Abducted; Namjin

Chapter Sixty Three

Kim Namjoon

Self control...Control thyself...don't look back. Don't touch him...
My hands clench around the counter as I shamefully pretend to search the contents. Really I'm hiding. I'm hiding from meeting his upset gaze and hurt expression. I understand it all. I'm not immune to it. To him. To his hormones or feelings. I'm still hurting him though not my intention.
I thought keeping my distance from him and not touching him was what he wanted. I'm confused myself. I'm just trying to make him not hate me. Just tolerate me. If he can just put up with me like this...maybe we can grow to what we once were...or were building.
I want to settle down here. It's perfect really. I want a family with Seokjin. I want to not worry about wasting and risking my life working dangerous missions across the galaxies. I made that mistake with Hoseok and I refuse to do it a second time. My priorities are much more upfront this time around.
I truly love and simple want to cherish my human. I want to spoil him and take care of him like a proper mate. I want to him to have my babies and we can raise them here, together. On this abandoned and forgotten moon base.
It's not a bad place. It's every bit as good as a planet. I have the knowledge and can access the proper equipment to truly build a home—a community—here.
I've put a lot of thought into this. I wish I could show my vision to him. I want him to understand me. Not simply resent me. He thinks I did this to punish him but really what other choice did I have?
I could not take him to my planet. We would never be together. They would force him to have my child then throw him into a cage and breed him over and over again—
The rage that fills me as those imagines race through my mind is enough to snap steel. I take a few deep breaths and calm down. No, I would never let them take him. So my planet is out. Most other planets are acquainted with ours and would not help us against them.
Earth is obviously out of the question seeing as a human male could not be pregnant there. It would be just as bad as bringing him to my own planet.
This. This is it. We could not stay on ship forever. I like this place and there is no one coming to disturb us. No one else cares about this place. It's perfect.
When Taehyung gets here...we can continue to build and grow. A moon world of different types of aliens growing in harmony and peace...it's a vision I like to see come to fruition.
If I can just control myself. One mistake and it could ruin everything. I want Jin. I want him so much but if I touch him...if I mess up again...will that end everything? I'm terrified he's going to do something to himself or our child. The fact that my fears were nearly confirmed this day proves I still need to be patient.
He was going to leave. He was trying to escape me. In all honesty, I'm angry. I was so fucking angry when I saw him about to open that door that—
I don't want to think about what I wanted to do. A fleeting thought that I, thankfully, never brought to action. I would never hurt him—purposefully—mentally or physically but I can slip up.
I almost did something unforgivable in my rage. Instead, I'm stepping back and caring for him like I always want to. I won't mess this up.
Please understand that I'm trying, Seokjin. I will keep trying until he sees. Everything I'm doing is for him, for us. He's still doubtful, I can see that. I don't know how to erase that doubt, however, without making things worse.
Steeling my reserve, I finally turn back to face him and force a calm smile on my face. He's still hurt. Tears well up into his eyes but don't spill over. He's holding himself back as well.
"I'll make your meal then go back to bed. I have some work to finish." I quickly make his favorite meal and resist the urge to kiss him as I slide past and escape into my office.
Petty. I know I'm being stupid and mean but my sanity is waning every moment I'm with him. I just want to keep him by my side forever, safe and protected. Only seen by me. Only touched and loved by me.
It's an unrealistic fantasy.
Once in my office, I clammer over to my seat and drop down, rubbing my temples. My dick pulses in my pants making me grown. I'm really not immune to his needs and wants. When he wants it, I want it. Need it.
I won't mess up, though. He can't control it and I could see the confliction in his eyes. He wanted me and it made him more upset. Acting on those desires would not have helped anything.
After a few moments of gathering myself, I call Taehyung.
He immediately picks up the call. I observe his unrest expression. "Captain."
"What's wrong? Is everything alright?"
He frowns. "Not quite. Jooheon apparently had some unwelcome visitors a few days ago and they won't leave the ship. We aren't allowed near them. I'm not sure who they are but I do not believe they are allies."
I tap my fingers on the desk, anxious. "You haven't seen them?"
He shakes his head. "No. There are three of them. Their ship was destroyed somehow and now they have made a place here. Jooheon has made it clear not to interact with them." He pauses, frown deepening.
     "Go on."
     "I was curious and worried so I looked into them using our personal database..." He stops, staring at me.
     I clench my jaw. "Go on."
     Sighing, he nods. "From their voices and profiles—I've also managed to catch their names—they most definitely are not allies."
     "So who are they?"
     "They are Cedians. The worst kind. Hoseok is being locked in Jooheon's private quarters. They..." He bites his lip, clearly anxious and upset. "They, I believe, are the ones that pulled the trigger and had our planet nearly eradicated."
      I take several deep breaths. "What are you trying to say, Taehyung?"
      "I think they are the ones who infected and killed our people...and Hoseok."    
      My body freezes up as if my veins had been injected with ice water just as I hear a loud gasp from behind me.   
     I spin to see Jin in shock at the door, hand covering his mouth, the other holding his stomach protectively.
    I immediately disconnect the call and move to his side. "Jin."
    Tears pour down his face as he moves into my arms. He sobs. "H-Hoseok...can't stay there. Don't let him stay there with t-those m-monsters..."
     I hold him tightly and fight back my own tears. Hoseok right now is on the same ship with those that coldly killed him before. I want to save him and bring him here despite my previous intentions...
      Unfortunately my hands are tied as I had surrendered him to Jooheon. We had a deal. I only hope that he truly cares about him enough to keep him safe from those men.
     I need to contact him immediately and get as many of my people and soldiers here as possible. Surely he knows the repercussions of letting them know he's helping us and humans. He isn't stupid, at least.
    I really hope he's not stupid.
    Jin lets out a loud pain filled gasp and clutches me tighter. I focus my full attention on him. "Jin!"
     He looks up at me, pale. "I-it hurts."
     "What hurts?!"
     He looks down and I follow his gaze, shocked. Liquid pools on the floor by our feet, his legs drenched. He shudders and clutches me again as another wave of pain goes through him.
     Oh no. He's in labor!
     This wasn't supposed to happen yet! He still should have a month at least. I have no preparations here or supplies. I need a medic!
     He starts to slip, so I lift him up and rush him to the bedroom, placing him down gently and kissing his sweaty forehead. "I'll be right back. I need to make a call."
      He stares at me with unadulterated fear and I hate it. "I promise I'll be right back. I need to get a medic here. I unequipped to safely deliver our baby." I admit, hating the fact. I need to watch closely when the medic arrives in case I'm ever in a situation like this. I will not be useless again.
      He nods, closing his eyes and focusing on simply breathing. I reluctantly leave him and grab the holo panel. I make a fast decision and wait—impatiently.
     When the call connects and the image clears before me, I'm met with Yoongi's wicked smile. "What can I do for you, Captain?"
     I swallow hard. "I need Jungkook."
     He raises a brow, seeming to rapidly think. "And what would I get out of lending you my queen?"
     "Anything. I'll give you anything you want. I need Jungkook here immediately."    
     His reptilian eyes stare through me coldly before he glances to his left. Jungkook emerges from his side with a concerned look.
     "What's wrong, Captain?" He asks.
     "Jin is in labor."   
     "What?! It's way too soon!"
     "I need you. I only trust you to handle this."
     He looks at Yoongi before replying. "I'll go."
     I return my gaze to the reptilian, waiting. He nods once. "We will come but I expect you not to forget this favor."
     I bow my head slightly. "I will not."
     "I have your location. We will be there within a few hours." The call disconnects.
     I curse loudly. A few hours may be too late but it can't be helped. They are still far away and that's getting here quickly.
     I quickly attend to Jin only to see him no longer on the bed. I search the room—finding him kneeling in the corner and clutching the wall. The bed and floor covered in blood and more clear fluid.
      Shit!
     I kneel down beside him and pull him into my arms. He shudders through the pain. "Jungkook is coming, love. Please hold on."
     He doesn't answer, just holds on to my neck, his nails ripping into my flesh but I don't care. He can hurt me all he likes if it helps him.
     "I'm scared." He gasps.
     I stare into his eyes, wanting to be honest. "I'm scared too." I never got to go through this with Hoseok. He never got to have our child. This is new to me and I don't know what to do.
     "D-don't leave me alone a-again...." He whispers, holding back another sob.
      "I won't. Never again. I'm staying right here. We'll make it through this. I promise."
      I hope Yoongi keeps his word and brings Jungkook quickly. Time is running out.