~ HIS ANGEL BOY SERIES, BOOK 1 ✔ ~
"Don't try to fool yourself into thinking you didn't feel anything, Leto."
"I don't have to fool myself as I don't feel anything for you."
"Don't lie, don't make me do something I might regret."
"I doubt a creature...
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~Leto~
'The silence pierces my heart The calmness tears me apart numbness is getting over To my declination I'm getting closer
Can feel the boiling tears in my eye while the stuffed throat is dry my tears are ready to flow while heavy breath is getting slow
Crying in the darkness can feel this numbness hoping one day you'll call and save me from this fall
Now life seems to be a burden 'To feel dead, you don't need to be one.' that's what I've learnt from the "love" that I've spun
'To say hello, one must say bye; To live again, one must die' with your thoughts I'll sleep burry me somewhere deep.'
- 'numbness' by Nirvana on hellopoetry.com
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Getting up from the bed, leaving Freddie to sleep for a bit, it has only been 24hrs since Tal died and Enzo still hasn't come back, I know he probably doesn't want to come back here and see my face, I wouldn't want to either.
Letting out a sigh I go over to get a clean towel, throwing it over my shoulder I open the door and close it soundlessly behind me, walking down the hall to the bathroom all I hear is complete silence, making it feel like I am the only person alive.
Maybe I am.
Making my walk down the corridor to the bathroom, a glimpse of Tal's room stops me in my tracks as soon as I pass it, her room is at the top of the hall where our bedrooms are, I have never been in there before seeing as she never really spent the night here much, actually I don't even know where she went when she wasn't here.
Shit me.
I am such a shit friend, I am always so fucking caught up with my own problems that I didn't even know that she wasn't a mundane, I still don't understand what she meant, what the fuck?
Somehow I can't even think about if she is dead or not, it's like my brain has turned itself off from feeling, my body is screaming at me to rest and go back to lay in Freddie's arms, but my mind won't let me be.
I have to do something or I'll end up completely losing it, keeping my mind busy and distracted is the only way to keep sane.
Sigh.
Upon entering the bathroom I turn the light on and lock the door behind me, going over to the toilet I relieve myself in the bowl, putting myself away I flush and then head over to the sink and wash my hands under the tap, looking up I catch myself in the full length mirror, at the mere sight of myself I can't quite grasp what I see.
