The City

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Sebastian
2024

"JACKPOT!" Simon yells from the other room

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"JACKPOT!" Simon yells from the other room. Much to my disappointment, Alec removes his lips from mine.

"Sounds like they found something. Let's go."

He kisses me swiftly and then runs out to the others. Grunting, I throw myself back on the bed. Damn it... Now I need a cold shower. Stupid Simon. Couldn't he have waited just a little longer before finding something.

This thing between me and Alec is rather new, but I love it. One day he just kissed me. And I didn't mind at all. I didn't even care that it probably had nothing to do with me, but more him needing a distraction. I didn't care. I just wanted his lips on mine. Know, its not just a distraction anymore, so who cares how it began.

Reluctantly I pull myself out of the bed and go to the others. Alec, Jace and Simon are raiding through a cabinet with canned foods. It's a great find, I know that. But seriously... I just need to get laid...

Alec and I have been fooling around any time it's possible, but we can rarely get away with it without getting caught. It's not that the others mind it - well Simon does but he doesn't count - they just don't want us to be too vocal or too visible. For the kids sakes. And I get it... but come on, I need to be fucked! Preferably roughly. This whole staying quiet thing isn't for me.

"Sebastian, look at this. They have canned soup." Alec throws a can to me, and I inspect it. It's tomato soup - my favorite - and not expired yet. I smile at him. God, he's so cute. That big grumpy guy has the sweetest side to him. He just doesn't let people see it. But come on, the guy remembers my favorite meal and makes sure I get it. In a world where food is limited. Adorable.

I love him. I really love him. And I think he has feelings for me too, he just doesn't show them. Except for when we have sex. I can tell it's more than just getting off for him. He likes being with me. Just as I like being with him.

Just as always, I'm instantly gutted with guilt. Sure, he might like me... but only because he thinks Magnus is gone. If he knew there's a chance that Magnus is alive, then he would leave me in a heartbeat. He would go looking for his true love, whether he's human or a cannibalistic monster. Nothing would stop him.

I should have told him a long time ago. I should have told everyone what I saw. And the more time goes by, the harder it gets. They'll hate me for not telling them earlier. Especially now that the people behind the walls are starting to create new laws. Or obligations, as they call them. If Magnus is in there, he is not safe...

I brush it off me and help the others pack the food into our bags. I can't be thinking about it now. I made my decision, and now I have to live with it.

When we've taken as much as we can carry, Simon peeks out into the streets. It's not only the creatures we are looking out for now, it's also The City. They are searching for survivors all the time. And we don't trust them. Neither of us want to live by some crazy obligations where the sole purpose is to control people like mindless ants.

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