We filmed another cover before we decided to finally call it a day. Hinatid ako ni Ethan sa bahay pero agad din siyang umalis.
Pagpunta ko ng kwarto ay nag ring ang phone ko. I answered it and was in awe after the call.
This will be the first school concert we will attend after the issue. Agad ko silang tinawagan to inform them, everyone were happy pero hindi nila nakalimutang tanungin kung ready na ba ako.
That issue, minsan oo iniisip ko pa rin but if i will keep on letting it stop me then kailan ulit ako magsisimula? Ang alam ko lang, mas kaya ko ng harapin ngayon kesa noon. The small gigs and competitions that we joined really helped a lot.
Just like what i've been doing, i type our new schedule on my laptop. Sasara ko na sana ito para maligo ng muli na namang mag ring ang phone ko. It's an unknown number.
"Hello? Who is this?" I asked dahil kahit nag hintay ako ng ilang minuto pagka sagot ay walang nag salita.
(Allison...) muntikan na akong malaglag sa kinauupuan ko ng marinig ang boses niya. I don't need him to say his name. Alam kong si Lucas to.
"Who are you?" I asked again kahit na alam ko naman talaga. It's been awhile, i've been faking it, ayaw kong ipakita na kabisado ko pa rin ang lahat sa kanya dahil kapag pinakita ko na naman, baka maging mahina na naman ako. Baka magpaka tanga na naman ako sa nararamdaman ko kahit halata naman na wala na sa kanya.
(This is Lucas) nata himik ako pagkatapos niyang sabihin ang pangalan niya. Now what? Anong kailangan niya? (I just wanna ask something if it is okay...)
"Ano yon?" tanong ko.
(Can I still enter- I mean join your group? The teacher told me to join a group I like.)
God knows how i want to say yes pero ako lang ang mahihirapan, pati ang mga tao na nakapaligid sa akin ay madadamay.
"Kumpleto na kami, i heard sand-" He cut me off by talking.
(Okay, i'll ask other groups.) pagkatapos non ay pinatay niya na ang tawag.
I gulped, I didn't mean my answer, I don't even like it but that is the right thing to do.
Kinabukasan ay nagpapasalamat ako sa diyos dahil na excuse ako sa first subject. I didn't have to see him so my conscience won't eat me.
Afternoon class na ako nakapasok at doon naman sa oras na yon ay nag cutting siya so we really didn't see each other.
"Nakita mo si lucas? For the first time sumunod siya sa rules." I heard a girl say, while I was on my way to the cafeteria.
He cutted class just now, paano sumunod sa rules yon? Baka sarcastic lang?
Tuloy tuloy lang ako sa paglalakad pero bago pa man ako tuluyang makapasok ay nakita kong lumabas doon si Lucas, our eyes met but i immediately look away.
His hair changed, yun siguro ang sinasabi ng mga nadaanan ko kanina. He has it clean cut now and suits him.
I left out a faint smile. I used to convince him about getting a clean cut pero hindi niya ginawa, who made him do it?
And just like that, days passed by quickly.
It has been a month of hiding when I know he isn't seeking, a month of trying to avoid him while he doesn't care whether I am near him or not.
When our roads cross, I always take different path kasi it's the only way i can avoid looking at him, it's the only way i can stop my heart from beating kasi sa totoo lang, i still love every bits of him. Kahit gaano pa niya ako nasaktan, kahit gaano pa niya ako naapektuhan.
But hiding when no one is seeking and avoiding when he is not purposely showing himself cannot be avoided in this kind of situation...
"...Next is Lucas paired with Allison."
Agad na tumungo ang mga kaklase ko sa mga ka partner nila habang ako ay naka upo pa rin sa upuan ko. Why does this kept on happening? hindi to ang unang beses, sa totoo nga ay paulit ulit na lang, parang na nanadya ang tadhana.
"Do you prefer it here? or let's go outside?" Napa tingin ako sa kanya pero hindi rin nagtagal yon. His stares, it makes it hard for me to breath.
I thought I had the choice when he asked but now we're in one of the study rooms, his choice. Ayaw ko pa nga but when he asked why when i hate distractions. Doon wala na akong nagawa, I can't tell him the reason that I am uncomfortable with his presence.
"Are you gonna end it all by yourself? Bigyan mo naman ako ng trabaho." He stated, hindi ko tinanggal ang tingin ko sa librong hawak ko.
"Just stay there, patapos na rin naman. read it after, ikaw ang mag report."
Nagulat ako ng hilahin niya ang libro as he lean closer to me.
"Then you should teach me how to report this kasi kung hindi, your grade will suffer. it's not a big deal to me though but i am thinking about..." Umiwas ako ng tingin at pilit na inabot ang librong hawak niya pero mas nilayo niya ito, "You won't even look at me when i am talking to you. Nag uusap pa tayo, mamaya ko na ibibigay to." he said.
I hate how he can manipulate me with the way he acts now at heto naman ako, kinakabahan.
"Tuturuan kita, now give me the book so that i can get it done." He smirk before he gave me back the book, nakahinga ako ng maluwag nang lumayo na siya.
hindi nagtagal ay narinig ko naman ang kantang pinapatugtog niya, the cover i did that was posted on our youtube channel, perfect crime.
He got me distracted pero pilit pa rin akong nag focus. I am so embarrassed right now. My voice and the song choice, fuck it!
Nagulat ako ng marinig ko ang boses niya, he is not singing but he is speaking the lyrics.
"Those things I did, Just so I could call you mine..." I didn't look at him. Kahit tapos ko na ang ginagawa ko ay pilit pa rin akong nag susulat, "The things you did..." Hindi ko na kinaya kaya inangat ko na ang tingin ko sa kanya at ibinigay ang papel na hawak ko.
"Let's start." Pero ni tignan ay hindi niya ginawa, he was just staring straight into my eyes as he spoke the next lyrics.
"I hope I was your favorite crime."
I don't know what to say next, I don't know what to do. I just want him to stop and thank God, someone made a way.
"Allison let's go, time is up." It's Ethan.
Tumayo agad ako at pumunta kay Ethan.
I didn't mind looking at him anymore pero bago ako lumabas ay muli ko siyang narinig na nag salita, "Oh, look what we became." He said before letting out a chuckle.
"It's my first time seeing that kind of smile for a month now. Played with someone interesting?" He shook his head with her question.
The thought of what happened a while ago flashbacks on his mind again,
The nervousness she has is so vivid to him. He still has an effect on her and that is the reason for his smile.
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