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Kabanata 25

Kabanata 25

First Job

"Roux, gising na. Magpapa-check-up pa tayo. Gusto mo bang ma-late?" Malambing na boses ni Yael na mas lalo lang na nagpapabigay ng antok sa'kin.

"Antok pa 'ko." I pouted and buried my face again on the pillow.

"Mag-ayos ka nalang muna at maligo. You can still sleep on the car while I'm driving. Come on, let's go. I already prepared breakfast for you." Pagsumamamo niya.

I groaned in annoyance. "Sige na nga. Maliligo na ako. Thank you sa concern, a'. Mas excited ka lang sa'kin, e, kaya mo ako ginigising."

He chuckled. He bited his lower lips to prevented himself from laughing. Dahil nagagalit ako do'n, nagagalit ako sa tuwing may tumatawa. I already warned Yael about that. "Tumatawa ka ba?" I raised an eyebrow.

"No, I'm just happy. Damn, kailangan ko na talagang masanay na may Angry Momma akong makikita tuwing gigising ako sa umaga." He looked at me in the eyes. "You're cute."

"Psh, anong angry Momma? Duh, Yael. Stop speaking nga, naiirita ako sa boses mo." Inis kong sabi.

"Mommy, I'll need to get your urine, I'll check your sugar and protein levels. And, nakikita ko rin na healthy si Baby," wika ng Ob Gyne sa'kin habang may hawak siyang ilang nga papeles. "More on green vegetables tayo Mommy, a'. Para mas lalong healthy si Baby and as much as possible, iwasan na muna natin ang mga pagkaing oily. And pwede ko bang mai-tanong, are you stress, Mom?"

"Why, Doc?" I asked her. "I don't know po, Doc. Nagkaroon kasi ako ng family problems kaya siguro na-trigger ang emotions ko, and then, malayo po kasi ang Daddy ng baby ko kaya siguro ganito... Maybe, stress nga ako." Paliwanag ko.

Lately, napapansin ko na rin 'yon. Nagkakaroon ako ng anxiety sa tuwing gagawa ako ng desisyon. Not because that I'm too young to make some decisions, kundi dahil natatakot na akong gumawa ng desisyon na baka ay hindi naman magiging maganda ang kakalabasan. I need to be responsible now, not just for myself but for the life inside my tummy. Malayo kasi si Damien. I badly want too see him... I need him. Especially at night, hindi ako makatulog, dahil sa kakaisip ko kay Damien. I need his presence.

"As much as possible, avoid that. Remove the toxic thinkings from your mind. You need to be stress-free dahil baka ang baby mo 'yong mapahamak. Lalong-lalo na, na hindi pa fully develop ang sanggol sa sinapupunan mo," kinuha ni Doc ang gamot na kanina pa nakalapag sa ibabaw ng kaniyang mesa. "Take this vitamins. Not just for the baby, but It's also for you."

I smiled. "Thank you po, Doc. Ang bait mo talaga, nakakahiya naman."

The doctor smiled. "Not it's okay, it's really my responsibility as your Obgyne to take care of your health."

Mahinang hinaplos ni Yael ang aking tiyan. Hawak niya ang balakang ko sa likuran habang ang isa niyang kamay ay nakahaplos sa aking tiyan. "You're stress. Psh, you didn't tell me, may magagawa ba ako? Please stop thinking too much, ako na ang gagastos para sa bata. Just stay at home and take care of yourself. Huwag ka nang mag-trabaho, pwede ba?" He asked with so much worries in his voice.

Umiling ako. "Thank you, pero obligasyon ko ang anak ko, Yael. I need to work hard for him. How could I grow as a mother, kung parati ko nalang inaasa sa'yo ang lahat ng mga pangangailangan ng anak ko? I wanted to be a mother, Yhael. This is my child, so this is my responsibility," I caressed his cheeks and smiled. "Pero, thank you na rin. Thank you for doing Damien's responsibilities, na dapat siya ang gumagawa nito. Thank you for giving me your whole time. Kahit na wala ka ng oras, gagawa ka parin talaga ng oras para sa'kin."

"You know, the both of you looked cute together. Akala ko no'ng una, siya 'yong Ama ng baby mo, Misis. Ang cute rin kaya ng kasama mo, Misis," pagtutukoy ni Doctora kay Yael.