We Will Survive Together

Chapter 53: Stay away.

We have been walking for about a day now. Everyone had been affected from Kaley and Tyreese. We all have taken it different. I tried to distance myself, Daryl just wanted to help me. Beth has been crying a lot. Sasha has been just upset. She is have PTSD episodes. She will just lash out and won't hear us. We were walking and Carl was on one side of me and Daryl was on the other. We had no idea where to go. All we knew was we were heading towards D.C. Michonne thought that maybe Eugene knew something or had a feeling and something there would be an upgrade then what we had. "Eh I'm gonna scout around see what I can see" Daryl said. "Ok be careful" I said grabbing his hand. He nodded and walked away. After a few seconds I felt a tap on my shoulder. "I need to talk to you" Carol said. I was confused but nodded. She walked into the woods. "We will be right back" She said over her shoulder. I followed her. I was growing more and more concerned. "What the hell is your problem" she said stopping to face me. "What do you mean" I said looking at her. She reached into her bag and pulled out many suicide letters. "This is what I mean" she said holding them out. I took them from her. "I wanted to get it over with" I said looking at them. "No you wanted attention. It's stupid as hell" She said. This shocked me. "I did not do this for attention" I said looking at her. I was so confused on what she was saying. "Yes you did. We all have lost someone or something. And not one of us have gone and wrote a damn letter" She said getting even more angry. "You have no idea how I handle things. It is not just because I lose someone. My thoughts and not wanting to hurt anyone is what makes me want to do it" I said trying not to yell. "Well then do it. Go kill your self if that is what you really want. Because guess what no one is gonna stop you anymore no one will care" she said. "Daryl will that is why I haven't" I said. "No he won't. He may act like it but Kass you are weighing him down. You want to go then go. He will get over you. Everyone will. I will help Daryl. After a few days he will have completely forgot who you were. Then he can live his life with out chasing some attention seeking bitch" Carol said. I was shocked. "So yeah go ahead do it because he already told me that he is tired of helping you" Carol said walking back to the road. I stood there for a second. I was tearing up. I didn't want to believe it but something in my mind told me it was true. I wiped the tears and walked back to the road. Daryl was already back. "Ya good" he said as he put a hand on my shoulder. I glanced at Carol. "Yeah" I said. 

We continued walking until Daryl stepped away again. We all decided to stop and wait for him. We all needed a break. We were almost completely out of water. After about 30 minutes Daryl came back up and I could tell he was probably crying. "We keep going" Rick said. We did. We came across two gallons of water and some water bottles. There was a note and we didn't trust the water. Eugene was quick to try it though. Abraham smacked it out of his hands. "Don't trust to quick. It could kill ya" Rick said. Then the thunder started. Slowly it started to rain. Some enjoyed it others still had the same depressing thoughts. The wind started to pick up and we all knew that we had to find shelter. "There is a barn" Daryl yelled out. "You guys go I'll catch up" I said. "You sure" Rick said. "Yeah." I said. "I'll go with her" Carl said. "Ok it is right through there" Daryl said. I nodded. "Where are we going" Carl asked "I dropped something at the bridge." I said. Once we got there I knew Carl shouldn't be here with me. Not with what I was planning on doing. "Alright head back." I said. "What why" Carl said. The rain was getting heavier and heavier. "Tell Daryl that there is something in his bag for him. Tell him I am coming back" I told Carl. "OK be careful" he said. He had no idea what I was going to do. I took out the other notes that I took from Carol and put them underneath rocks. I sat my bag on the ground and looked over the edge of the bridge. Slowly I stood up. One strong gust of wind would knock me off. And I was ready for it. 

Daryl's POV: 

I was waiting for Carl and Kass when the barn door swung open. Carl was alone. "Where is she" I asked standing up. "She said there was something in your bag. Then she said she is coming back" Carl said. I walked over to my bag and saw a small piece of paper. I opened it and it read "I'm sorry". "Damn it" I yelled. "What is it" Glenn asked. "It's another damn suicide note" I said grabbing my knife. "Another" Rick asked in concern. "Where did she go" I asked Carl. "The bridge" He responded. I opened the barn doors and took of running down the street. In the distance I saw her standing on the ledge. "No" I muttered under my breath and ran to her. 

Kass's POV:

I had my eyes closed tight. The wind was making me sway back and forth. One more hard one and I would go over the edge. I was crying at this point. The rain was in my face and I was completely soaked now. I was ready to just jump. All the sudden someone grabbed my hand and pulled me down. "Why the hell ya doing this again" Daryl said still holding on to me. "Just let me" I cried out. 'Why do ya want to ya were doing fine" Daryl asked holding both of my arms. "Carol" I said looking into his eyes. "What ya mean" He asked. "She told me I was seeking attention. Then told me that no one was gonna stop me and that I was weighing you down. Said you were tired of saving my ass. Said she would help you and you would forget about me in a few days. And I believed her. She told me everyone wanted it." I said collapsing to the ground. He looked pissed. "She is wrong. I would die if you did this" he said. I pulled away from him and stepped back up on the ledge. "Just let me" I said. Then I felt him next to me. He got up there to. "What are you doing." I asked looking at him. "If ya go like this so do I. I ain't living with it" he said grabbing my hand. "Daryl" I said looking at him. "I ain't" he fired back. I couldn't take him down with me so I stepped down. I drug him back and he hugged me. He pulled away and lightly kissed me on the lips. The rain was still coming down. "Let's go" he said. He had my hand in his and by his pace I knew he was pissed. We finally got back to the barn. He pushed the door opened and everyone was looking at us. "Oh my god are you ok" Maggie said running up to me. "Yeah" I said. I watched Daryl look at me then at Carol. "What the hell is your problem" He yelled. Carol acted confused. "What do you mean" she said. "Ya told her to go kill herself. Said she was seeking attention" Daryl said. "I dont-" she started. "Shut up. I know what ya said. Ever since she came back from your little talk in the woods she seemed different." he fired back. "Listen to me. Stay the hell away from her. If she would have jumped it would have not taken me a few days to get over her. Hell I got up on that ledge with her. She ain't dying from suicide and she sure as hell ain't dying because some stuck up bitch told her to" Daryl yelled. "Stay the hell away from her and me. Don't tell her that finding me would be a waste of time. That no one here would be affected. Hell ya wanna tell her that her search for me was a waste of time then the search for ya daughter was to. Because at least I turned out to be alive and not dead in some barn" Daryl yelled. "I saw right through her. After she lost her daughter then her husband turned on her then she was raped 3 different times. Got told her sister was alive then turned out she was dead. In my opinion she has been through a whole lot more then you." he said. "So I will say it again. Stay away from her and me. If she steps up to kill herself and I find out that it was your fault I swear to god. I do not care that we have known each other for a week or two longer then Kass but it don't matter. I love her. And you ain't gonna change that" he said before walking away. Everyone was in shock. "Are you ok" Rick said walking up to me. "Yeah" I said looking at Carol. She was in shock as well. Carl wrapped his arms around me. "Everyone get some sleep. If this storm is over in the morning we can head out" Rick said. I saw Daryl sitting in the corner and walked over to him. I only glanced at Carol. I sat next to Daryl and he looked at the ground. "Never seen that side of you" I said looking at him. "I can't lose ya. And the thought that one of the people I trusted almost got ya killed I just blew up" he said. "you had a good reason" I said grabbing his hand. He nodded and looked at me. He slowly leaned forward and kissed me. I didn't stop him and it felt nice. He put his hand on my waist but I knew he was insinuating anything. Even if he was nothing could happen because everyone could see us. After a few minutes of this he pulled away. A small smile came to his face he kissed me once more. "Get some sleep" he said as he sat back against the wall. "What about you" I said as I laid down. "I will lay down in a minute" he said. I nodded and closed my eyes. Before I reached my hand back and grabbed his. Our fingers interlocked and I drifted to sleep. 

The next morning I woke up and the barn doors were opened. I could see fallen trees and it looked like a tornado went through. I sat up and Daryl was cleaning his knife. "Morning" he said looking up to me. "It wasn't long before I saw Maggie and Sasha and another man coming. "Guy's this is Aaron" Maggie said. We all stood up and looked at the new man. I glanced at Daryl and back at him.