Please, Don't Play my Heart (Mr. Ramirez Series #1)

CHAPTER 43

CHAPTER 43

Isang beses pa ako muling sumulyap sa malambot na kama kung saan nakahiga si Dillan at mahimbing na natutulog.

Huling sulyap...

Because this might be the last time na magagawa ko 'to, ang tignan sya, because from now on ako na mismo ang aalis at lalayo sakanya. Masakit man para saakin pero alam ko kase na 'yon lang tanging paraan para hindi na ako mas masaktan pa...

Ang iwanan sya... I can feel my heart ache because... I promised him yesterday, when we were in each other's embrace, in the midst of so much love and happiness, contentment... I promised him that I would never run away from him again.

But now, this is what I'm doing... Running away, breaking what I have promised.

Because it's too much, I've done many selfless things yesterday and that was enough. Hindi ko lang talaga napigilan ang lahat ng nararamdaman ko kagabi kaya naman hinayaan ko nalang kung ano ang bagay na makakapagpagaan sa pakiramdam ko, at yoon ay makapiling sya uli.

To feel the warmth of his body pressing against mine, to feel his embrace that gives like a paradise and secured feeling, acts like everything was normal.

Believing that he really loves me and not someone else, that he would never hurt me again... Making myself believe what is impossible... Because... It's impossible.

"Jade..."

"Oh, Vanessa ang aga mo naman tumawag ayos kalang ba?" Sagot ni Jade sa kabilang linya nang tawagan ko sya, napansin kong inaantok pa sya dahil maaga pa.

"I'll open my GPS, sundan mo nalang 'yon at sunduin mo ako..." Matamlay kong sinabi.

Narinig ko ang paggalaw ni Jade sa kama nya. "Wala ka ba sa unit mo? Nasan ka Vanessa? Bakit di ka nagsasabi kung may pupuntahan ka?" Wala na ang antok sa boses nya ngayon.

"Just fetch me, at bukas pa cancel narin lahat ng schedule ko, I need some rest..." Pagkasabi ko non ay hindi ko hinintay pang sumagot si Jade at mabilis ko naring pinatay agad ang tawag.

I parked my car in front of a random 24/7 open store nearby, pero hindi ako lumabas, I was just sitting here at the driver's seat.

Tulala... Yesterday I'm in bliss, I'm just so happy and contented and now... I'm miserable again. I feel like a huge part of me is missing again. I don't know why.

Humawak ako sa sa manibela upang doon kumuha ng lakas pagkatapos ay yumuko ako at pinikit ang mga mata ko, dinadamdam ang lahat. Palihim akong humagulgol doon.

Dillan, loving you is pain.

"K-Kung alam ko lang na magiging ganito pala ako edi sana noon palang pinigilan ko na ang sarili kong mahalin ka... B-Bakit sobrang hirap mong k-kalimutan..." I simply let the tears flow without stopping.