~ HIS ANGEL BOY SERIES, BOOK 1 ✔ ~
"Don't try to fool yourself into thinking you didn't feel anything, Leto."
"I don't have to fool myself as I don't feel anything for you."
"Don't lie, don't make me do something I might regret."
"I doubt a creature...
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~Leto~
With not much persuasion I went with them.
Church it is.
Freddie's words reverberating around my mind as well as images of his cold stare, my mind not understanding what just happened, no words leave my mouth as Jay pulls me by the arm down the street, Cairo holding onto his other hand, my mind feels like it's on fire.
Not taking notice of the mundanes as we pass them, only the image of Freddie's back as he left me standing there in the middle of the kitchen like an idiot, feeling my ties to him being cut, not understanding why he said what he said, not even knowing where he went when he walked out like that.
It hurts.
It all just fucking hurts.
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Standing outside of the church I turn to look at the big board that displays the name, 'Alsaints Pentecostal'- reading the name has no feeling or meaning to me at all, casting my gaze up to the sky I wonder to myself if the Archangels could see me now...would they be proud?
I shake my head.
Entering the church I hear Cairo let out a laugh, Jay and I turn to see him putting his hands together as if in prayer- but in a mocking sort of way, he looks up at the big cross at the front of the church and gives it a nod.
"I always find it funny that when I enter a church, I always seem to be pleasantly surprised that I don't immediately burst into flames."
Just about everyone in the church turns around to look at the three of us, the mundanes just stare at us as if we are the strange ones.
At seeing the mischeif in his eyes I just blink at him, knowing that in any other situation I would be laughing, feeling so numb I don't even respond, feeling his eyes on me and knowing that he is dying to say something, but he doesn't.
"For fuck- I mean be quiet Cairo, come and sit down at the back so we can blend in."
He scoffs.
"I don't think we are the sorts that can 'blend in' in a church love."
Jay just ignores him and pulls me to sit down next to him in the back row, Cairo just smiles while shaking his head and comes to sit next him, his hand finding Jay's as it lays on his thigh.
And I try not to take notice.
I try.
I try and I fail.
I fail.
Seeing their sweetness only makes my heart ache all the more, my bones aching as I wrap my arms around my middle, holding onto myself as I ache from not being able to feel him, he is still there in my mind and soul but he has shut me out, tears surface as my body trembles.
