Shield The Child Crow #2 | ✓

Chapter 71

That's my Fault | Speed

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Hinata was forced to stay at home so instead, he fell asleep all day but it eventually caught up to him that he felt something wrong. Nothing was right and he knew it. He noticed changes in his room but he was busy trying to get some sleep and thanking that he didn't have to go to school.

Hinata took his razors and started cutting his arms. He hated himself. He felt ugly, gross, and unworthy. He didn't want to live anymore. He was sick of it. He was already holding pills in his hands.

He took them and swallowed. He knew they were slowly falling into his throat. He heard someone run to him and felt a back hug. An arm was pushed his stomach and fingers in his mouth. He started to cough and throw up all the pills from his mouth.

"Shouyou."Hinata turned to see his dad which made him cry.

His dad. He looked at his room and see no one. He hated this, being alone. He felt non-existent. His room was empty even if it had everything. His hatred towards the way he acted. He hated it. He felt embarrassed. He hated what was going on in his dreams.

"Wow, it's him."He heard and frowned.

"It's the stupid idiot. I heard someone gave him AIDS."Hinata gulped and walked to see his desk with marks.

"Faggot."

Hinata groans and turns but he woke up. He rubbed his hands on his head annoyed. He turned his head to the side looking at the water bottle. He took the bottle and took a sip then putting it back. Hoping that he could sleep again.

"Hey Sho! It's me! Koji! Stay awake!"Hinata heard and looked up from his seat to see his friend.

"Don't sleep in class now. We have to study for an exam."Izumi said and Hinata frowned.

"Right and let's play volleyball like you said."His eyes widen and looked at his friends.

"Who could say no to you."

He woke up again and was surprised it was better. He sighed and turned around to go back to sleep. He wanted better dreams like that. Instead of the hateful ones he got before the sweet dream.

"Hey! You!"He turned to see his teacher glaring at him.

"You're failing my class again. Do you know how hard I work just to teach you? Do better!"She shouted and Hinata bowed.

"Yes."He said and walked out of the room to see people looking at him.

"Would you look at that? It's him. The clown."He heard giggles and felt pulled.

He looked to see a girl with a smirk. She pulled him to the girl's bathroom while the others locked the door.

"You are just going to be a stupid loser with no life."She laughed as he glared at her.

"You're never going to go anywhere, you'll probably rot and live in the streets while we live in the heavens."She said getting closer.

She kicked him in the stomach and stepped on him a few times. "So sorry, just a sore loser like you shouldn't be here. Instead, they should be in the landfill. Just like your family."

Hinata groaned and felt his hair pulled. She giggled and took him to the toilet. She pulled him in and out of the toilet. The other girls in the back took pictures and laughed.

"Like I said, you're never going anywhere. You'll be a walk of shame."She said as she threw me down.

She walked to the sink and wash her hands. Hinata was shivering and scared. Toilet water all over his face and a tired look. He was exhausted and tired of it.

Hinata woke up and looked out the door. He got out of his bed with his feet touching the cold floor. He walked to his door and sighed. He opened the door slowly and went out of his room. He went walking to Seno's room and opened the door.

"Shouyou?"He heard a groan and stared at the man who turned to stare at him in the dark.

Seno turned on the lap light and turned his head to see Hinata. His eyes widen and he stood up. He ran to him and hugged him. Hinata hugged him crying. Seno held back his tears even though he felt like he could break. He hated it, he didn't like how his son felt. He hated how much he was hurt and wanted to help him.

"Dad, make it stop!"He cried out loud.

"Let's stop it together. Okay? I'll help you if you tell me."Hinata continued to cry as Seno helped him walk to his bed.

He sat him down and pat his back. "Shh just breath."

Hinata did the opposite and started shaking. Seno just put his son's head by his chest for him to relax. He held him tightly and kissed his forehead. Eventually, he calmed down but not that much. He was still in tears.

"I don't want to kill myself. I want to live."Hinata said holding his father's hand.

"I want to be with my friends and my family. I want to meet my friends from middle school. I want to go places no one can touch! I want not to tell people how my life is going but show them. I want to show those who made me feel like I couldn't become anything. I want to live so bad!"He told Seno who wiped his tears.

"You will. Let's make a list and start from there. Let's meet your friends. Let's let you live."He said and Hinata hummed.

"Thank you...after you took me because my mom died. You had put too much of an inconvenience being with me. I'm sorry."Seno shook his head and stared at Hinata.

"Your the best gift I could've ever gotten Shouyou. I love you and will give you everything you need."

Hinata hummed hugging Seno tightly not even letting the male go. "Now it's a little dark and that list can be made tomorrow. We can even start it tomorrow."

Hinata didn't want to sleep alone and stayed in his father's bed. Seno turned off his light and pulled the covers closer to Hinata's shoulders Seno sang him a lullaby his mom would sing. Anastasia, once upon a December. He smiled and slowly fell asleep.

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