Crystal Snow | Taejin ✓

12. This Fragile Love

Taehyung's P.O.V.

I am thinking of the best words to say as we walk along the trail of this snowy mountain. I look at Jin, he's having a bit of a hard time walking, but he tries hard to hide it by sometimes kicking on the snow in between his steps.

Did I go too hard? I believe not. I was really gentle last night. I couldn't help pounding hard though when I was near to cumming.

Is he mad at me? He hasn't spoken anything yet since we woke up. But he gave me food, so he wasn't mad, right? He even opened the packaging for me coz I couldn't tear it apart. I swear, if I didn't know better that he's a very hygienic person, I bet he could open any packaging with his bare toes. He seems to know a lot of 'life hacks'. He must be a really good husband at home.

If it wasn't for him, I would've not survived here in the middle of nowhere. He also cleaned my wound this morning to make sure it wasn't infected. And he also checked if I don't have a fever anymore.

But why are we so awkward right now? We haven't really talked that much yet except for some yes'es and no's. Didn't he like what happened last night? Is he regretting it now?

How should I start it?

"Jin, are you okay?" Wow, that's the best I could come up with after thinking too much!!

"Yeah, I'm fine Tae. I'm guessing you want to talk about last night?"

Well, there's no way I can outdo Jin's thinking. He's a very intelligent man. And he's definitely more mature than I am when it comes to life and all other things. I think him having a child at an early age has taught him a lot. And being in a... uhm I don't know, an 'unusual marriage' made him more composed and calm at times like this.

Whereas for me, I'm just the type who makes impromptu decisions. One who does things by how I feel at that moment. Just like last night, all I was feeling was the desire of having Jin, making him mine, though I know it isn't right. Now I feel bad that I seduced him into committing such a sin.

"Yes, Jin. I want to know how you feel about it, if you regret doing it?"

"No, Tae. I don't regret doing it. How I feel? I feel so bad that I cheated on Yoongi. But you know what, I feel even worse that if you ask me to do it again, I still would." He's now teary-eyed as he looks into my eyes.

What he said caught me off-guard. He really did want me too. Now I feel like my heart is on fire despite the freezing cold around us.

I walked to him and pulled him into a hug. I spoke beside his ear, "As I've said last night, this is our own universe. Here, we'll forget about anything else. So please don't feel this way, Jin. You are only giving yourself a hard time.

I don't regret anything too. You know from the start that I've always liked you. Damn, if only I could take the place of your husband, I definitely would! Even if I have to give up everything."

He pulled away and looked into my eyes and cupped my cheeks gently, "Thank you. Thanks for making me feel special and admired, Tae. Maybe I was feeling really vulnerable lately, but I don't want you to think that I gave in to you just because I was vulnerable.

I did what I did with you last night because at that moment, it felt so right when it is actually wrong. It's the only thing that felt so right, the only thing I did in my life for years that felt so, so right."

I'm lost in Jin's eyes, the warmth of his hand just made me feel a lot of things. That's when I closed the gap between us and captured his lips with mine.

His kiss is the sweetest I have ever tasted. Our warm breaths shared the same air as we breathe into each other's mouth and deepen our kiss.

I can feel Jin's tears falling down my cheek too. I never wanted to take advantage of his vulnerability. But I can't help it, I just want him to be mine right now. At least here, just here in our own world.

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Author-nim's P.O.V.

Namjoon walked into the Min's residence, kneeled down and repeatedly bowed before the altar to give respect to Jin's passing. His tears are streaming down his face silently.

He has always loved Jin since the day he met him. He lived over the years with this one-sided love and endured it just fine, as long as he is just around the younger. That's why he tried his best to keep him close. All of it are enough for him.

But now Jin is gone. And he's one of the reasons why. Feeling so guilty, as soon as his sister's wedding was done, he flew right back to Korea.

Namjoon was staring at Jin's portrait for a moment when someone pulled him up and suddenly punched him on the face.

"You asshole!! How dare you show your face here?!! You're the reason why Jin got to that fucking plane!! Can you bring him back, huh?? Bring my husband back!!" Yoongi screaming with tears on his face.

A lot of their friends and relatives stopped Yoongi from further making a scene. They took him upstairs to calm down.

Namjoon can't say anything except, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry," he cried.

Jimin approached him, "Director Kim, let's step outside."

"Dr. Park, Yoongi is right. It was my fault. I was supposed to be the one to board that plane. It should've been me," Namjoon can't hold back his tears.

"No, Dr. Kim, please don't blame yourself. We all know you are one of those who never wanted Jin to get hurt. More than even his husband, if I may say." Jimin rolled his eyes.

"He's really losing it. Soobin is still with me as he can't take care of the poor kid. All he did was stay in his bedroom. I'm actually having suspicions with him and that Hoseok guy.

I walked into the kitchen this morning, Hoseok's arms are around Yoongi's waist. I mean, what the hell, right?! I thought he was grieving! I wouldn't be surprised if he gets married again soon." Jimin annoyingly said.

Namjoon didn't seem to pay attention to Jimin's rant. "Dr. Park, when I heard of the news, I called the airline right away. My dad knew the CEO, he used to be his patient before dad retired. So we got some tip that a few passengers may have survived."

"Whattt?! Is that possible?" Jimin's eyes went wide.

"Don't get your hopes up though. But I am already building a search team to hire, to look around the possible area that the airline told me about.

I'm not expecting too much as I don't want to get hurt over and over again. But I just can't let myself rest without doing anything at the least." Namjoon said.

"Oh my gosh, Dr. Kim! Can I help you with that? Jungkook, my boyfriend, might want to get involved too. He's friends with Taehyung, he was also in the same flight."

"Sure, Dr. Park. We'll need all the help we can get."

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Have y'all loveys gotten the BTS meal already?

Tomorrow is the launch here but I've got a slot in the exclusive deal to get it a day earlier. My heart and stomach are so full today! Haha 😂

Let's support the boys whichever way we can!

Borahae 💜

~Author-nim 😊