Please, Don't Play my Heart (Mr. Ramirez Series #1)

CHAPTER 32

CHAPTER 32

These past few years, I kept on asking myself, why do people we love hurting us the most? Why does it have to be them? Why not from those people we barely know instead?

Then I reflected... maybe because we love them, we trusted them and believe they were our safety. That's why we keep expecting something.

These past few years, I've realized there's no longer for you to feel loved if you can't appreciate yourself. That's why instead of seeking help, seeking others' appreciation. I provide all the love, trust, and belief for myself.

"Maybelle, nandito na ko sa airport..." I said calmly on the phone.

I tried to be as hurry as possible because I'm exhausted, I just want to lay on my bed and stay there for the next 5 hours, also I feel a bit sweaty since I'm still wearing the same coat I wore before headed back here in the Philippines. My home.

"Mabuti naman, wag kang mag-alala may nahanap na akong magandang condo para sayo, you're secured there, kung gusto mo direstyo kana dito sa bahay then sabay nalang tayo pumunta doon."

"What? Maybelle, I'm tired, I just want to sleep."

"Dito kana magpahinga..."

I exhaled hard in frustration. My last month's been so tiring, my schedule was always full and I can't even spend time with my family, that's why I've decided to take a break a little and have a short vacation in Chicago with my parents. They were in bliss. Nauna na silang bumaba saakin kanina kase akala ako susunduin ako ni Maybelle pero hindi pala.

Sa manager ko nalang ako magpapasundo.

Magsasalita pa sana uli ako nang may marinig akong hiyawan, at nang tignan ko kung ano 'yon ay nakita ko ang isang bunch ng fans of mine na sinasalubong ako.

I glanced at the big tarp they were holding, it contains my picture along with the cute text 'Welcome back'

Napangiti ako, pinatay ko ang tawag at nakangiti silang nilapitan.

"Welcome back, star queen!" Nakangiti nilang bati saakin lahat. May ilang media members silang kasama at nakangiti akong kinukuhanan ng litrato.

Hanggang ngayon ay hindi parin ako makapaniwala na nangyayare 'to, minsan nagugulat parin ako dahil sa dami ng paghanga at pagmamahal na binibigay ng mga tao saakin ngayon.

5 years ago I was a loser, but now I'm a famous movie star. 5 years ago I was known by no one, but now everyone knows me, notices me, and many people envied my life.

They said, I live in their dream. Siguro kung alam lang nila lahat ng pinag-daanan ko bago ko marating kung nasaan ako ngayon. Hindi ko kailanman nilabas sa media kung sino ako noon at kung ano ang mga pinag-daanan ko, at wala ring nakaalam na naging karelasyon ko dati si Dillan.

Si Dillan...  Wala na akong gaanong balita sakanya o ka'y Lily kase mapag-alaman kong bumalik sa New York si Dillan at hindi na sya bumalik pa sa Pilipinas, but I knew he became even more successful, he continued his career as a holywood actor and supermodel at the same time.

But Lily remained here, and about her relationship with Dillan? I don't know, and I don't even care. Basta ang alam ko wala na kong naririnig pa sa relasyon nila.

Yung litrato na magkasama sila sa ball five years ago, yon lang ang huling litrato nila na magkasama, bukod doon ay wala na.

Maraming fans ang natatanong saakin lagi kung madali ba o mahirap maging movie star, pero ang lagi ko lang sinasagot... hindi, kase sa dinami-dami ng mga actors and actresses na nangarap non sure ako na marami ng movie stars ngayon but no, being a movie star is not for everybody.