of her. I was scared as hell that. It was like she turned into a whole she-devil. I had never seen her so upset. I was honestly scared for my life that day. But nothing made it worse than her breaking up with me.

Now I was laying on my counter, with a Smirnoff Vodka in one hand, and Jack Daniels in the other. I hadn't showered or gotten out of the house. When I was about to take another sip, there was a knock on the door,

"Go away, nobody is home″ I said throwing an empty bottle at the door.

"Shit, watch it asshole"

"Blondy?"

I said sitting up

"Wheres her stuff drunkie?"

I got off the counter and left the bottles as she walked to my bathroom.

"What happened does she want to get back together, is she coming?"

"God no,  I'm picking up her stuff because I'm taking it back to our house, she needs it"

"I could give it to her or I c..″

She stopped looking and turned back around to the living room. I followed her.

"Look, just stop, please, if I had it my way I would have been kicked your ass all the way to Jamaica, but that would not look very good for my reputation. you fucked up, you decided t..."

"But I d...′

"Save it, you fucked up, you decided to sleep with barbie, and now you lost the baddest bitch you've ever had. So stop wasting your time. She's done with you." she said picking up Hannahs stuff and opening the door,

"Oh and here's your key, she doesn't need it anymore"