This is supposed to be the best time of my life but it's like even if I try to fix it, it just becomes a bigger problem. As you guys know, my last conversation with Khanya, but now I don't know at the time what I was thinking, but the only thing I could come up with was I forgot Thandile was even in the picture.
Thandile is still under the impression that I want to be with her and I'm not even there anymore. I know I'm a bitch, asshole, any names that you can think of for doing this, and I feel like it, but I stopped caring about people's opinions a long time ago.
The sad part is I wanna tell her, but I'm scared of how she will see me. As much I wanna be with Khanya now, my dumbass still doesn't wanna lose Thandi and I know damn well I will.
She was actually on her way here, not looking forward to it, but I don't have much of a choice. I hear my mother screaming telling me Thandi is here.
Then Thandi gets in my room. "Hey." She says with a smile.
"Hi." I say then sit down on my study desk.
"What's wrong?" She asks.
I just shake my head then she comes to me and pulls me up so we are standing up. Her hands go over my neck and I don't know if my mind is elsewhere but I couldn't bring myself to hug her back.
She gets the vibes and let's go of me. "Aviwe, you called me here but it's like you don't want me here." She says.
"I'm sorry." I say then sit back down.
"Aviwe kwenzeka ntoni ngawe?" She asks then I shrug my shoulders.
(Aviwe what's going on with you?)
"Xabhektheni?" I ask.
(What do you mean?)
"You've been distant for a days now." She says.
I stay silent then she looks at me questionably. "Hayi, mina I don't know." I say then she goes to sit on my bed.
I get a notification on my phone and I grab it.
💕 Khanya 🥺
-Have you spoken to her yet?
-Nah, I want, but I can't bring myself to it.
-So what do you want to happen now?
-Eh, mina I don't know. I mean if I'm being completely honest with you right now, I'm actually sick and tired of hurting the hun like she don't have feelings. Since I got in her life, all I been doing is hurting her. Its just not right.
-Ufuna ukthini Aviwe?
(What do you want to do Aviwe?)
-Khanya how am I supposed to know. I told you I want you, but I also don't wanna be without Thandile. Anything I choose just won't work in my favour.
-Aviwe ke mina all Imma say is the ball is in your court cause you know how I feel.
(Aviwe ke mina - Aviwe then)
-Whats the story with simphiwe?
-She still around, but if you do what you gotta do, Imma also do the same.
-Hayi, Khanya mina angazi sham. I just feel that I can't do this anymore.
(Nah, Khanya me, I don't know shame. I just feel that I can't do this anymore.)
-Can we not talk about this over the phone.
-Fine. But I wanna finish talking about it today so masidibhane.
(Masidibane - let us meet up)
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Always Forever
Romance"Meet Aviwe, the charismatic and captivating individual who seems to have it all - loving and supportive parents, a tight-knit circle of friends, and unparalleled popularity. She's the epitome of perfection, the object of every girl's desire. But wh...
