Before Me, Him

Chapter 42

     We arrive at the amusement park around two o'clock. The sun was high and the weather was warm but not unbearable due to the comfortable cold breeze being blown by the wind. They were all already gathered in the front entrance, me and Emily were the only ones missing in the group. Of course, once she sees Dean she runs towards him at full speed.

     - Hi. – says Luke while coming towards me. His eyes weren't making any eye contact with mine, instead, they were looking all over the place. He was feeling uneasy and I get it. Yesterday we didn't talk the rest of the day so things were truly never sorted out. – How are you?

     - I'm alright. – I place my hand on his shoulder and he finds the courage to look at me. – You're forgiven but keep in mind that there is a time and a place for everything Luke.

     He nods and gives me a gentle smile. We catch up with everyone else and enter the park. I was hoping today would be a good day or, at least, a day that could be good enough for me to forget about my problems.

     - Where do you guys want to go first? – Philip asks with his smooth voice.

     Polly and Emily start fighting about where we should go, one said the Ferris Wheel while the other wanted the Rollercoaster. It was as if two little kids were fighting over the last piece of chocolate in the box. We ended up deciding that we would start with some rollercoasters and, at the end of the evening we would go to the Ferris Wheel, that way we would be able to see the sunset.

     It was around five o'clock when we got out of one of the rollercoasters "The Speed Guardian" it was its name. Well, we only managed to experience three since the lines for the amusements were all extremely long. It is not to be surprised though, today is Saturday so it is only natural that the park would be packed.

     - I'm hungry. – Emily states while grabbing Dean's arm. – Buy me something.

     Dean giggles and we all go to a crepes store. I didn't eat anything, I was not particularly hungry. My mind kept thinking about bad things once it had a chance to so my anxiety levels were rather high. Of course, that would impact my willingness to eat something. We hanged out for around one hour there and afterward, we decided to go to the "Mirror Room". I'd never gone there but I know it consists of trying to find your way out from a room filled with mirrors. They thought it would be amusing to try it and since it had a short line of people waiting we ended up going inside.

     As we entered the lights were slightly darker and you could only see mirrors with our reflection. We were trying to find our way out but somehow Polly and Jacob disappeared from the group, followed by Emily and Luke and, soon enough, I got lost as well. It was a complete maze, you couldn't lose the focus on the person in front of you for one second otherwise this would happen. You would also hear from time to time something engines moving so I assume the mirrors would change positions in certain spots.

     - Emily! – I screamed trying to see if I could find Emily through her voice. She screamed my name as well but she sounded so far away I couldn't even understand from where she was talking.

     Out of a sudden, the lights go down and everything gets dark. Slowly small lights start to appear in the middle of the floor, they were light blue blinking lights. "Was this a part of the show?" I thought to myself. My heart was pounding, I was nervous and anxious. I don't think this is how normal mirror attractions work. I start hearing a voice coming from the ceiling making me look up.

Once upon a time, there was a man. A humble man with a humble heart. His whole life he had been a humble man until the moment he met his doom. His doom was his lover, his companion, his everything that left him with nothing. That's why he died. It was your fault.

     My heart was racing and my mind was losing control. "I need to leave" I thought to myself, "I cannot stay here". This is a haunted mirror room, with a story behind it but it is making me lose any control I have.

     "That's why he died. It was your fault." Those words were being continuously said by the man's voice and in that dark environment, I was starting to panic. I was running around, desperately trying to find a way out but I would only see my reflection everywhere. I stopped for a second to catch my breath. "Where is everyone?", the keys placed all over my drawers were starting to fall and I couldn't control them anymore.

     - June! – I could hear Emily scream from afar.

     - Polly! – I could hear Luke scream from somewhere closer.

     Everyone was calling out for everyone but my voice couldn't leave. Out of a sudden, everything grows quiet and I get a shiver down my spine.

     - No... Not again... - I say while looking at my reflection.

It's your fault June. Your fault don't you know? 

     She started to talk to me with a grin on her lips. I place my hands over my ears. "Make it stop, make it stop please someone make it stop." I was desperate. I thought she was gone, but she is still here, with me.

     I stop for a split second after hitting my head in one of the mirrors. 

You know you can't run from me June, I am you and I know what you did.

     She goes down to my level. 

He knows what you did, he won't forgive you. Unless... 

     She disappears.

     - You know nothing. Shut up. – I start mumbling to myself.

I know everything June, everything. You can't hide anything from me.

      She says.

     - Go away! – I scream. – Leave me alone!

June... He hates you.

      As she finished saying this sentence I see William in one of the mirror reflections. I couldn't breathe and I couldn't think. My mind was locked in getting out but I couldn't find the exit. The darkness in that attraction was driving me insane, it was bringing her back. "I have to get out otherwise..." I knew what would happen.

     The true reason why I wouldn't turn on my lights after William's death was because of her. Every time I would see myself in the mirror she would pop up and make me feel like I wasn't meant to be here. She used to say that death was the only way to atone for my sins. I would listen to her quite often but at least I couldn't see her face, that is, my face.

     - No... - Tears start rolling down my face at an amazing speed I couldn't stop them – No please, don't hate me it was not my fault, please!

     My knees lose their strength and I fall on the floor. Her words were echoing in my head and I couldn't help but feel a stab in my heart every second. Tears were falling from my eyes and my body was shivering in fear.