The Words I Speak

Not Yet

A wave after wave

A tsunami after tsunami

As poetic as it sounds

I drown

The ocean is my messy clarity

I look at the distance

See my life with endless possibilities

I call out to the sea

To take my thoughts and sorrows with it

For the day we both await

The day I free myself from all my fears

My chains from all that's holding me back

From myself

My feet under the sand

As the water washes my ankles

And for once in a while I breathe

You can't see it

But I'm deep withing the vast mystery

I'm a combination of all that is good and bad

The deeper I go the less people I see

The dangerous it gets the safer I feel

But it's suffocating

The image in my head that I'm yet to paint

When you look at me what color do you see ?

I think of  myself as all shades of purple

Majestic, romantic, stands out on its own

But blue is also suitable

Mysterious, mystical, magical, emotional

The colors I see, I feel, I am

What can I do when I fall in love

With the aura that radiates

A wreckage of all that's beautiful left broken

Paradise in my eyes tearing apart

My handwriting speaks for itself

No rhyme, No pattern

I see the bubbles as they leave my mouth

I'm in the deep but I'm nowhere near the end

I reach my hand up but I'm curious

I start to lose my vision

The voices are muffled

Can you find me when I can not see ?

Can you hear me when I can not scream ?

I lose my breath again and again

Until my lungs give out

Then there I am back at the surface

I guess I'm not to explore the ocean

Not Yet