The St Patrick Series Book #1: The St Patrick Bride

Chapter Twenty Nine: Not A Gentleman

Christopher's POV
If it wasn't for my boss being around today, I would have skipped work. I tried to get off in the middle of the day but he would not allow me. I wanted to come home so that I can do it right. I acknowledge that I was rough. I'm not a gentle lover but I was rough with her. She looked uncomfortable around me. I can't have that.

I saw her walk into the compound. There is so much hesitance in her steps. It's almost like she's not sure if she should be here. She slowly got closer. I took the shopping bags from her hands keeping my eyes fixed on hers. The look less troubled.

I badly want to understand how she interpreted last night. I know what it was. Does she?

"It's 10pm. I was worried. I thought you weren't coming back."

When I got home and she wasn't here, I freaked out.

"I was with your mom. We were buying things for the house. Have you ever heard of a console table?"

"No." I laughed.

"Me neither." She led the way to the house. When she opened the front door, she stopped to look at the left and right side. "It's a narrow table that goes on one of these sides or both. Your mom said two can work. I'm not sure what I want."

I don't want to talk about tables. I would like to talk about her dainty body in my arms tonight. I want a do over where I pledge gentleness, something I don't do. I want to look into her eyes as I make love to her so that there's no confusion in the morning

I set the bags down in the living room.

"Courtney, can we talk about last night?"

"What about it?" She avoided my gaze.

"What did you make out of it?" This morning she described it as a man almost double her weight pressing her down with her wrists restrained. I did that because she was being stubborn. I knew if she slipped away it will never happen again. It took Nate a matter days to have Maria. It happened fast. Court has been holding out on me for two years. I'm have run out of patience. "I was rough. It wasn't what you expected. I'm sorry."

"It wasn't what I expected." She agreed with her eyes cast on the floor. "Why did you do it like that? Why was I on my knees with wrists in your hand?" She showed me the bruised wrists.

"I was subduing you." I answered honestly. "Based on your track record I made a decisive decision to consummate this relationship."

"You sound like a soldier executing orders."

"I can't help the way I sound, it's part of me. We needed to do that. It's been two years Court. We needed to do that. I need to understand your point of view. What was going on in your mind?"

"Chaos! That has never happened to me before! I know what it was! I understood what you were doing but I didn't expect it to happen like that! I was a little shocked. I didn't want to lose my virtue like that."

It comes down to that. I was rough, it was her first time. I gave her q bad experience.

"I didn't know it was your first time. I'm sorry that I didn't ask."

"You didn't ask if I wanted it."

"You whet my appetite every other time. You play with me, you give me a taste, you get me hard and then you leave me hanging. Hiw long did you think you would set the rules? I wasn't playing that game last night. The moment you said you love me and you let me touch you, I decided it was happening. I decided it's time and no, I did not ask for your permission because I knew what the answer would be. I did not want that answer. I wanted it my way! Just this once, I wanted it my way. The truth of the matter is, I will always be a gentleman with the exception of the bedroom. Baby when I close those doors, the gentleman waits outside." I took hold of her waist. "In the bedroom, I'll never be a gentleman. I'll curse. I'll rip your clothes off. I will be rough. I will dominate and subdue you to a surrender. I will tie you up. I will spank you. I will mark you. I will do whatever the hell I want and you will comply and call me sir."