Deviator

Retreat

2039
Alec

Today, I miss Jace more than ever. Magnus is still donating blood on a frequent basis, and I don't like what it is doing to him. He is tired and rundown all the time. I understand that it is in the name of science and that it is important, but I really don't like seeing him like this. It worries me.

Simon promises that if the testing shows what he anticipates it will, then we will have what we need for synthesizing the opponents in Magnus's blood. If we can get our hands on a real scientist with actual medical experience, that is. And that doesn't seem all that likely at the moment.

If only Jace was here...

Maybe Jace is the reason why I decided on a whim to take a few days trip to the wall. Gathering supplies was my excuse, but I don't really think anyone bought it. Magnus least of all. But I know that he trusts me, and I suspect that he has been able to sense my longing for my brother, so he just asked me to be careful and come back soon.

I stare at The Wall with my bow in my hands. I'm not stupid. I know that I'm in a dangerous area right now, but I just needed to feel closer to Jace. Even if we are separated by that stupid wall.

I hate feeling divided between the man that I love and the brother that I miss. I know I have made the right choice to be with Magnus and not go with Jace, but it doesn't change the fact that I feel like a part of me is missing...

I love Magnus. More than anything. I know that the longing for Magnus would be way worse than my longing for my brother, had I chosen a different path.

The only reason I can leave Magnus behind for my trip, is because I know he is safe and well taken care of, and the fact that it is only a few days.  Then I'll be back by his side. Playing nurse.  A task I really don't mind.

I smile for myself.

I have actually enjoyed it quite a lot. Taking care of him. Holding him close while caressing his skin. Even teasing him a little. I especially enjoy the teasing. God, I do love flirting, and touching that man. Something has clearly happened since we finally are safe. It is like his sexuality and lust has awakened, and he can barely control himself. – I can barely control myself around him. But we have to fight the urges for now. He isn't strong enough to exhaust himself physically right now. And I won't take any risks regarding his health.

But, oh lord, how it has been dreadful. All I want to do is touch him. Kiss him. Show him just how much I love him. Just as I have wanted to from the very first day, I finally got him back. But it is the first time that he can't control his desires too. He has had a few episodes, where he has been turned on, but nothing like it is now. I can see the lust in his eyes all the time, and it is driving me crazy.

Oh, but how I love turning him on... and anything can set him off these days. A simple touch or a lingering kiss. His body reacts instantly. And so does mine.

Which is another reason I needed time for myself. He is driving me insane.... Looking so damn sexy all the time. And even begging for me to touch him. It's been so fucking long and it's killing me to keep myself under control.

Suddenly I hear a faint noise behind me. I tighten my grip on the bow and discreetly glance over my shoulder. I can't see anything. I turn around and scan the area for any kind of movement.

Nothing.

Maybe it was just in my head. I loosen my grip again and relax slightly, looking back towards the wall. If only Jace was here. He would be the one in charge. Making the decisions. And probably much better ones than mine. I would have more free time to spend with Magnus. I smile for myself.

Wait!

I stand up instantly. This time I know I heard something. I scan the perimeter but noting stands out. I'm sure I heard something breathing. I squint my eyes and look in the direction of the sound. Suddenly I see it. A contour of a man. No, an Anthroe. When it moves, it isn't as fluent in its movements as a human being. Then I notice another one. And one more. But none of them is getting ready to attack. They are just observing.

One of the creatures suddenly rise up and looks right at me. I realize I have seen it before. I recognize its eyes. It's the one that ordered the other Anthroes around. He is the one who made one of the other Anthroes bite me.

It tilts its head to the side and observes me closer. Then it sniffs into the air, like its picking up a scent. It looks back at me, inquiring.

I glare back at it. I know I should be sending arrows at its head, but this is such a strange behavior, that I don't know what to do.

It takes a step closer, and I raise my bow, then it stops. It is calculating the situation. I have no doubt. But why isn't it attacking?

The creature suddenly growls at me. Not threatening but the same way as he did when he communicated with the others. Is he trying to communicate with me? and if so, then why?

I place an arrow on my bow slowly not to agitate it and provoke an attack. I'm outnumbered, so that would be stupid of me.

It then roars at me, tilts it head as it observes me again. And before I know it, they retreat. All of them. Without attacking.

"What the fuck..." I mutter as I watch them back away without taking their eyes of me.

Once they are out of sight, I decide that this has been enough of an adventure today and decide to go home. Without gathering supplies.

The entire way, I look over my shoulder. They completely creeped me out. I keep expecting them to jump out at me and attack, but I don't see anyone.

Maybe I'm just so worked up that I feel like I am being watched constantly.

I probably just need a good night's rest.