His Mafia Princess - J.H

Chapter 16

Mirriella pov

"That's not okay." He said as he flopped next to me.

"Oh well, it's in the fucking past, not much I can do about it now." I dismissed.

"Get up." He demanded.

"Why?"

"You're gonna get in the shower and turn the water to warm." He said.

"No, I'm fucking not." I didn't have the energy to deal with this today.

"It's funny how you think I'm gonna take no for an answer. You either get in there willingly, or I force you in. Your choice." He said as he grabbed my arm.

"I'm not doing it." I said as I crossed my arms over my chest.

"Fine then, you've made your choice." He said as he walked over.

He gripped my hoodie and pulled it over my head. He took ahold of the sweats I was wearing an pulled them down my legs. Leaving me in just a thong. He then took me by my hand and dragged me to the shower. He pushed me inside, and walked in with me, shutting the door. He kept me in front of him as he turned the water on. I could tell he didn't have it too hot, but there was still heat there. He gripped my shoulders and pushed me in the way of the water. The burning sensation spreading throughout my chest caused me to get confused. I shut my eyes and saw her.

"No mama. Stop it please." I whimpered as he pushed me further.

"It's not her." He said as he held me under the water. I know it wasn't that hot because he was still flinching at the temperature, but to me it felt like a burning pile of rocks had been poured onto me.

"Let me go." I said as I tried to wiggle free from his grip.

"No."

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Jaden pov

She tried to wriggle free from my grip, but I wouldn't let her. She needs to do this if she wants to keep her life. She'll cause herself to freeze to death sooner or later if she continues the way she does.

"Let me go. Let me go. Let me go. Please let me go." She screamed. The strain in her voice showed me that she was getting confused between what's going on in her mind versus her reality. "It burns, let me go." She shouted as she tried to twist my arms for my grip to loosen.

"Mirriella, I am not your mother. You need to get used to this, you aren't leaving until the burning stops." I said sternly. She reached forward and turned the water off, and prevented me from turning it back on.

"You oblivious prick. Can't you fucking see that the burning will never stop? It will always be there. I have frozen my nerves to the fucking core. Once nerve cells are damaged they can't change back or be replaced. It's not going to go back to normal. Just let me do what I am used to because there's nothing you can do to change it." She sobbed as she walked passed me.

"That's not how it works. Your nerve cells are underneath all your muscle. You're just looking for an excuse not to do this." I grabbed her wrist lightly to get her to turn to me, but she pulled it away fast.

"Don't fucking touch me." She spat as she walked over to pick up her clothes.

I sighed and took of my shirt, that was soaked with water. I dumped it on the floor and walked out to see her painting again, this time on the desk.

"It's not going to work if you don't try." I said to her, she scoffed and looked at me.

"Okay, look, not every person is able to deal with trauma like you do. Not everyone is able to just shut of their emotions and not give a crap. Many people avoid what makes them feel that way, many people isolate themselves from the the world, many people try to kill themselves and then there's people like you, who shut off their emotions in hopes to not feel what is hurting them. You cannot just force someone with PTSD into something that will trigger them. You may be ruthless with the people you train and the people who work for you, but I'm not scared of you and will put up a fucking fight." She spat as she turned back to the painting.

"Deal with trauma like I do? What the fuck is that supposed to mean?" I argued back.

"It's fucking obvious Jaden, you act all heartless and ruthless because something happened to you. The easiest way you found to cope with it is to shut off your emotions. But soft spots, like your nephew will seep in and create a hole. After that, you'll find away to plug that hole by causing others pain, similar or not to what you went through." She explained not looking at me.

"You're wrong."

"Oh am I now? Is that you saying that and actually meaning it, or is that you kidding yourself so you don't have to believe it?" She asked in a cocky tone that made my blood boil.

"This isn't a hospital, you're not a fucking therapist. You don't know what has gone on in my life, but it's a lot better than the crap that has gone on in yours." I shouted at her, to which she laughed.

"What are going to do? Fuck me again? Because that's not going to work." She said through a giggle.

"What the fuck are you talking about?"

"Oh you don't remember? A few days ago, you mentioned your nephew and as soon as I started to pry into the subject a little further, you fucked me to get me to stop talking about it." She said, retracing what happened less than two days ago.

"I fucked you because I was horny and needed a toy to use." I dismissed. No you didn't.

"If you were horny and needed a toy to use, you would've used one of the many girls you have walking around that floor. Or you would've done it in the room you have over there. But you brought me here first." She explained.

"Don't you fucking dare twist what happened-" I was cut off by a hand colliding with my cheek. She had slapped me.

"No, don't you fucking dare raise your voice at me, and walk towards me with your finger pointed at me. It's not going to fucking work. Newsflash buddy YOU DONT FUCKING SCARE ME." She screamed.

I'd had enough of her bullshit and knew I was going to do something to her I'd regret later if I stayed. I walked out of her room and into mine. I then immediately began to punch the walls to relieve my anger. I kept on punching until there was a massive hole in the wall and my knuckles were ripped to pieces.

"Just stop it."

"Fuck off Remi. Go suck Stefan off or something." I spat as I walked past her. "I'm going out, don't wait up." I wasn't going out, I was going to work. I needed to get my mind off of Mirriella. I'd fuck every woman in that place if I had to.

"Jaden."