Flickers

Chapter 90

It bothers me so much to see him so intimately close with other girls, I understand the concept of female friends but he is just too dense on the matter of being so close with them. Or maybe it's just me that is too sensitive about this I'm not sure anymore.

What I am sure of is that I am uncomfortable with it.

Fortunately, my mind has already deviated from it, there's a lot of activities that I have to finish plus reporting to be done since the first batch has already been reported. Sometimes I busied myself to take things off my mind and it usually works which was beneficial to me.

Bzzz

I look through the rectangular shape of metal, my phone, and ignored the person calling after seeing the name of the caller.

I didn't know how much time passed and when I glance at the clock, it's already five in the afternoon and now it's time for me to cook for our dinner.  I got down and was about to buy rice after seeing there wasn't any more left in our rice barrel when I met Eric on the street.

I blink profusely as if I wanted to make sure that I wasn't hallucinating, he is indeed real and is here. A frown makes its way on my face and I strode in his direction.

"What are you doing here?" At realizing what I've done, I felt that maybe my initial thought of him coming here to make peace with me was wrong and he just came to him for something. "Nevermind I don't care anymore" I was about to turn my back and walk away when he held my sleeve.

"Please, don't go, I want to talk to you" his voice was pleading and his eyes held desperation. I wanted to beat him but he already looks beat up.

I tug my arm and watch his eyes despairing more when he saw me avoid his touch. With a clench on my heart, my initial will of ignoring him has been thrown out of the window again.

"Let's go somewhere"

I didn't saw the brilliant light that lit up in his eyes for I have already turned to a conspicuous corner where not many people would come.

The two of us were standing still, nothing was said but just a long minute of staring at each other before I blink and refused to look at him. I hated that we would always fight because of this reason, my trust has also been affected when she came, and even though I have understood it wasn't his fault, it still hurts.

Just because it doesn't matter now doesn't mean I didn't care.

"I always make you cry," he said in a wistful tone and I suddenly felt something bad was about to come up. "Maybe I didn't deserve you anymore? Are you tired now because of my dense and insensitive actions?"

I felt flustered for no reason and the look in his eyes made me want to shed tears but I held it back but it was traitorous. He came up to me and was about to wipe the stray tears away from my cheek when we met eyes. His outstretched hand stiffen and he lowered it down and formed a fist.

"I'm sorry Ange, I'm truly sorry for making you cry and hurting you with my actions. I-" he stopped and I saw tears brimming in his eyes before he looked up to avoid letting it fall. "I'll stop this relationship of ours I-"

"No!"

I didn't care anymore, my mind has already left the uncertain future and the doubt and mistrust that stuck to my bones. All I know at this moment is that I don't want to end our relationship.

Memories flashed into my head, the good things overtook the bad ones and his careful sweet loving self remains bright against the contrast of his actions.

I felt reluctance of the relationship that would be wasted because of my pride, because of his insensitive actions, and the fact that we could probably make things right again.

"We'll try again okay? I don't want to break up" I choked out the words and held his hand for support.

There were already some people going out to buy food from the store and we were being looked at. I didn't care about the onlooker's eyes nor the gossip that would come out of their mouths, there is no medicine for regrets after all.

I would rather take another chance and get hurt than not take it at all.

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