A Leaf In The Stream Of Creation (His Angel Boy)

Chapter 45: Promises He Thought He Couldn't Keep.

~Leto~

Trapped inside somewhere I don't know if I am able to get out, moving side to side trying to see where I am. All I see is darkness, all I feel around me and in my hands is soil, the silence fills my ears so intensely it becomes deafening.

Holding onto anything that I can remember--which turns out to be nothing, I try to focus my mind and still I come up with nothing.

Just as I feel myself giving up, images and sounds move past me in blurs and murmurs. Creatures come at me and then like some kind of force behind it pulls it back by its hind legs so it cannot harm me.

Voices being shouted but with joy, voices so familiar yet so far away I cannot grasp them, reaching out my fingers I try to touch those voices so they become clear, but as soon as I even think about touching them they are gone.

My eyes fill up with a light so bright I can see nothing else but light, a voice speaks out to me that is so fine and so soft it could melt butter, it been followed by other voices.

"Come back, come back..."

"Stay with me, I cannot bare to let you go."

"On this day, I thee wed..."

"Hold onto your Mother, my little baby boy, I will hold you in my arms everyday for the rest of my life if I could only see you one last time."

"Gabriel! Gabe, oh where are thee? I've been searching for you so for long now, I don't know if my heart can keep telling me to forget you."

"Listen here my boy, you are the key that will save us all. Remember, you have to remember..."

My eyes open as I bolt up right to see that I am in Freddie's bed in his room, I'm breathing heavy and am covered with sweat, my heart is hammering away so hard in my chest it hurts, my brain feels like it's on fire, every single little part of me is screaming at me to remember something I can obviously not do.

Turning, I look down and see him sleeping on his side facing away from me, watching as his body softly rises and falls as he is completely unfazed by what is happening to me.

Shit.

Throwing myself back down against the pillow, I lay back against it on my back while I look up at the ceiling as those voices come back to me, relaying what they said in my dream.

I feel something coming, I feel completely out of control, every part of my being hurts, something deep inside me is trying to claw its way out of me and I don't know what to do as I don't understand why this is happening to me.

Then it hits me like a ton of bricks...they were spirits from the other side, they were communicating to me over the usual hum of spirits that usually haunt me. These spirits from the other side chased away the spirits that mean me harm, they are protecting me.

But from what?

What is it that I have to remember?

What the fuck is it?!

As I grow increasingly more frustrated and hurt, I grab at my hair, pulling at it and making a noise that is not human. I don't know how I am making the noise, but it is forcing itself out of my mouth and I have no control.

Freddie is pulling at me.

"Leto! Calm down!"

I try my hardest to push him away from me but he is too strong, he holds onto me as I still making that same noise.

"Stop it! Stop making that noise, you are hurting me! Leto, please listen to me."

Everthing seems to be falling, he holds me in his arms as I feel his kiss on my forehead, stroking my hair away from my face.

"That's my boy, everything will be ok as long as I am with you."

As I lay in his arms I feel a calm come over me, completely relaxing myself into him, I open my eyes and see his gorgeous worried face hovering above me and I can't help the tears from escaping down my cheeks.

He smiles at me but I see the pain in his eyes as he wipes my tears away, I know he is putting a front on for me and I can't help but feel guilty for it.

Gently stroking my face, he continues to smile at me as I feel something burning inside my head, I close my eyes tightly as the pain gets higher in volume.

"Angel, what is it? Please tell me what it is that is hurting you so that I can help."

I feel myself trembling as I grip onto his arm, fearing to speak just in case my voice falters and he will think I am worse than I actually am, he speaks in a voice that sounds like he is holding something back.

"I think it is time I called Dr. Todd, there is something he must do, I can't bare this Leto, I just can't."

"N- no please, I- it's nothing."

He gently cups my face in his hands as it rests on his chest.

"I love you, I can feel that something is wrong or something is trying to come through, I cannot just sit by and let you suffer like this, I promised I would look after you and I will never go back on that."

A knock on his door makes us both jump, I try to move away from him but he furiously shakes his head at me as he holds me to him even tighter, laying on his chest again all I can hear is the steady beat of his perfect heart.

"Bro, is everything ok in there? I heard something...it wasn't right, can I come in?"

He looks at me as he bites his lip, he then leans down towards me and kisses my forehead, his lips linger on it for several precious moments and I can't help but feel that he is trying to soothe me with his love.

"You may enter, Enzo."

Enzo comes in and takes one look at us cuddled up in his brother's bed, he slightly raises one eyebrow and then tries his hardest to hide his smirk.

"Oh sorry, I didn't know I was interrupting something."

Freddie looks at his brother with a saddened expression.

"We need help, he needs Todd to be here to help him, please help Enzo."

That's all I hear as my mind decides to take a vacation, going limp in my boyfriend's arms, I can't help but not stop the tears that fall down my cheeks.

As the darkness claims me, I feel myself being lifted to somewhere else and I can't do anything about it because I am just a shell of pain and memories that won't come back to me, that try to haunt me like a child who doesn't know how to play hide and seek.

I'm sorry.

I am so sorry Freddie.

If this is the end, then I am sorry that I can't keep my promise to you by always staying by your side. I'm sorry I can't be who you want me to be, I'm sorry I can't be your angel.

~fades to black~

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