Before Me, Him

Chapter 76

- Remember to take your medication and always walk with the crutches alright? – says the kind nurse that had been taking care of me for the past couple of days. We were both currently waiting in the hospital lounge for John to come pick me up. – Aright, let's get you to the car.

She helps me get inside slowly and after saying goodbye we head off. John was in a happy mood, mumbling a song to himself. I can't say I'm excited to leave because even after all of this we are still going to the mountains. Truthfully it didn't bug me that we were going somewhere new, in fact, it was exciting however I wasn't eagering for hanging around Jacob and Philip. The day where they came by Jacob didn't even approach me, he just looked at me and I couldn't figure out what was wrong with him.

- Emily already placed some bags on your bed so you just need to sort out what you want to bring. – John interrupts my train of thoughts as he ends up parking the car close to the house. – If you need any help just let me know alright?

I nod and leave the car. Having to use crutches in order to walk is unpleasant since it takes me a lot more time to reach the places that I wanted to go but there is nothing I can do about it besides bearing with it. As I reach my room I start placing the basic things that I will need for the journey: bath products, some set of clothes, a couple of books to read in the meantime and after all of that, the christmas presents I had bought. Emily had placed three gigantic bags on top of my bed and I don't know why. "It's not as if I have that many pieces of clothing in the first place" I chuckle to myself. I have to admit that I hesitated on bringing some of the gifts but just the work of removing them from the big bag where they were was too much for me right now. Instead I just brought all of them even though I wouldn't be able to give all of them on christmas day.

Monday comes in a flash and everyone is gathers in front of my house. I was walking down the stairs when I see Jacob in the kitchen. He kept looking at me with a very serious expression on his face.

- Alright so let's do it like this. – I hear John talking with the guys. They were figuring out the best course of action. – We will have to go pick a guest at the train station so can Emily go in your car Dean?

- Sure! She can ride with us. – he kindly smiles.

- Jacob can take June and the majority of the bags, since the other cars won't have that much space. – John and Dean start placing the bags on the cars and I let out a sigh. "Why do I have to go on the same car as Jacob?" I felt frustraded since the last thing I wanted is being alone with him, at least while he kept this wierd atittude going.

Since I couldn't help with anything I just headed towards Jacob's car and, out of the blue, he appears and opens the front door. He didn't say anything. If silence could kill I would most definetly be dead by now. I get inside the car and sit down as Jacob places my crutches on the back sit and then proceeds on closing the door on my side. Some time passed and everyone started to enter the several cars.

- Is everything ready? – Jacob questions John loudly and is replied with a even louder "yes". As the cars in front of us start heading off he walks towards the driver's seat and soon enough he turns on the engine of the car. – If you need to strech just place the chair down on the side. It will be a long ride.

- Thank you. – I reply to him however his eyes wouldn't even leave the road. My heart ached so much that I just felt like crying. I try to ignore it so I just place my headphones and look outside the window. I didn't want to think about it, I didn't want to know the answers. The more I eargered to know the more it would hurt me, the less ignorant I am, the more painful everything will turn out to be so I'd rather stay blinded to the harsh reality upon me.

The journey was long, it took six hours by car just to arrive there and during all that time I couldn't day dream on anything positive. My anxiety was over the roof so I was thrilled when we finally reached the hotel where we would be staying for the next week. Honestly I was shocked on how expensive it looked. The marble floor alongside the golden chandeliers filled with beautiful gems, even the extremly dark wood was shiny and looked fancy. In the reception you had some golden couches and in the dining room there was a small stage with a wonderful light wooden piano for night perfomances. From the windows I could see several trees, some of them with christmas lights alongside with some snow while other ones were just presented with the white beauty. As Jacob took care of the check in I sat on one of the couches while reading a small guide book of activities that they had around here: a warmed pool, a sauna, a small spa area, a bar and outdoor activies as well, such as skying, ice skating or even snowboarding. Sadly I wouldn't be able to try to do any of those due to my injury but there's no need to be dwelling on something I cannot change either ways.

- Here's your key. You can head on to the elevator while I get your bag.

I nod my head and start walking slowly towards the main elevator of the hotel. Of course that, once I reach it, Jason was already by my side again. "Why am I so slow?" I bite my lip in frustration. I'm definetly not used to this.

We arrive at my room and, after opening the door Jacob enters with my bag. I place the key on the small desk that the hotel provided in the room and as I lift my head, he had already gone and opened the dark blue curtains, allowing the gorgeous golden sunset colors to enter the room. I look at him as his figure was covered by the light rays and somehow the wierd dream I had on the hospital came back. My hands clench on the crutches handle on it's own and he starts approaching me.

- Do you know why I am mad June? – he questions me as he moved towards me. I felt a tight knot in my throat when he got so close that I was between him and the beige room wall. His eyes were reflecting a true emotion of anger and, after some time passed without any reply, he places his left hand on the wall with a loud bang, making it impossible for me to leave since the desk was right next to me. – I'm waiting.

- How would I know? – I find the courage to reply to him however his strong presence kept oppressing me and, unlike how I usually am, I couldn't speak the words properly, instead I just mumbled them.

- You are smart. Think about it. – he claims strongly with his words. After another couple minutes of silence he decides to bring the timer to a close. – So?

- You are mad because I got hurt. – I mumble again and right after I'm done he places his other arm on my right followed by another loud bang. "Shit, I just made it worse didn't I?" I thought to myself as my heart was about to explode out of my chest.