Flickers

Chapter 50

I'm tired of crying over him but my tears betrayed me, still falling down my face and staining my pillows every night.

I knew that maintaining a relationship isn't an easy matter but I never knew that it would be this hard.

My days went on like a bitter gourd, at school, I would mostly listen to the lectures and at break time, I would leave as if my ass was on fire. I never looked at him in the face again, even with how much effort he put on just to talk to me I never gave him a chance.

Even Meryl, just after a couple of days, has already begun to suspect that we're not together anymore based on my actions. It has solidified when I told her that I don't want to talk about him anymore. Faith well, she's being faith, cursing around how much of a bastard he is and that I should not be persuaded by his antics.

I lift the rice storage under the stove and saw that there were not many rice grains left so I left home and turned to the sari-sari store near our homes.

"Aling Marie, can we have 1 kilo of rice?"

(AN: Aling is a title of familial respect used before the first name of a woman)

"Should I list it?" I nodded and she gave me a bag of 1-kilo rice then as I leave, I could hear the murmurs on my back.

"There's already a long list from them and they still haven't paid yet!"

(AN: Usually there's a notebook where names were written on the top and were filled with the necessities that the person borrowed, it's usually seen in a sari-sari store)

"Shh, it was because that brother of theirs had a fight and was looking for compensation"

I just quicken my step and in no more than a minute, I arrived home and shut the door. The shame of borrowing money and even food from stores just made me want to run out and never be seen from outside again.

We're just tightening our belts now, our pockets were all cleared off and there are still so many things that we need to pay. Bills, money that we borrowed from others for our father's hospital fees and funeral, the compensation that my brother gave is enough to let us know how poor we are right now.

My phone vibrated and without a doubt it was him, so I unlocked my phone and blocked him. Finally, peace has reigned in my head and I went back to the kitchen to cook.

Soon, dinner arrived and my brothers who just entered the dining room after working out in the sea came, their bellies rumbling along with my mother's order of Salompas to slap on her back.

The night has continued to deepen as the sun resumes its slumber, the moon illuminating my troubled face as I chatted with Alysson.

Ange: Can you print the assignment I've sent to you? I'll pay you back tomorrow

I don't want to go to the PC store since I don't want to spend money for half an hour on the computer plus the pay for the printed assignment. Alysson has a printer and it'll be cheap to just ask for help from her.

Alysson: Yeah no problem, I'll do that but how are you now?

Am I? Am I okay with all these things that are happening to me right now? No, but I know that life would continue no matter how much I try to pause it.

Ange; I will be, don't worry, I'll be okay in a few weeks you know me.

She just replied with some relationship advice that I probably won't apply in my current situation or just wouldn't care anymore since I'm not in a relationship with anyone.

I just closed my eyes and pray to God that everything that I'm facing he will be there to guide me.

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Chapter 50 is up!

Fun fact: Eric did fall in love with one of his church mates and yes, he was honest to ange but still! Argh!

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