~ HIS ANGEL BOY SERIES, BOOK 1 ✔ ~
"Don't try to fool yourself into thinking you didn't feel anything, Leto."
"I don't have to fool myself as I don't feel anything for you."
"Don't lie, don't make me do something I might regret."
"I doubt a creature...
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~Jay~
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Just saying there is quite a lot of smut in this chapter and you can't really skip it, but if you really don't like it all that much you can skip it if you want to, if you are down for the smut then stick around till the end 😁
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I didn't think I could handle anymore, I didn't think there could be more pain to be felt, my half mundane body and mind seem to be closing down on me, the only part of me that isn't human is the vampire inside of me that is keeping me conscious and in the present.
I have barely slept a wink ever since I had learnt the news of Tal's passing, it has been a week and I haven't seen Leto nor Freddie anywhere, Enzo still hasn't come up from Edom and Cairo is just trying to keep me going, trying to get me to eat and shower.
It is the middle of the night and he is in his 'vampire sleep' curled up next to me, his hand resting on my chest just above my heart, the coolness of his skin seeping through the thin layer of my bed shirt, knowing that he just wants to feel my heart even though he isn't technically conscious, this past week has been hard on him, he has exhausted himself over me and I can't help but to feel guilty because in all this time of taking care of me he has neglected his needs to feed.
Ugh.
Carefully sitting up to rest my back against the headboard, I look down at him and feel at peace, because even with my heart breaking the way it is, one look at him can calm me. I don't know what it is but it just calms me, his eyes so green...so perfect in every way, his dark blonde hair straight but still being able to be tousled over his eyebrow, his nose a perfect arch, his lips mixed between the colour of rose pink and the fruit of an orange.
His beauty shines out from his skin the most, at night the moon literally shines off of his white skin, making him look like an angel, when I first saw him like that I thought I had stopped breathing, but his laugh brought me back to my senses, his amazing laugh that makes my heart flutter when I hear it.
But once I close my eyes I hear Freddie's uncaring and detached words telling me that Tal is dead, the realisation telling me that I will never see her face again, the pain takes over me and I can't stop crying.
Fuck.
Closing my eyes I turn my face up to the ceiling, moving my hand to hold onto his hand on my chest, trying my best to keep it together, knowing that he needs his rest and I don't want to bother him, I force myself not to break.
I don't know what to do.
Somehow I don't feel as affected as I did when we lost Manon, this time I feel numb and I can't leave our bed, feeling myself fading away as all I want is Cairo to hold me, but I really don't want to keep bothering him, I don't want to become a burden.
