Flickers

Chapter 49

A lot of times, a woman's guts are correct. It's a love and hate relationship for them, to be able to sense something amiss especially when it comes to the men that they are in a relationship with.

And that's what I'm currently feeling.

I don't know but for some reason, I could feel the unusual manner that Eric exhibits, how he's sometimes in a daze, and the guilt that he tried to conceal in his eyes. He would ask me for dates, bring me little presents as if he was making up for me.

"Is something wrong Eric?"

I just couldn't help but ask, the moment I finished my words I see his eyes getting restless. My heart galloped into my chest like beating drums, I could hear it loud and clear.

"No... why did you ask?"

"I feel like you've changed"

My throat felt like something was lodged on it, in my head I already envisioned something bad that was about to happen and it scares me. So bad.

"Changed? Wha-what do you mean?" He stuttered, he's lying.

I took a deep breath and lift my head, my eyes staring straight at his and the guilt was so clear in his eyes that I felt cold sweat on my back. If I was standing my legs would've turned into jello.

"Please be honest" my voice cracked and I could feel the tears brimming into my eyes but I held it back, the hope that was crushed by the facts in front of me stifles my heart but I held on.

He stated at me, it was those eyes that looked at me with love and hands that gently cared for me. His fondness was as clear as the sky, the sweetness that I always taste every time he does those lovely acts, and the happiness that is always present in my day- now it's becoming a snake steering its way into my heart and crushing it.

"I'm sorry"

I choked back a sob and tears immediately poured out of my eyes, my hands trembled as I deal with my breathing. I can't cry here, I have to go home, my mother would ask and I don't know how to explain to her why her daughter is sobbing her heart out.

"Ange, I'm sorry, it... she was just my church mate and I... she didn't know I have a crush on her. I'm sorry, fuck, I'm sorry. I'm a bastard I know. I know"

He was was so lost and if it was before I would've guided him, take his hand and be there with him to face his demons but now- it seems like I'm not capable of doing that anymore. There was another person that has his heart, one that I thought will always stay in mine.

"I fucked up I know. I'm sorry, ange, I'm so sorry" I could hear the sorrow laced in his tone, and I couldn't help but let the fury, that was about to burst in my head, blind me.

"We're over" my voice was wobbly at the beginning and I repeated. "We're over so don't show your face in front of me anymore" it was filled with anger and disgust, I didn't notice his crestfallen face and stood up.

I left him and went home burying myself into the bed, crying my heart out once more.

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Chapter 49 is up!

Fun (?) fact: Eric did fall in love with one of his church mates and yes, he was honest to ange but still! Argh!

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