Always Forever

Chapter 92

THANDI POV

After I had listened to those songs, I was the happiest I been and I really wish instead of her sending these, she'd be here instead, but I guess this is better than nothing.

I was even an emotional wreck right now. I'm actually sick and tired and annoyed at Aviwe for being this distant.

I looked around at everyone, and can someone please balance me. And why are they crying. Cause I was imagining Aviwe and I together when we were still together. Why are they crying. I shook my hand and- "Wassup guys."

I turned around and I saw the one person I've been wanting to see. We made eye contact for a while, and when I looked at her I don't know if she wasn't happy to see me, or she wasn't expecting to see me, but I know Aviwe, that was not a look of being happy to see someone.

I eventually broke eye contact and just looked down at my phone. It was quiet and I felt a specific someone's eye still on me.

Have you ever wondered where you stand in a person's life, cause that's me right now. Someone whereas you never had to question your place in their life, never felt somehow about anything that involved you, yeah, I feel like everything is falling apart right in front of me.

I stood up then left the room. I went upstairs and just layed on the couch. It was like a mini lounge when you get upstairs (y'all know what I'm talking about).

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AVIWE POV

I decided on the way home that I was in the mood for some fun and not some depression at home, so I was on my way to Kamva's crib.

On the way there, there was alot on my mind. I couldn't focus on shit. Thandile was invading my head, and me trying to fight it, was just making it worse.

I parked on the side of the road so I could pull myself towards myself. I picked up my phone and unlocked it. I found myself landing on Thandile's chat, I don't even know how, last I remember I was passing time by going to random places.

I stay for a minute as I looked at the last chat we had. Something crossed my mind, as I remembered what Buli told me. Tell her how you feel, or fix the relationship indirectly. Now for people who don't know, I'm not good at telling a person how I feel, so I send music and let that speak for me.

So, I went to my music library and went through my love playlist... I really just wanted to send one song, but I found myself sending three.

Since I've been with Thandile, I have never sent her music, made her listen to music. So matter fact I've never really told her how I feel. Mina one thing, I'm good with words, but most of the time, when I talk... I'm lying or I'm tryna get my way on something.

After I sent those songs, I looked at the chat and my heart beat began to increase the fuck off. I started shaking cause I was damn near nervous and when I saw she is online I became a wreck. I decided to just leave the chat, cause if I stayed, I would die before I get to my destination.

I arrived at Kamva's crib and seen Aya and Zukos cars outside. So the whole gang was here, and I was happy, cause I was looking for a good time and I just found it.

I got in the house without knocking cause why the fuck not. Kamva always barges in my crib without knocking so it's kinda our thing to not knock.

I heard some talking in the pajama lounge and that's the only room that had lights on so I walked there. I seen the others and their huns. "Wassup guys." I said and as I was about to get in someone looked back at me and shit.