We Will Survive Together

Chapter 27: I just need to go

It had been about a week since Daryl left. I was lying on my new bed and couldn't stop thinking about one small detail. It had nothing to do with what happened but after seeing a map I had to go. My parents house was bout 20 miles west of here. I had to see if they made it. I grabbed a few things I would need then snuck up to the cell where we kept food, water, medicine, and weapons. I grabbed enough to start me off and quietly headed towards the front gate. I saw Maggie was on watch and was hoping she would just let me go. I walked right past her and went to open the gate. "Where are you going" She said running over to me. "Out" I said unlocking the gate. "I can't let you" She said stepping in front of me. "I'm going to my parents house. They may have been the worst but they always said they had a plan on how things would go in a situation like this. I want to see if they made it. And before you ask I am not taking Kaley. Hell she told me she never wanted to go near that house again." I said trying to convince her. "And what do I tell Daryl" she said looking at me. "He doesn't want anything to do with me. But if he asked tell him I hope to come back someday" I said trying to walk away. "Kass he is pissed at himself for accusing you of cheating. He hates himself but he would go crazy if you left." Maggie said stopping me again. "I love him. You know that. I have never said it but I love him. He doesn't feel that way. Now I need to do this" I said looking at her. She nodded and let me open the gate and shut it behind me. 

I got about 2 miles from the prison before hearing a car. I knew it was most likely Daryl. I kept my head down and hopped he would think I was one of the dead. The car stopped and I knew he knew it was me. "Damn" I muttered under my breath. Daryl got out of the car and stood their. "Where are you going" He asked standing their. "Why do you care" I said looking at him. I continued to walk. I heard him get back in the car but the engine only ran for a few minutes. I looked behind me but the car was gone. I thought he actually left. 

It was still dark outside and at this point I could see my parents house. I stopped and took a deep breath before continuing to walk towards it. I walked into the house and left the door open behind me. I didn't think it would matter. I searched the whole house. Including the attic and the basement. The last room was their bedroom. I stood in front of the door before opening it. I froze when I saw what it was. It was my parents. They had tied themselves to the bedframe and their was a note on the floor. The note read "Got bit. Anything in the house you can take. If you are one of my daughters reading this. I'm sorry" I looked back up and dropped my gun. I started to cry. Before I heard footsteps. I didn't even care who it was. I walked forward but lost it when I saw the crib. With my knife in hand I remembered my mom was pregnant. I walked over and saw the baby. It was dead. I dropped the knife. "No" I said before backing up. "no no No No NO NO" I said getting louder before collapsing to my knee's. I heard someone enter the room and looked up to see Daryl. I stood up and looked at my mom. I started to walk over to her. I think Daryl read my mind because he grabbed me before I could get to her. "I am not going to let you do that" He said pulling me back. I started to cry again. This time falling to the floor. Daryl took out his knife and stabbed each of them. I stood up and walked to my old bedroom. I sat down on the bed and was still slightly crying. I heard footsteps and wiped my tears away. Daryl came in and sat on the foot of the bed. After a few minutes he moved up and sat next to me. "So this was your house" he said suddenly. "Yeah" I responded looking down. "And the baby" he said looking at me. "My mom was pregnant when I moved out. Only saw him once." I said trying not to look at him yet. "Kass. I am so sorry for flipping out on you. It has been killing me. That is why I left. I wanted to give you time" he said. I didn't respond. "Were you really going to kill yourself in their." he said looking at me still. I shrugged my shoulders before tears fell again. "Listen to me Daryl. You need to go. My parents have stocks of weapons and food and water and other things that everyone else needs take them and go." I said moving forward. "Hey I'm not leaving you here" Daryl said moving along with me. "Just go please" I said starting to break down again. "Kass if I go your coming with me" Daryl said standing up in front of me. "Daryl we both know you don't want anything to do with me. So just go. take care of Kaley tell them I was bit. I can't go back." I said turning around. Daryl grabbed my wrist and turned me back to him. "Listen to me. I cant lose you. I feel like a total dick for yelling at you. Kass I-. I love you. I have never been clear with feeling like this but I am now for you. I should have believed you when you said you didn't cheat. I shouldn't have flipped out on you. It didn't help. But Kass you are coming back with me" he said looking at me in my eyes. "I  just want to get it over with I said turning around and taking my knife out of my holster. I lifted my sleeve and quickly cut 3 more cuts into my arm. "Kass stop Daryl said taking my knife. My wrist was bleeding as I collapsed to the floor. "I hate it" I said letting my wrist bleed. Daryl threw my knife behind him and crouched down next to me. "I love you. Kaley loves you. You have been through a lot but listen to me" he said moving his hand to my face. "You are strong and we need you. I need you. If you die I wouldn't be able to live with that. So please" He said again this time tears coming to his eyes. I looked down at my wrists and he covered them with his hands. "how many" He said looking at my arms. I stood up and he backed away. I took off my jacket and revealed my arms. His eyes widened then I looked down. He seemed to read me like a book. "Are their more" He said searching my body with his eyes. "On my thighs" I said looking down. "Show me" he said grabbing my hand. I nodded and took my jeans off. He closed his eyes and a tear fell when he saw how many their were. He wrapped his arms around me. I cried into his chest. "I love you Kass" he said again. I stodd their for a minute. "I love you to Daryl" I said trying to stop crying. I was happy that he was still their for me. The love of my life doesn't hate me.