The Words I Speak

Not Worth It

You're only interested when I talk about her

It's like a slap to the face back to reality

From living in a land where I opened up to you

I told you many things that not many people know

I expressed myself and shown you me unfiltered

But it all wasn't worth the undivided attention

Unless it's her in the conversation

Your body twists and turns and faces me

Your eyes look at me while we're walking side by side

Everything in you suggests that you care about nothing else

So I sit in silence with my book on the desk

And I cry while my tears stain these pages

I can't help but think

Everything I ever told you echoed in one ear and left through the other

I am tired trying to figure you out

I realised that nothing I say matters so I'll be quiet

The one sound you'll hear from me is my breath

Because it's the only indicator that I'm alive

You seem like an impossible puzzle to piece

And I'm starting to wonder if that's even true

The moment that my feelings for you are gone

You'll no longer be that sparkling mystery

The pedestal you're on is goal oriented and far-fetched

It is something no one will ever reach

I've set the bar too high so I'm coming down

Once you're out of sight you'll be out of mind