The Words I Speak

Anxiety

*Trigger Warning* suicidal thoughts and trauma
READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!
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I'm writing the same words but have a different meaning in mind

I'm seeing the same letters but they're scattered all around

Thoughts running around my head nonstop

Did you close the door? Did you leave the oven on???

What are they thinking?? You embarrassed yourself are you happy now??

Your clothes are unkempt for heavens sake

You look like a disaster!! Put on a smile and play fake

Life isn't all about you! You're a burden on everyone

Can't you see that clearly?? Or do you want me to ask them one by one!!

Remember what happened 5 years ago

You were humiliated, depressed and stressed too

Filled with anxiety and panic attacks were common for you

Crying yourself to sleep hoping you'd get through

How about you relive that point in your life

Watch it over and over I'm telling you you can't survive

Ughhh the thoughts make me want to scream my lungs out

I just want to break everything including the mirror and shout

I've cried rivers now I'm numb to all of this

No feelings whatsoever there is no fix

STOP OVERTHINKING YOU IDIOT PEICE OF GARBAGE!!

TRASH WOULDNT EVEN LOOK AT YOU so take that shard with the sharp edge

Run it over your wrist write you're
W O R T H L E S S

Hide from everyone's gaze, disappear of course they won't notice

As that is what you are why can't you just die

Those words and gossips they say about you are true don't lie

There is no happy ever after for you, you deserve all the bad

Now let's see how much we can make you sad

Tonight you shall not sleep

You've already fallen in too deep