~ HIS ANGEL BOY SERIES, BOOK 1 ✔ ~
"Don't try to fool yourself into thinking you didn't feel anything, Leto."
"I don't have to fool myself as I don't feel anything for you."
"Don't lie, don't make me do something I might regret."
"I doubt a creature...
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~Leto~
Trigger warning, suicide\harm 🔞🔞⚠️⚠️
Just a warning so that it's not so full on, there is a small part that may be a trigger or upsetting to read in part of this chapter, you can skip that part if you are not comfortable.
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'Before I became strong, I knew what it was like To be weak, How difficult it is to love yourself, To find the wholeness that you seek.
Before I knew the light, I have had my fair share of darkness, too, Where my world fell into a hopelessness And I didn't know how to get through.
For I have known the tears it takes, The courage to stand up again, When you are broken down and bruised And you know nothing but the pain.
You forget to appreciate love, If you haven't seen the hate, Till you forget the meaning of smile and laughter, And your heart is left abate.
I have known the strength and courage It requires to get it right, To face the things that hold you down And hold your head up and fight.
Before I was who I am now, I was someone I didn't want to be. I was lost, battered, and defeated, Before I knew how to be me!'
-'before I...' by Insiya K. Patanwala on familyfriendpoems.com. ~
How do I go back?
How do I go back knowing that I somehow had managed to claim myself, how I managed to not go either dark or light but I've gone somewhere in between the two.
Shit.
It has been two whole days since I left home to go to my Claiming ceremony and I haven't contacted Freddie or anyone else ever since then, I've been staying with Lorna and Mercury where they live in a pretty nice flat. I don't know what I am doing here, I don't know why I haven't gone back, I haven't spoken since either and I am just happy that the two of them have let me be and not even tried to talk to me.
Not long after arriving at their flat I pushed my wings back into my skin as it didn't feel right to have them out when Freddie isn't around, I took a nice and hot long shower to wash away the darkness of the night and to try to not think about what just happened.
I am sitting in a chair made out of wicker out on the balcony where I have been dozing on and off for a few hours, Lorna has gone out somewhere and Mercury is in the kitchen making some lunch.
As I sit here with my eyes closed, feeling the afternoon sun blaring down on me, two things come at me at once: 1. I missed Halloween and 2. I missed Christmas and the new year, how the hell did I miss them?
