Before Me, Him

Chapter 50

     After some time I finish eating the meal Jacob had prepared for me and we move to the living room. When I was eating we didn't talk, he just stared at me from time to time and, the rest of the time he was on the phone. I guess he didn't want to make me feel uncomfortable so he just made himself look busy so I could relax a little bit more. 

     His living room was different: he had a gigantic television and by its side, there was a fireplace covered in marble. The dark blue couches and the dark green rug were standing out. I've realized that his mom really liked simple but modern stuff and, had a particular love for making the furniture stand out. Of course, that is me just assuming things, as usual.

     - Would you like to see something? – Jacob questions me as we both sit down on the couch with some distance between our bodies.

     - Anything is fine. –I say while curling myself on the couch. I didn't want him to feel pressured to see something he didn't want to see. Since when did I become this considerate over this person? Now that I think about it, when did I start to care so much about everyone in that group? – You can place a comedy movie or something.

     - Alright mam'. - Jacob lets out a giggle.

     He picked a movie called "Dear Diary", a romantic comedy about a vampire that fell in love with a werewolf. Personally, it's not my cup of tea, I'm not really into supernatural love affairs. During the movie, we didn't talk however Jacob looked at me a couple of times. Once it ended he looked at me kindly.

     - What would you like to do next June? – he questions me.

     Jacob was giving me all the time in the world. He was being kind and considerate. He has always been that way towards me, ever since we met. I just never noticed it due to my lack of trust issues.

     - You know Jacob... - I say after clearing my throat. – You're a lot like my brother.

     - You think so? – he answers me. He was so similar to my brother. His voice was different and if you looked attentively his figure wasn't that similar to William's but his kindness and his way of acting were as if he was still... - How was he like?

     - He was kind and warm. He was also very handsome. He liked to play a lot and to joke around with everything. – I could feel tears starting to gather in my eyes. Talking about my brother always made me more emotional, it's not something I could prevent from happening.

     - He sounded like a great person to be around. – Jacob said as a simple smile was created on his lips.

     - About today... - I say while interlacing my fingers. –I'm sorry for making you worry.

     - Do you want to talk about it? – he questioned me as his smile disappeared. Now he was wearing a more serious expression however it was a very peaceful one.

     - I was stressed over leaving and things at home are not alright. Today was my first day in my university but then Rodrick popped up, he is the little brother of one of William's friends. – my hands started to shiver due to my nerves. – I just snapped.

     - June, you have time. – he assures me as he sits by my side holding my hands tight. His hands were warm while mine were cold. It felt nice and cozy. It was as if William was holding me like he used to. – But I do need to know this... What happened to your lip?

     - Oh that... – one of his hands leaves mine and approaches my lips. His finger was slowly passing from one side of my lip to the other, warming it up and leaving it coldly. My heart started to pound somewhat faster and I felt my body getting hotter. I had this feeling once before. – It was my dad.