Cheryl and Toni are facing a new struggle in their relationship.
This one shot is a little different, because I wanted to write about a more 'realistic' topic. Just know, before you read, that this can be an actual struggle and that I didn't just make it up.
*little bit of smut
*fluff
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"Yesss..ahh...you can let go baby." Toni whispered against Cheryl's smudged lips, not wanting to break the connection.
Cheryl was sitting in Toni's lap with her legs and arms wrapped around the smaller girl's body. Two of the brunette's slim fingers were buried inside of her, while her thumb rubbed onto her clit in small circles.
Cheryl let out a little squeal and took in deep breaths as she was about to reach the point of no return. She let her head rest onto Toni's shoulder, placing sloppy and sporadic kisses to the tanned woman's neck. "Toni...mmm...I love you...so much...ahh." Cheryl mumbled, keeping her eyes closed.
Toni's hand was stiff from being in the same position for a long time, but she kept going as she finally felt Cheryl's walls tighten around her fingers. Having the redhead so close to her and making her feel this way was something Toni was obsessed with.
Cheryl breathed out soft moans in Toni's ear as she was slowly regaining control over her mind again. Like always, Toni had done an outstanding job of making her come...hard. Maybe even a little too hard.
As the overwhelming, yet incredible feeling subsided, a sudden wave of sadness washed over Cheryl. A whimper left her mouth as she failed to suppress the emotions inside of her, tears flowing down her cheeks.
While Toni carefully took her fingers out of Cheryl, she could feel her girlfriend getting closer to her. She was about to say something when she heard sobs coming from right next to her....Again.
"Shhhh it's okay." Toni spoke softly in the redhead's ear, rubbing up and down her bare back. "Everything's fine."
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(Flashback)
The crying after sex had become a regular thing now. The first time it happened Toni was taken aback by the abrupt change in Cheryl's mood and thought she was the one who had caused it.
Apparently even Cheryl didn't know what had happened. The only explanation she had was that she just couldn't stop the tears from spilling.
When it happened a second time Toni was confused and didn't quite understand what was going on with Cheryl. The poor girl cried like she had just lost her childhood pet.
Toni decided to try one more time to see if it was all just a coincidence or that there was a pattern. Toni's concerns grew when Cheryl cried again, for a third time.
"Cher, I'm not sure we can keep going like this, it makes me feel bad about myself, like it's my fault."
"But it's not your fault Toni, I just can't help it." Cheryl said feeling defenceless. She had no idea why it happened and yet it did. "So you don't want to have sex with me anymore?"
Toni shook her head. "No...look, of course I want to. It's just hard to see you so upset every time. It breaks my heart and I have no idea why it's happening." She said, hoping that Cheryl would understand her.
"I know Toni, I'm making things difficult, but please don't stop making love to me." Cheryl said almost sounding desperate, her big brown teary eyes searching for an answer in Toni's face.
Toni knew that it might be a little harsh to deny her girlfriend sex for something she apparently had no control over. Still she needed an explanation for her girlfriend's unusual behaviour, because there had to be a reason. "Okay I won't I just need you to know that if there's anything...even the slightest little thing bothering you, you can tell me okay? Cause I'm worried about you Cher."
